Love?

I opened my eyes to a place that I did not recognize. I had a horrible headache. I sat up on the bed and tried to remember the events in my head of what happened last night. All I could remember was killing Kyle and going to the bar where I met Ethan.

I quickly looked to my right and that's where I spotted the sleeping boy.

"Oh no" I said as I realized that I was naked underneath the sheets. How could I let this happen. I was supposed to kill him. But I still can. I got out of bed and reached for my grey boxers. I quickly put on my white v-neck shirt, my black jeans, and my black boots.

I searched through my pockets and found my pocket knife. I was about to just slice his neck but I couldn't. I tried to put the knife to his neck but my hand resisted. I flipped the knife closed in defeat.

Am I getting soft? I shook my head to try and get rid of the negative thoughts. I left money on the table for him to pay for the motel.

He started to wake up. But he saw me as I slipped out the door.

"Hey wait!" I heard him say but it was too late I was already out the door.

I walked across the street toward the bar where I left my truck parked.

Before I got into the my car I heard someone call my name.

"Justin wait!" I turned towards the voice and saw Ethan running towards me. This guy is never going to forget this.

"What?" I said bitterly. He finally made it to my truck.

"I know you felt something last night, I felt like we connected." Ethan said looking me in the eyes.

I quickly looked away. He is right. I did feel something. I never cared or loved anybody until now.

No, I couldn't let that happen. Being alone is the only way for me not to get hurt again. I already lost my parents. I don't want to lose somebody else. I don't want to feel that pain I felt when I heard the news about my parents.

I swallowed hard. "I didn't feel anything it was just a mistake."

I can tell he is heart broken.

He looked at me speechless.

"I know you felt it don't give me that crap." His voice turned into anger.

"Sorry it's the truth." I went into my truck and started the engine.

Ethan knocked on the window of my car. I rolled it down and looked at him annoyed.

"Here's my number if you want to talk." He grabbed my arm and wrote down his phone number. I didn't move away I liked his touch.

"Ok thanks." I said but before he could say anything else I drove out of the parking lot and onto the street.

I drove towards my house in a panic. Ethan was right I did feel something last night. Could it be love? Am I in love with Ethan? I shook my head and tried to focus on the road but I couldn't.

I pulled onto the side of the road and pulled out my phone. I dialed the numbers that were on my arm and pressed call. I waited for 7 seconds. Then I heard Ethan's voice.

"Hello." He said. I felt my heart pounding in my chest.

"Umm.... Hey it's Justin can you meet me at the cafe in 15 minutes." The words quickly fell out from my mouth.

"Um yea sure." He said nervously.

"Great see you there."