Voices

Sometimes

When it's late at night

And there's nothing but the suffocating silence

I hear voices

Voices in my head

They've always been there

But they seem to fade in

And fade out

But the night

Is when they get loud

And they tell me things

Things I don't want to hear

Things that make me want

To curl up into a ball and cry

Things that make me want to step off the edge

So I try

To shut them out

To drown them out

To smother them

But they won't go away

They only rise in volume

So I scream

Until my throat is hoarse

And then I'm throwing my books on the ground

And punching the mirror

And every morning

The scars start turning up on my skin

Little red ugly marks

And every night

Why are my cheeks wet?

And why

Do they look at me this way?

Why do they turn away?

Why?

Can't they see it hurts?!

It hurts

It hurts

It hurts

It hurts so much

And these voices won't stop

It hurts

My head hurts

It hurts like hell

I think I'm going to fall

To fall

Down,down,down

To the ground

And into the cool earth

And sink downwards

Until I burst

Into nothing

Down,

down,

down

And maybe these voices will stop.