fate

"I loved and I loved and I lost you"

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"You have to let go."

Easier said than done.

"Move on."

How?

"Forget her."

Impossible.

You are unforgettable, those eyes that held so much life, so much hope. Looking at me, staring into my soul.

Haunting me.

Those same eyes that started to fade away as your grip on my hand loosened, those eyes that the light slowly disappeared from, those eyes that were filled with - oh,so much regret and sadness as you struggled, struggled hopelessly against death's iron grip.

I'll never forget how they looked in that moment.

You wanted to live.

And I - I had wanted to live for you.

But now that you're gone, who am I living for?

They said you died for a noble cause.

A sacrifice that would not go to waste.

You died a hero.

And they promised your name would go down in the history books.

And be carved into the stone monument, along with all the memory of the other names that perished with their bodies.

But what use was it?.

They would never know you, they didn't know you, they never knew how much you wanted to live, they never knew how you were the embodiment of hope...for me.

They never knew how alive you had been.

I loved you.

I still love you.

But I lost you.

My fault.

Too late, I was too late.

Too late when your body fell, too late when your eyes closed, too late when you said your last words, too late when I finally said those words -

You never let me finish.

And those words will forever be incomplete.

Like the gaping hole you left in my heart, my soul, when you left this world.

I wanted to tell you again, just one last time - "I love you."

But you said those words and vanished, without even waiting for my reply.

And you left me kneeling on the ground before what was once you, screaming through the pain, fighting through the tears, "I love you too...Dammit, I love you too! I love you so...much...I..."

Destiny is cruel isn't it?

Fate brought us together, fate tied her red string around our wrists, bound together since birth.

But destiny decided to cut that string, and in a second, the thread tore apart, tearing my heart out with it.

We were fated to meet, but never destined to stay.

Author's Note

Heyoooo school's started for about 2 weeks now? And things are getting super busy so I won't be updating as often but I'll try to when I can:)