Chapter 56

Jennie's POV

It's been two months since Lisa and I became official but it still feels like it just happened yesterday. Lisa is a very sweet girlfriend. She always know what to do whenever I had mood swings. She always spoil me a lot like buying me some of my favorite foods. I even think that I'm starting to gain weight.

I sometimes asked Lisa to stop spoiling me with food because I'm starting to feel insecure about my body. But that girl always insisted that I'm still sexy. And when every time she's telling that, I admit, I always became a blushing mess.

Rosé and Jisoo always complained how we clingy are we when in fact, those two are a lot clingier. The four of us always go on a double date every time we're free. And whenever we go out, Lisa and Jisoo can't avoid teasing each other a lot which always made them earned a smack from Rosé and I.

"Here we are." Lisa said when we stopped in front of the Fashion Department.

This has been our normal situation every time we go to school. Lisa always walked me towards my department before walking to her class. Even if she will be late, she's still insisting. Stubborn Lisa indeed. I just let her be because the last time I disagree with her, she whine like a kid which earned a lot of attention and made me embarrassed.

"You'll be late." I said. Lisa is still standing in front of me and smiling widely as she stare at our hands that are holding each other.

"Can I not go and just spend the whole day with you?" She said. I let go of her hand and flick her forehead which made her hissed in pain.

"You know you can't do that. Besides, we're going to see each other later." I said.

"I know. I'm just joking." Lisa said while rubbing her forehead. She look around us trying to find someone. "Is that Mino guy still bothering you?" she asked.

I shook my head as an answer. It's true. Since that day at the amusement park, Mino didn't talk to me. Well, he try to approach me from time to time but I always kept my distance.

"Okay then, I'm leaving. See you later Nini." She said and waved goodbye.

I stood there for a few more minutes until I made sure that Lisa will clearly go towards her department. That girl really has a habit of not attending her classes especially when she don't like the professor in charge.

As I walk towards the entrance of the building, I immediately saw Mino leaning at the wall. When he saw me, he quickly straightened his posture and was about to approach my direction. I just stare at him with cold eyes until I felt someone cling into my arm.

"Need help?" Mina said and smiled at me.

She knew everything that happened and I also apologized to her for what happened at the convenience store. Mina told me that everything is fine and even helped me every day to keep my distance to Mino.

I smiled back at her and nodded my head. When Mino was almost near us, Mina quickly pull me inside leaving that guy disappointed.

"How is it going with Lisa?" Mina asked as we walk towards our room.

"Everything is fine. She's annoying but that's what I love about her." I replied.

"I envy you. How I wish I also have someone like her."

I just let out a smile. We both know that Lisa is just one of a kind though.

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Finally the class has ended. I stretched my arms and let out a yawn, I've been wanting to go home since my last subject started. The reason is, our instructor is very boring. Her voice is so timid that it can make you fall asleep at any second by now.

I took out my phone so that I can tell Lisa that my class had already finished but to my surprise, I already got a message from her.

My eyebrows instantly furrowed when I read her message. An old friend? Who is she pertaining to? And why that old friend of her is waiting for me?

I took my back pack and bid Mina goodbye. That girl hasn't no plan of going home yet. She's spending a quite a lot of time at the school library. Mina loves reading so much but I also knew that it's not the only reason why she keeps on going there. She once accidentally told me that there is a girl that she's been eyeing for and she's always at the library at this time. Well, good for her, that girl might be the one that she's been waiting for.

As I reached the front gate of the university, I already saw Lisa talking to someone. They're exchanging laughs to each other. But the weirdest part is, why I have this feeling of being annoyed.

"Hey." I jumped onto Lisa and immediately cling into her arms.

"Oh, wow." I faced the girl's direction since her voice is quite familiar, and I was right. She is really familiar.

"Nayeon." I said in a low voice.

"Hi Jennie! It's been a while." She said and smiled at me widely. I just sent her a small smile since I don't want to be rude. A bit.

"So you believe me now?" Lisa said proudly.

I heard Nayeon laughed. "Yeah right. Finally, you got what you want."

Nayeon and Lisa continued to talk, and it seems like this girlfriend of mine forgot that I'm here. I scoffed loudly to earn their attention which I definitely did.

"I gotta go now Lisa, we should catch up some other time." Nayeon said before facing me. "Nice seeing you again, Jennie." She lastly said before leaving.

"What?" Lisa asked when she noticed that I was glaring at her. I scoffed and turned away from her. I still feel annoyed.

"Hey. What's the problem, Nini?" Lisa appeared in front of me to stop me from leaving. I kicked her shin which made her fell into her knees and groaned in pain.

"I'm just not around and you started to talk to other girls." I said sternly.

"But Nayeon is my friend." Lisa said as she slowly stand up.

"Ex-girlfriend rather." I answered and rolled my eyes.

"Nayeon and I never happened." Lisa said which made me stare at her in confusion.

"What? But I saw you kissing and you acted like a real couple."

"You saw us? Oh, I didn't know you stalk me back then." Lisa said with a knowing smirk. "Yeah, we tried. I mean, I try but I just can't forget about you." She added.

Lisa reached out for my hand and held me as she stare at me with those loving eyes of hers. "There's no need to be jealous. You're the only one for me." She said.

I was about to answer her when a bunch of strangers passed by.

"Are they a couple?"

"They're cute."

"What? Can you hear yourself? That's disgusting."

"Maybe they're just friends."

"But look at the way they look at each other."

"Let's get out of here. It disgust me."

"Same sex relationship is big NO."

I can clearly heard their whispers and I wasn't sure if they knew that I can hear them. But the thing is, those words that they say made me feel bothered. I didn't think about what the other people might say when I enter this kind of relationship.

"Hey. Don't mind them. They're just a bunch of idiots who can't do anything but to meddle with other people lives." Lisa said. She wrapped her arms around me and hug me tightly. I can feel her soft plump lips planted a kiss at the top of my head.

I smiled and simply sniff her scent that lingers on her clothes. I was about to hug her back when I remembered that she's talking with Nayeon. Even though they didn't happened, I can't still help but to feel jealous.

So instead of giving her a hug, I pinched her side which made her yelp and let go of me. She groaned in pain as she looks at me with pure disbelief written on her face. I stick out my tongue at her again and started walking away from her.

Lisa immediately follow me and when she caught up with me, she wrapped her arms around my shoulders. She keeps on telling some corny jokes and pick-up lines that makes me cringe and laugh at the same time. She really knows how to fix my mood.

"Jennie? Is that you?"

I immediately froze when I heard that familiar voice that came from behind me. Those voice gave me chills, it's been years since I heard it. Lisa saw how surprised I was that made her gaze flicker back and forth to me and to the person behind us.

"Please not her. Please." I silently prayed before taking a slow turn to face the direction of the owner of the voice.

"Oh my God." She said and covered her mouth in surprise. "It's really you."

"Do you know each other, Nini?" Lisa asked with her voice full of confusion.

I took a deep breathe. "Mom." I uttered. It feels like a thousand of needles suddenly grew at my throat. Why does saying that word still make me feel worse?

"Oh." Lisa mumbled. She must been very surprised to.

"How are you?" My Mom said. I saw her eyes flicker towards Lisa, down to her hands which is still currently holding mine.

My throat became dry and I slowly let go of Lisa's hand. I know she must be confused but that last thing I want to happen is for me to become my mom's laughing stock. Imagine, her daughter who hated her because of her sexuality is now as the same as her.

"Who is she?" My mom asked which added to the dryness of my throat.

I felt my palms became sweaty. I don't know what's going on with. It seems like I lose control of my own body. I can't even open my mouth to answer her question.

"I'm her friend, ma'am" Lisa said politely.

I quickly faced Lisa and saw that she's smiling at me, like she's telling me that it's fine and she understands. I felt guilty and sorry at the same time.

"You should catch up with your mom. I'll wait for you at home." Lisa said and leave before I even utter a single word.

We went at the nearest park for us to talk. I can see at my mom's eyes how eager she is to talk to me, which leaves me no reason to ignore her.

"You haven't answered my question yet. How are you?" She started.

"I'm fine." I shortly answered.

"I didn't know you're here in Seoul."

"There's a lot of things you don't know about me." I bit my lower lip as the silence slowly engulf the atmosphere between us. I think there's something wrong with what I said.

"I'm here for college." I said.

"Oh, really? You take Fashion? I still can remember how you love dressing up since you were a kid."

"Yep. How about you? I don't know you're here in Seoul either."

"I'm here for some important stuffs."

"Are you still with..." I paused, hesitating if I'm going to say her name or not.

"Yeah. Actually she's the main reason why I came here." She said which made me look at her, wondering. "She's dying." My mom said and smiled weakly.

I gasped in horror when I heard such news. With trembling hand, I slowly reached her shoulder and tapped it for comfort. My mom looked at me and smiled again as she nodded her head. Another minutes of silence occur at the space between us.

"Are you still mad at me?" This time, my mom was the one who broke the ice.

"I don't know. But I still hate you." I said which clearly hurt her. "Not because of your sexuality but because you didn't even visit me for how many years."

"I'm sorry. I'm just scared that you might push me away like what you did way back at Taehyung's burial."

"It can't be helped. I mean, you're the one who pushed us away first. You can't blame me if I'll do the same thing. But you should still have tried anyway. You don't know how many years I was longing for a mother's love." My voice cracked as I burst out in tears.

"I'm sorry." My mom said, tears are also flowing right into her eyes. "I'm such a selfish mother. I didn't even think about my kids. I even killed Taehyung. I'm sorry Jennie." She said and buried her face into her palm.

I pulled my mom for a hug. My heart broke into pieces when I heard her sobs grew louder.

"Hush now, Mom. Taehyung definitely forgive you already." I said. Mom let go of me and wiped her tears away.

"What about you?"

"You still need to make up for the times that you're not at my side." I said and smiled at her widely.

"Of course I will. Thank you so much Jennie." My mom said happily.

I know I said earlier that I still hate her but when I saw her burst out in tears, all of my anger and hate towards her suddenly disappeared.

"So, you're living together with that friend of yours?" She said, pertaining to Lisa.

"Actually, we're four living in a same house. You should come by sometime."

"Wow. Can I?"

"Of course. I miss your cooking anyway." I said and leaned my head on her shoulder.

I almost forgot the feeling of having a mother. I guess I can still considered myself as a lucky person since destiny made us meet again.

"Mom?" I called her which she response with a hum.

"Is it hard having a relationship with the same gender?"

"What do you mean?"

"There are a lot of people judging you every day. Isn't it hard?"

"Of course it is. Especially when you can always hear how they despise both of you."

"Is there a time that you almost gave up?"

"Yes, there is. But I guess our love for her is stronger than those hateful words. Why did you asked?"

"Nothing. It just crossed my mind.

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It almost bed time when I went home. I think I enjoyed too much being together with my mother. Well, it's been years since we last did that together, and not to mention, I was still a kid back then.

I went straight into Lisa's room and saw her sleeping peacefully on her bed. I still feel guilty for not telling my mother the truth.

I slowly slid myself under the blanket and positioned myself beside Lisa. I used her arms as a pillow and hug her which made her woke up.

"You just came?" She said in a groggy voice. I just nodded in response.

"I guessed you enjoy your time with your Mom that much. You missed her?" Lisa asked which earned her another nod from me. I scoot closer to her when I feel her hugging me back.

"Are you mad at me?" I asked.

"Why would I?"

"You know what I'm talking about."

Lisa planted a kiss on my forehead. "I'm not. I'm sure you have your reasons why you didn't tell her."

"I'm sorry." I muttered.

"Sssh. There's nothing to be sorry about." Lisa said and pecked my lips. "Now, we should go to sleep. It's late. Good night, Nini." She said and hug me even tighter.

"Good night, Lili." I answered before joining Lisa into a deep slumber.