Chapter One Hundred Thirty Five

"Come on Ji Nan! Push him!"

Cheng De's voice was cold and loud. I hadn't meant to even be in this situation. To be standing in an alleyway face to face with some guy that slept with Han Jie Xue. I didn't care much about her anyway so her sleeping around wasn't something I cared about but my character was something. This guy had the nerve to go around and say that I was a pussy even though he's the one speaking on my name. I hate people like him the most.

"You have an issue with me don't you," I asked calmly?

The boy smiled, " you're the pretty boy that Han Jie Xue is calling her boyfriend now? What? Mad that I slept with your girl?" He began to laugh and the people he was with did too. "I'm sorry to tell you this man but your girl-"

"I could care less about what you did to her. You have an issue with me don't you?"

I wasn't here to talk about petty things I was here to get results and whether he fought back would determine how much I beat him.

"What are you talking about man?"

I sucked my teeth and turned to look at Cheng De, "yet I'm the one thats pussy." I let out a sigh and turned around and started walking away. "If you don't want to fight me don't speak on my name. I don't like to play games with little boys."

"Tough of you to say that while walking away."

When theta sentence hit my ears I immediately stopped walking. I glanced over at Cheng De to see that he had a slight smile on his face. I cocked an eyebrow at that but didn't question him about it. I turned on my heels and started walking towards the guy. He was looking at me but was just joking with his friends. How stupid.

When I got close enough that I could reach him I punched him in the face. He fell to the ground and the small group of people that he was with moved back a little. I looked down at him to see that he was holding his nose. If it was my guess I'd say it was broken. Did that stop me from kicking him? No.

After a good few kicks I stumped down beside him and tilted my head. I was about to say something when a sharp pain hit my head. I grabbed at my head and before I could even make a sound my eyes opened.

My breath was heavy as my eye scanned the dark room and only when I tried to move did I realize I was in someone's arms. I looked up to see Ba Wei sleeping. I let out a relieved sigh and relaxed again. I closed my eyes but as I started to drift back too sleep my body jerked back awake. I sigh and ran a hand through my hair. Even now my body doesn't want to relive such a memory. I turned on my side and looked up at Ba Wei and too my surprise his dark eyes stared right back at me.

"Ah, I'm sorry did I wake you," I asked softly?

"En, but it's fine." His voice was scratchy as he said that. "What's wrong?"

I knitted my brow together at the sudden question, "nothing. I'm fine."

He didn't say anything and just wrapped his arms around me. I just laid there confused because sure I had had a nightmare but that doesn't mean that I was distressed in any kind of way. I had become use to the sudden nightmares now.

"You sure? You jerked awake right then."

My face started to turn red, "yeah, it was just a nightmare."

He was quiet for a second, "do you usually have nightmares."

"Um. Only every now and then. They don't bother me that much anymore."

He just gave an okay and tightened his arms around me. I took the time to glance around the room we lay in because it wasn't his nor was it mine. I moved slightly and Ba Wei arms tightened again.

"If you hold me any tighter you're going to squeeze me to death," I said looking up at him.

"Then stop moving."

I chuckled a bit and leaned up and pecked his lips. His body stiffened at the sudden kiss and his eyes snapped to mine. I watched as a small smirk spread across his lips.

"Behave. We're in someone's house you know."

"I had thought this room didn't look familiar."

Ba Wei chuckled and loosened his arms around me. I took the chance to slide closer to him. I buried my face in his chest and took in a deep breath.

"We would've went beck to your place but you passed out." His hand that was laying against my waist slowly slid up and down the line of my body. "I have to say that you held up pretty well drinking with Jun Li."

"What do you mean? I mean did you not hold up well when drinking with the guy."

I looked up at him with curious eyes and although he wasn't looking at me I could tell that he knew what kind of expression I wore. He didn't answer and it kind of annoyed me so I reached up and pinched his chin. His eyes snapped to mine.

"Are you going to answer me?"

"He's never asked me to drink with him it til today."

"Really," I said surprised. Is there a particular reason why?"

Ba Wei just sighed and looked away, "In truth although me and Jun Li are close I don't know a lot about the guy. It's probably for the best tho. Our lines of work don't need to cross."

I didn't say anything and just stared at him. For some reason he seemed a bit sad. Was talking about this making him upset? I mean it was just a topic of why Jun Li had never asked for him to have a drink with him before. Did I poke a nerve in him or something?

"Um," I started, "I'm sorry."

"Huh? For what," he asked looking down at me.

"It just seems like me asking that made you upset."

Ba Wei laughed softly before moved from his laying position on his back to his side. He didn't move the hand that had been on my waist though. Instead he used it to pull me as close as humanly possible to him.

"It's cute you're showing concern about such small things."

He buried  his face in my hair and my face began to heat up. I could feel his breath on my scalp every time he exhaled and the goosebumps that would make their way over my skin made it hard to even concentrate.

Eventually I finally said, "I don't want to make you uncomfortable."

Ba Wei didn't say anything and just began to use his thumb to make circles on my waist. I would lie and say that this wasn't a comfortable set up but I simple couldn't. Sure the ending of that nightmare was still playing in my head but at least I had Ba Wei as a distraction. At least I had him at all.

I have felt alone for so long and as time passes it seems that it gets lonelier. The more I try to make it seem that I'm okay it just makes everything worse. I lost my mom a long time ago. Even with me trying to still speak with her it's evident that she's moved on, and so has my dad. I'm sure that any day now he'll just stop calling or texting me. It's not like he saw me as his son anyway. I was more of a product to him; a product that he owns and can do whatever he wants with. Both of them look at me and see the reminder of what could have been a happy life.

I buried my face into Ba Weis chest and fought the feeling to cry. Even though I was here in his arms I felt like everything was falling apart. My entire life again was turning upside down.

"Ba Wei," I called softly.

"Hmm?"

"You won't leave will you?"

He was silent for a minute, "why are you asking  me that all of a sudden?"

"Just...answer that question," I said as my voice started to shake?

He pulled me out from his chest and looked me deep into the eyes before asking me what was wrong. In truth I didn't know what was wrong. I just felt heavy. Maybe it was the alcohol still in my system that made me like this but I just felt alone. I shook my head and as I did tears started to fall from my eyes. Ba Wei knitted his eyebrows together before he started to wipe my tears away.

"Ji Nan...please tell me what's wrong."

"I...I don't know."

"Does it have to do with that nightmare." I shook my head, "then what."

I looked up and met his eyes and took a deep breath, "my life feels like it's falling apart. Everyone in my life that I care about his leaving."

He was quiet for a few seconds before saying, "I won't." He planted a kiss on top of my head. "No matter what happens Ji Nan I won't ever leave."

"But-"

"I told you before didn't I? I'm stuck on you."

As I stared into his eyes that feeling of emptiness didn't leave but it felt a little less large than it originally was. I scanned his face until my eyes landed on his lips. I didn't want to think about anything right now so I just leaned up  and kissed him. When I felt him starting to kiss back I parted my lips and he instantly took the invitation. I let out a soft groan as his tongue entered my mouth. I struggled to keep up with the kiss the entire time he had control and as our lips parted I took in a big gasp of air.

"I," was the only word I could get out before Ba Wei leaned down and kissed me again. This kiss made my mind go blank in the process.