chapter 32

The next day Smitha and roshini hugged each other and left each other in tears, but they doesn't have a choice and roshini  got back home and is been kept herself busy in school work, Smitha tried to kept herself busy by revolving around kids and Smitha tried many times to talk with neel whenever kids are at school, but neel haven't given a chance to Smitha to talk or to explain anything!!! Smitha is living a life which is hurting herself, neel and roshini as well, Smitha haven't made any calls to roshini cause she thought if she talk to roshini she might loose all her senses and she wants to go to roshini the next second. Roshini thought Smitha might be busy with kids, neel and also thought she might be busy by going to her parents house as her sister is a newly wed. Smitha is been suffocated with her life and thought of saying everything to neel a couple of times in that week but she couldn't say it. Whatever has happened but Smitha and neel are acting like a very caring parents Infront of ishaan and maira. Smitha on a Friday  afternoon  kept a message to roshini " Hey jaana kaisi ho, sorry i couldn't call you the whole week, ypu must have been thinking that i might be busy, lekin mein busy nahi mein khud se pareshaan hu, paagal hojari teri yaadon, ek taraf se yeh majburi wali shaadi nibhate huye, dusri taraf se tumhe sachan pyar karte huye, khud ko khosri mein, mujhe aise jeena acha nahi lagra jaanu, I'm like backstabbing , not honest with you and neel, mujhe mar jaane ka mann kar ra jaanu, roshini my love please aja mere paas, please, mein thak chuki hu iss zindagi se mujhe yeh achi tarah se pata hain ki hum dono ka zindagi complicated hain, I know that I need to fight for it, fight for our love ❤. Jaanu please ake mujhe apne baahon mein le le jaan, mujhe apni saanson mein kho jaana hain, mujhe tere pyaar mein iss puri jahaan ko bhul jaana hain"!!!!!! And Smitha had thought alot and slept for a while , by evening Smitha kept herself busy by looking after kids, till 7pm she haven't checked her mobile as she kept her mobile in a silent mode. When kids have finished their home works smitha feed them dinner too, Smitha sat in a chair looking at kids and slowly drowned in her thoughts and then she got back to the world when maira shouted for one her toy which ishaan took, Smitha got up and looked at her mobile. Smitha had few message notifications and a few calls from her parents and sister too. Smitha unlocked her mobile and looked for the message from roshini first. Roshini replied " Jaana zyaada mat socho ok aaj agar possible hua toh meet me Or else mein hi teri ghar ajaungi Or else we both can meet tomorrow second Saturday hain na holiday rahega ".smitha is all smiling by looking at roshini message. Smitha looked at neel message " Smitha I'll take kids to my mom's place kal tho unko holiday , as I'm going out for inspection bacahon ko ready kardo and pack their clothes and other things as well, mein ghar ate hi khana khane ke baad I'll drop kids at my moms place and I'll leave tomorrow morning and I'll get back home by Sunday night".Smitha is flying by looking at neel message and called roshini and said jaana if it's ok to you then come to my home tonight? Roshini thought neel and kids must be going to his moms place and replied ok... Once neel along with kids left smitha asked roshini to come to her home, roshiniReached Smitha's home with in no time and pressed the 🔔. Smitha opened the door with all smile but roshini have seen the pain of her heart. Roshini got inside closed the door and hugged Smitha so tight and took Smitha to couch and make her sit on her lap and Smitha sat on lap facing roshini, roshini asked Smitha to just hug 🤗 and also asked not to talk, Smitha hugged so tight and cried for a while, roshini haven't interrupted Smitha as she want Smitha to get out of the pain. Once Smitha got settle down, roshini asked " Kya hua meri bachi ko? Aise kyun hogayi Tu? Aur mujhe kuch toh bol sakti ho na? Mein bhaagi ah jati tere paas! Ya phir tu mujhe mil sakti hain, yeh kya haal bana rakhi hain tu? Kya hojara Smitha tumhe? Smitha just kept quite, roshini asked in a lud tone that ,abhi tu kuch bolegi ya phir mein chali jaun, then Smitha answered " Jaana I'm unable to live my life, yeh ghutan sa banjara mujhe, neel ko bol toh di ki main kisi aur se pyaar kar ri bolke lekin abhi na jabse meri behen ki shaadi tujhe jo match aya na tabse I'm worried about you, about me, about us, kyunki meri behen ki shaadi mein hi tumhe matches ah jarrein, asie tumharein side se aur kitne matches ayega bolke! Sar phata jaata soch soch ke, paagal ho jaungi for sure, mujhse yeh nahi ho para yar, pata nahi bachon ko kaise sambhal lungi, neel ko kaise sambhal lungi, yahan bachien aur neel ke sath rahungi tho tumhe miss karungi, tumhe pyar karte huye bhi pyaar nahi de pari mein" Roshini listened everything and replied " Tho phir kya kare yar, mein ek bata bolu gussa mat ho! Smitha said ok, roshini said kyun na mein dusri jagah job dundlu, I'll will go a bit far from you listening to it Smitha held roshini shirt collar and said " Kya bolri tu roshini, tu agar mujhse dur chali jayegi tho mera problems solve hojayega kya nahi na! "Tu meri hain aur meri hi rahegi, I'm craving for you, I'm craving for your ❤, I'm craving to make love to you, and want you to make love to me tooo".... Roshini said acha baba cool ok,mein tumhe chod ke kahi bhi nahi jaungi and roshini asked pehle Tu khana khale, but Smitha said mujhe khane ka mann nahi kar ra yar, roshini said pehle khana baad mein tumharein cravings ke baatein mein dekhege and 😉.... After having dinner Smitha and roshini sat on the couch 🛋️ and roshini made Smitha sit on her lap Smitha is facing  towards roshini, roshini pushed Smitha saree pallu away, and hold smitha face in her hands and started kissing on her fore head and then on the eyes, and on the nose, smitha is all smiling now, roshini went down and kissed on the neck, smitha pulled roshini and kissed on roshini lips and the kiss lasted two minutes. Both have undressed  each other and made their very passionate love ❤ when making love roshini asked Smitha why you love me and crave for myself to be with you? Smitha spread her arms around roshini neck and said " Cause if I stay from you more than few days i start missing you like hell, and i dont want to miss like a single day either now that our situations is not letting us live together I. Making my heart very strong to face everything but sometimes I breakdown and kept quite. Roshini lift Smitha head by holding her chin and said baby I love you like anything, no one never ever loved me like you, I'm going crazy for you and Smitha said I'm becoming crazy for you my love.. Both made love and slept in each other cuddle the whole night...