Chapter Eighty-Seven

When I heard his voice my blood ran cold. Don't get me wrong I'm not afraid of my father but there are times I know when to pick my battles. This was one of them. I had already seen this coming but his tune itself made me nervous.

"Uh...yeah," I said as I turned to face him.

As I glanced over at my fathers sitting figure I couldn't help but sigh. He was drinking and judging by the type of bottle it was it was pretty strong.

I wouldn't say my father is a heavy drinker when he's angry but I can't say he's a light one either. He would constantly come home drunk after him and mom split and break things. First it was things inside the house  like TVs but then he turned his fist onto the women he use to bring home. I remember being so scared hearing the glass shattering and screaming, but even when he would see me he would only falter for a minute. How pathetic right.

"Where have you been?"

"Out with a friend," I said as I walked into the kitchen.

"Dressed like that? Please try to come up with a better lie."

"I'm not lying," I said as I opened the fridge.

"Really? Why are you dressed like that then?"

I closed the fridge and walked over and took a seat at the island. I looked over at my father and ours met. I couldn't help but sigh because I knew he wasn't going to stop until I told him exactly where I was.

"They told me to dress nice so I did. Can you not make this a big deal when it wasn't."

He stood up, "it's not a big deal you say but If I'm correct you've been suspended from school haven't you?"

"Yeah."

"Not gonna try to hide it this time?"

I raised an eyebrow at this because for one I couldn't if I tried. They were going to inform him either way, so denying it would just make this worse.

"Why would I? You were going to find out one way or another."

He didn't say anything and just sat across from me. He sat his cup down and ran a hand through his hair. His eyes were dark and I knew that if I wasn't careful with my speech he would get angry fast.

"Do you enjoy wasting my money?"

"It's not like I tried to get suspended. It more or less just happened."

"You getting suspended is not something just happens, so just tell me what you did," he said calmly.

I was getting annoyed. This was the main reason why I don't try to argue my case. Whether I do it or not it's my fault so why argue with a man that won't listen. It's like talking to a brick wall and the more you talk the taller the wall becomes.

"I didn't do anything. I just told you I didn't do anything but no surprise you don't believe me."

"Can you blame me for not believing you Ji Nan? Do you remember the last time you were suspe-"

"Yes!" I couldn't help the rise in my voice. I didn't want to hear about it again. I didn't want to be reminded of the same shit over and over again. "I remember. You act like I wasn't there. You act like I wasn't in that fucking jail cell."

"And who's fault was it that you were there huh? It sure as hell wasn't mine. If you want me to trust you maybe not get into trouble and make me have to clean up another mess."

We stared at each other without saying a word for few moments. It truly was amazing to me how this man can say that so easily. I sighed and got up.

"I'm sorry that I'm such a problem for you father."

"I didn't say that."

"You didn't have too," I said as I made my way to my room.

"Did I say you were dismissed to your room?"

I stopped walking and turned around to face him. A sigh slid past my lips as I crossed my arms. I saw this coming but why couldn't he just leave it at this. I just wanted to get out of these clothes and lay down, but no.

"Where did you go?"

"Our. I just told you."

"With who."

"Does it really matter so much as of who?" He cocked an eyebrow, "Ba Wei."

"Who," he asked confused?

"My tutee. I went out with my tutee."

"You thought it would appropriate why?"

A small smirk made itself onto my face, "he was suspended too so it's not an issue."

When my father heard that sentence I wish that he found it as funny as I did. Instead his face was emotionless. So emotionless that I couldn't read him at all. He slowly stood from the island and made his way towards me.

"You got someone else in trouble with you!" The boom of his voice made me flinch a little.

"What? No. It's the other way around actually."

"You dare lie to my face!"

I ran a hand through my hair, "believe what you want. You're not going to believe me even if it's the truth."

Before he could say anything I turned and walked into my room. In truth as I looked around the room I didn't want to sleep there. I knew for a fact my father wasn't leaving in his state and I didn't want to be around him anymore. His nagging was giving me a headache.

I get that I shouldn't get suspended I get that but it's the fact that he's blaming me for something I actually didn't do this time. I wouldn't lie if it was my fault, but the man in there didn't understand that.

I was brought out of thoughts by my fathers voice, "I can't believe you because I know you Ji Nan. I know how you operate."

I didn't say anything in return and just pulled out a bag. I walked over to my closet and tossed in a change of clothes and my charger. I walked into the bathroom and grabbed a extra toothbrush from under the sink and travel toothpaste and tossed in too. All the time I was doing this my father was still in the living room or kitchen talking about how I should be more responsible. The more I listened the more I wanted to rip my hair out. I knew that if he wasn't drinking this conversation wouldn't be like this, but here we are.

I zipped my bag and threw it over my shoulder and walked out of the room. My fathers eyes immediately met mine and then he noticed the bag.

"Where do you think you're going?"

"I don't think anything, I'm going."

"Do you think you can just leave when I'm talking to you?"

I didn't answer and just walked pass him towards the door. He kept on talking but I just ignored him. I sat my bag on the floor and slipped into my shoes. I was about to open the door and leave when he said something that struck a nerve I never wanted touched in me.

"You're just like your mom." Did I heard him correctly? "Careless with what you do and don't care what the consequences are."

"You know father," I said as I slowly turned around to face him, "I've put up with your shit for so long. So long I have let you yell at me for reason. Yeah I might have made a rather big mess before we moved but I never asked you to clean it up. I never asked you too."

"You never asked? You calling me from that jail cell was not asking."

"No it wasn't. I was just telling you what I'd done because I'm a good son but I guess not good enough for you."

Before he could say anything I turned and left the apartment. I let out a sigh as I made my way towards the stairs. I pulled out my phone and started to search for hotels nearby. To think I actually thought I would go to sleep in that apartment with no fuss. Truly a dumbass. I ran a hand down my face. What a fucking night.