|M| Chapter Fourteen

We stayed at that little pond talking about nothing for an hour. Within that hour, I learned multiple things about Ba Wei. Like how he loves animals and how he hates sweet food. I never thought he would actually tell me anything about himself, so when he actually started answering my questions I was caught off guard. Even when I asked why he was telling me all this, he would say it was because I wanted to know.

Although I knew a lot about Ba Wei there was something that I truly wanted to ask. He said there was consequences that came with being his friend, and I wanted to know why. I know that me asking this would probably provoke him to ask more questions about me; but I didn't care.

"Hey," I called, "why are there consequences when being your friend?" He didn't look at me but rather just stared at the water. I had been studying Ba Wei a lot since I met him, and one thing is clear. He tends to not want to speak when it's a question he doesn't want to answer. It's a cute trait on him, but it is frustrating.

"My face and name brings baggage." His voice was low, and stern. He sounded really serious, and this made me even more curious.

"What kind?"

"The kind that is dangerous." I didn't mean to smile, but I did.

"Sounds like fun." His eyes met mine and a smirk appeared on his face.

"So what's with you?"

"What do you mean?"

"I mean what's up with those fake smiles you love to showcase." I couldn't help but laugh nervously.

"I'm just really friendly. I want to make everybody happy."

"So faking a smile is you being really friendly?"

"I don't know. I just find that it makes life easier." As we spoke about this an unfamiliar feeling surfaced within me. I couldn't identify what it was but I knew that this topic wasn't something I wanted to talk about anymore. "Can we not talk about this any longer?" My voice was softer than what I wanted.

"Sorry, I don't mean to make you uncomfortable."

"No, I'm fine. I'd just rather not discuss that." I was happy that he picked up on how I felt. He's the first to do that in a long time. I pulled out my phone and checked the time. It was almost midnight. "It's getting really late. We should probably head back."

"Yeah," he said as he stood up and I followed soon after.

"Lead the way sir." He chuckled, but didn't object and led the way out. I never thought I'd appreciate the city until now. I love nature and that place was beautiful, but I like being familiar with places I go.

"Do you want to get back on my back?" He turned to look at me with one of his eyebrows raised.

"No, I can walk," I said as I walked pass him.

"Feisty," he whispered under his breath. I found myself unconsciously smiling, and I couldn't help but think that this guy was still slightly a dick.

We began our walk back to my apartment and as we walked I let my mind wander. I wanted to think about normal things but my thoughts settled on my father. I couldn't help but feel like he was keeping something from me. I know he's a grown ass man, but I don't like secrets. Secrets are the reason our family broke up.

Of course I didn't blame my father for this because it wasn't his fault. It wasn't my fault either. It was completely my mothers. She is the one that decided to cheat on my father with no one other than his best friend. To this day I still can't figure out why they thought my father would react happily to finding  out this information. I remember their yelling and the silence that followed shortly after. I still don't understand why she couldn't have just told my father she wasn't happy instead of hurting him.

I despise my mother because of that but I still love her. I still miss her. I might sound contradicting but thats just how it is when It comes to my mother. She gave birth to me, so I still have some deal of respect for her. I still wanted to see her and have a relationship with her, but she refused to see me. It had been like this since her and my dad split.

I use to think that she hated me, but even when I look in the mirror I see my father in all my features. She probably just didn't want to be reminded of him every time she saw me. I was pulled out of my thoughts by the boy beside me.

"Hey, were here." I blinked a few times and looked up and indeed we were in front of my apartment building. My face immediately began to heat up. He had to notice that I zoned out, so why didn't he say anything until now. The more I thought about it, the more I was sure that my face resembled the color of a tomato.

"Uh sorry," I said as I scratched my head, "let's head inside." I walked quickly towards my building and I glanced back and Ba Wei was calmly following me. I climbed the stairs and soon I came face to face with my door. I unlocked it and stepped inside. I switched on the lights and grabbed Ba Wei's bag. I handed it to him and he tossed it over his shoulder. Our eyes met for a moment and I couldn't help but smile.

"I should get going."

"Yeah, I wouldn't want you to get in trouble because of me."

"With how late it is I'm probably gonna still get shit from my father." He laughed lightly after that sentence but although he was joking there was something that was off. I didn't mention it and instead laughed with him.

"If you need someone to talk to after just send me a message. I should be up." Stupid. Why do I always put myself in these situations. I was exhausted from the long ass walk, and I knew that after a shower I would most likely pass out. So why did I just volunteer for something that would require me to be awake.

"I'll keep that in mind. See you later."

"See ya." I waited until he left my line of sight before I closed the door. I dropped to the floor and started to peel off my shoes. My feet were slightly swollen from the walk, but they really didn't ache. I rubbed them for a few minutes before I got up.

As I made my way to my room I began to strip. So fast in fact that when I finally made it there I was fully naked. I threw my clothes into the overflowing dirty clothes basket and walked into the bathroom. I looked into the mirror and was disgusted. I looked sweaty and it wasn't something that looks good on me.

I turned on the shower and leaned against the sink. After a few minutes passed I stepped into the stream of hot water. It felt nice to wash away all the dirt that had gathered on my skin. As I began to drag the wash cloth across my body a certain part of me began to rise. I wasn't to surprised since it had been a while since I last masturbated.

Instead of giving it any attention I just continued to wash my body. After I was satisfied, I stepped back into the running water and began to rinse myself off. As I rubbed the soap suds off slowly but surely one of my hands wrapped around the member that had been begging for attention.

I let out a shaky breathe as I began to stroke. I started slow, so slow that it became a bit painful; but I enjoyed every second of it. I gradually increased my speed and soon my breathing became heavier. I could feel my balls began to draw up.

I let my head fall back as I stroked faster and faster. My breathing became heavier, and I let my mind wander. Soon my mind went to Ba Wei and only then was I pushed over the edge.

My entire body shuddered and I let out a low moan. I leaned my head back under the water and watched as that cloudy liquid painted the shower wall in front of me. I stood under the water breathing heavy until the pleasure subsided, and as it did I was left with a unfamiliar emotion within me.

"I...I just..." I couldn't even say what I had just done. I furrowed my eyebrows and washed the evidence off of my hands. I hurriedly washed my hair and got out of the shower. I can't describe how I felt. I didn't feel ashamed of doing it, but I was confused.

I had never even looked at another man before let alone thought about them during a time like that. I didn't know what to think of it, so I just pushed it out of my mind and got dressed.

Once I was dressed I went and got into bed. I was about to head to bed when my phone dinged. I was ready to see who it was but realized that it wasn't in my bed. Another message came soon after and I finally realized that it was coming from my dirty clothes basket.

I got up and walked over to it. I pulled my phone out of my uniform pants and checked the messages.

Ba Wei: hey

Ba Wei: are you asleep?

I stared down at the messages trying to decide if I should send a text back. In the end I did since I had told him he could text me when he needed someone to talk to. I laid back in bed and sighed.

Me: no, I was in the shower.

Not even a minute passed before I got another message.

Ba Wei: ah, how was your shower?

As soon as I read that message my face immediately turned beat red. I couldn't help it. I had pushed it to the back of my mind, but it came flooding back out as he asked this.

Me: it was good. Have you taken a shower yet?

Ba Wei: no, I usually take one in the morning when I get home this late.

Me: you usually are out this late at that pond?"

Ba Wei: no I usually hang out on the roof.

That doesn't surprise me since he did skip class a lot. It's the usual hangout for most delinquents during class hours.

Me: that seems  kind of dangerous

Ba Wei: I am dangerous

I couldn't help but laugh even though I doubted if he was kidding.

Me: sure. You're a real touch guy

Ba Wei: you say those with sarcasm now.

Me: I won't change it

Ba Wei: I can make you change it

Something about about that sentence seemed awfully erotic. Maybe it's just my imagination or something. Wouldn't be the first time I read to far into the lines.

Me: you can try

Ba Wei: I won't try I will.

I shook my head and chuckled. I wonder if he acted like this with all of his friends. I know I only act like this with him because he is my only friend. I wonder what it's like to have multiple friends. It's probably stressful.

Me: we'll see. I have to head to bed.

Ba Wei: alright. Goodnight.

Me: goodnight don't stay up to late.

I put my phone on charge and pulled the covers up to my nose. Just as I was about to close my eyes, my phone dinged again. I opened it and read the message.

Ba Wei: I won't

I sat my phone backdown and got comfortable again. Soon my blinks began to become longer, and that night I went to bed with Ba Wei on my mind.