Chapter Fifty-Three

When I left my apartment I really didn't think of where I would go but anywhere was better than there. I stomped down the stairs with tears running down my cheeks. I know me getting this angry over something like this may be childish but I don't care. He couldn't even tell me that I mean anything to him. Why do I care so much for that man when he doesn't give a shit about me?

I turned onto the dark street in front of my apartment building and just started walking. My head was empty and that all too familiar numbness had already washed over my body. I wish I could say that the tears streaming down my face were because of an emotion but it wasn't anymore.

I felt entirely empty and for the first time since I moved I felt alone. It had been so long since I felt nothing. It made me feel as if I was just a corpse walking around. I wiped my face and took in a deep breath. It's fine. Why do I even care? It's not like this is surprising.

I don't know how long I walked without nothing on my mind but when I finally chose to pay attention to my surroundings I had no idea where I was. I looked around the dark street at the unfamiliar buildings and I raised an eyebrow.

"Well this isn't good."

I sighed and pulled out my phone and scrolled through the contacts. I couldn't tell you how ho I was looking for, but I just felt the need to do this. As I passed my fathers name I stopped. Without another thought I deleted his number. I continued scrolling and soon I passed Ba Wei's name. Should I call him? It's not like he's not up. He's usually up this late.

As I stood there trying to decide if I wanted to call him my phone began to ring. I looked down at the screen and to my surprise it was Ba Wei. What good timing. I picked up the phone and when I heard his voice my heart began to beat fast.

"Hello," he said.

"Hello."

When that word left my mouth my voice was shaking. I knew that he heard the tone in voice, and I could only wish that he didn't say anything.

"What are you doing?"

"Nothing," I looked around the unfamiliar street again, "Just taking a midnight stroll."

"Really? Why? I thought you had to do something today."

When I heard that sentence my eyes began to sting. I cursed under my breath and took in a deep breath. Why am I about to cry? Why am I reacting like this? Why am I so weak.

"Yeah, that didn't go that well," I said with a sniffle.

The line went silent for a minute and I mentally cursed myself for making that sound. I sighed and was about to say something but Ba Wei spoke first.

"What's wrong?"

His tone had changed. It was softer than it was before and for some reason this made the tears that I was holding back fall. I wiped my face and took a deep breath.

"Um I'm fine."

"Don't lie to me."

"I'm not."

He was silent for a minute, "Where are you?"

"Why?"

"Just tell me where you are."

His voice was stern as he just this, and for some reason I felt the urge to tell him. The problem was that I didn't know where I was. I didn't know how long I walked, let alone if I took a turn or not.

"I don't really know where I am," I said softly.

A chuckle came from the other side of the phone, "really?"

"Don't laugh."

"How can I not," he responded in a full on laugh. I didn't say anything after that and he soon stopped laughing. "look I'll help you find your way back home."

"I don't want to go back."

He was silent for a minute before he cleared his throat. I was praying he wouldn't ask why. I didn't want to have to explain that because I knew I'd end up crying.

"I'll send you the address to the place I'm at. Come here then okay?"

My phone dinged and I looked down at the text message. I put the phone back up to my ear and softly said okay. I hung up the phone and opened the text message. I clicked on the address and to my surprise it was to a club. It wasn't too far away. On foot I could make it there within thirty or forty minutes. As I began walking I couldn't help but wonder what he was doing at club on a school night.

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When I made it to the club it was a rather long line outside. I checked the address on my phone to make sure this was correct and it indeed was. I sighed and clicked on Ba Wei's name and waited for him to answer.

"Are you here?"

His words were slightly slurred, "What do you think."

The line went dead after that and I raised an eyebrow. He was definitely drinking by the slurring in his words. I ran a hand through my hair and sighed, Hopefully he's not too drunk, I don't want to babysit him.

"Ji Nan!"

I turned sharply around to see Ba Wei walking towards me with a group of people. There were two guys and two girls with buzz cuts. Looking them over I would definitely say that they looked rather shady, but it wasn't my place to judge anyone.

"You're still in your school uniform."

I looked down at my attire and I was. I didn't even have time to change or even shower before I left. Ba Wei stopped in front of me and I looked up at him.

"Sorry, I didn't have much time to change."

He didn't say anything and just stared at me for a few minutes. The people that he had walked up with were behind him joking around. Ba Wei finally stopped staring at me and turned around towards them.

"Hey, you guys can go ahead without me."

One of the guys looked over at me and when our eyes met I immediately shifted mine.

"Really, The parties just beginning."

"I gotta take care of something."

"Nah don't lie. That's definitely a someone." The four people began to laugh and I looked up at Ba Wei to see that a small smile was on his lips. "But alright. See you later then."

I watched as they began to walk away and turned my attention to Ba Wei. When I looked up at him our eyes met. His eyes were were a bit drowsy and his cheeks were flushed. The sent of alcohol was also strongly coming from him.

"Have you been drinking," I asked as we started walking.

"How did you guess," he asked chuckling?

"It's a school night."

"And," he looked over at me?

I couldn't help but smile at his comment. After that we fell into silence. As we walked down unfamiliar streets I felt relaxed.

"Why were you crying?" My eyes widened and I looked over at Ba Wei.

"What are you-"

"Don't say you weren't because I can tell by the puffiness of your eyes." I didn't know what to say. I stopped walking and Ba Wei stopped slightly in front of me. Dammit, why does he have to ask that now. "Are you going to tell me?"

"It was nothing," I said as we started back walking.

"It was something if it made your cry."

I sighed, "look just let it go."

"No," he grabbed my arm, "who made you cry?"

Why would he think it's a who rather than a what? Is he really just that good.

"It's nothing just let it go," I said pulling my arm away. I heard a sigh come from behind me but he didn't say anything. I don't want to talk about it.

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Hello everyone sorry about the late chapter. These people been working me. I finally had time to finish this chapter so I hope you enjoy ❤️❤️❤️❤️