Sleep

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Published on: August 21, 2021

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"You got tanned"

"Is it bad??"

"Not really, we look same though, see" he compared his arm with the other, "but you have more muscles than I" he puckered is lips out and squeezed his own biceps,

The tan man laughed again wholeheartedly, the same laugh which makes his eyes creased into a thin line.

He wiped his invisible tears, "So, You are flirting with me again??"

Gulf was too lost to check out the face in front of him, "ummm....Is it working this time??"

Man chuckled again...

Bzzzzzzzzzz, Bzzzzzzzzzzzz

"Your phone" he pointed at Gulf's pocket,

Gulf smiled at him and excused himself for a sec, once the call ends he looked in the direction with a smile, but he was gone, his smile dropped.

"Where did he go??"

He looked around, he was really gone, where did he go, was he imagining, he scanned the area again but he didn't saw that face,

He looked at his shirt, it was still unbuttoned, showing his chest and moles, he gulped what was that....

He was sure that man had buttoned his clothes than how, he massaged his head, and asked the bartender about the guy with him and to his surprise he was alone from the start,  this is crazy how many drinks he had tonight, without looking for the man further he ran out of the club.

He is getting insane with every passing day, he needs to sleep...why the hell he can't sleep he had tried every f**ing thing,

Every f**ing thing,

He took out the phone and called Mild, where Mild chirped from the other side,

"Hey I was about to call you, the apartment is ready", "you can check it out"

"That is a relief, Thankyou"...Thank god finally he can sleep in his place...

He entered the apartment, everything has been changed, the wall colors, his furniture, he checked out the design and things feeling satisfied with the outcome.

Opened his drawer to change clothes, Mew's changes were still there he ignored them and took out his clothes,

He entered to take shower, his toiletry was still there, sigh again, "That is why I hate people in my place, they leave traces"

"You are everywhere.... everywhere but not where I wanted"   Sigh, picked all the toiletry to dispense, he stood beside the bin, contemplating, should he throw them, what if he came back, but he didn't come for a week now, but what if.

He groaned in frustration, and placed the things back to their palace gave a last glance to the two toothbrushes in the compound, and closed the door...

"I hate it"

He has thrown that silly, arrogant, two-word sticky note 100 times, it was all crumbled and has lost its glue. He again crumbled it and threw it somewhere, after making a coffee he settle on the couch looking at the crumpled piece of paper on his kitchen counter, he sighed and gets up and unfolds the piece of paper, and placed it on the fridge with a magnet.

"Eat breakfast"

"And you forget to order one, right??", "Did you wonder once I am eating or not", "Jerk"

He take out that piece of paper again with anger and crushed it, then again after standing there with a ball of paper in his hand, he pressed it open and tried to unwrinkle it, placed it on his fridge, pointing at the paper... "I hate you", "I really do"

"Breath in, and breath out, breath in and breath out"

It is past 12 in the night, and Gulf was doing meditations or some breathing yoga, there were scented candles lighten up, in the whole apartment. To make a plesant soothing environment so he can fall asleep but no, his body refused to do so, his eyelids were heavy but still can't sleep...

He changed his room decor.

He tried to sleep with someone. No doubt s*x was great but...

And then, he tried to jog at the night, did physical exercise, but he is still restless..

Sigh What changed, What happened, Why

the sluggish drunken mumbles, "i am making you use to my weight," chuckles

"Why??"

"So you can't sleep without me" chuckles

A vague memory crosses over...and he stood like a spring, No no it can't be the reason,

Or can be

What

no

no

***

"We can't shift your schedule for this month."

"Why??"

"I can manage half-day or a day, but not more than that...."

Mew sighed in disappointment, "Then give me one and half-day..."

Pen agrees and went back to his work of making arrangements,

Mew packed his changes and decided to tour around the nearby island, after an hour of ferry ride he reached the beautiful destination, it was nice to be out, he took a deep breath, it felt fresh and peaceful.

He roam around the market for a while then headed towards his hotel to freshen up and take some rest.

He laid on the hotel bed with a blank mind looking at the ceiling, it is peaceful but not for long enough coz his phone starts ringing, he ignored first two calls but then again... it keeps on ringing.

"What??", "Can't I have peace??"

"Sorry... but it is urgent, promoter want to meet", "The things about marriage and share transfer, they want to discuss"

Mew massaged his head, "When??",

"They were asking for your schedule"

"They don't want company get affected by rumors, and also asking for clarification on media"

He really can't have peace....

"I will be back by noon tomorrow"

"One more thing"

He is irritated, "What??"

"That guitarist came today, and was asking for you"

"Why??" Mew heart quickens at the name of the guy...

"Don't know but he came for like two times already",

"Ask him why??"

"He said he wanted to see you"

"Why??"

"How would i know, solve the issue talk to him"

"I don't want to"

"Mew, don't tell me...you are running because of him"

"Why would i??"

"Is something going on between you guys??"

"Noo, but........ i want to"

There was sudden silence on both sides,

"But??"

Pen as a good friend he is, knew him his concerns, his worries and he tries his best to support him.....

"Mew i am gonna  recite your own words, overthinking hinders your growth, Go and learn as a kid, you will find the world to Explore not to Judge"

"I am happy for you..."

and with that Mew slumped on the bed again gazing at the ceiling...

*

*

"Why can't I see him??"

"You can't directly approach him without telling us the purpose, and an appointment"

"Then give me an appointment"

"We can't, fill this form"

"What is this about??"

"Your contact details, the organization you are representing, your purpose of visit, and the short description of your proposal, and other things....if his secretary find it worth, maybe you get an early date"

Sigh, "Is it your world"......" Boundaries, Obligations...huhhh" he said to no one, and took the piece of paper from her, and started reading it...

Pen saw Gulf on reception again, and this time he approached him, "Ummm Hey"

Gulf looked at the man in office suit, once he recognized him he took his hand and shake it with a smile... "Hello, you were there in the marriage too right",

"Yaa" pen scratch his neck, "So??", "What brings you here??"

"I want to see Mew", "Is he that busy??"

Pen was a little surprised by the way Gulf said Mew's name, it was way informal, isn't he younger, does Mew allowed him to speak like that.

"His schedule is kind of packed, and the things with Media and marriage are still gonna take some time"

Gulf shrunk back, so he is the only one who is having trouble and he is back to normal, he should have kicked him out on the first day, he was angry, frustrated, and suffering from an unknown emotion, which was draining him physically and mentally...

He should take a leave, there is nothing to talk or do anything, he turned back after having little chit chat with pen, bidding goodbye while crossing the hallway, the glass window mirrored a familiar figure in a suit coming out from the elevator.

He turned around to conform and yes, he is there standing tall talking to someone, he looks the same and different at the same time, with his pale face and those almond eyes and perfectly styled hairs, but different from the day he saw him on the floor. He really matching with this office environment, strict.. rigid..and in boundaries. He looks less approacheable somehow.

But once Gulf saw him smile, the anger the doubts he was holding a while ago vanished, as his lips stretched showing his toothy smile...

"Mew" he shouted out loud, the way he called was way informal, people around him looked at him in horror.

Mew's moment paused when he registered Gulf's presence in front of him... he was wearing boat cut neck top, making his collar bones visible, with his messed up haris making him look beautiful as he is

Mew got dragged back to the memories which he was holding dearly.

"Sleep with me" were the words came out of Gulf's mouth and every person around them gaped

Pen nudged on Mew's arm, Mew looked at everyone and then at Gulf face, and registered the words Gulf has just spilled out...

He came to him everything felt like happening in slow motion, people assumed he is gonna get kicked, slapped or worst would be arrested...

...But opposite of that, Mew took his wrist and took him out of the building, headed towards the cafeteria...leaving the gaped employees, no one is in position to question, they just looked at each other and engaged themselves like they saw nothing...

"Feeling hungry??" he questioned, Gulf's stomach growled but can they talk first or say something else.

"Mew??"

"Lunch First"

They had their lunch in silence, Gulf keeps on stealing glances but the other seemed unbothered eating his food..

He cleared his throat, "sleep with me"  finally he said in a desperate tone, Mew looked at him with some unknown expression..without saying anything he keeps on eating.

Sigh, he took his wrist again and they headed towards his office, Mew had not uttered a word whole this time,

Once they entered the building he left Gulf's wrist, it felt lonely Gulf looked at his hand, he came running after Mew and put his hand on others' shoulders, Mew just looked at him without any expression, Gulf showed him his toothy smile in return...

**

He closed the door of his office behind him putting blinds on his see-through windows...

"What is going on Gulf??"

"I..I had your dream a few days ago, not exactly dream but kind of"

"And you were looking good, but little tan, and then we had our first conversation like at club, and then" he paused

"And Then??"

"Then you left"

"Gulf??"

"I am tired", "I want to sleep"

He again got dragged by Mew to the side room which has a single bed on there and nothing much, just simple maybe his restroom...

"Rest here"

Gulf held his hand "Where are you going??", they were again in staring competition.

"You are making things hard"

Gulf unheard those words and his stern eyes, instead he pulled Mew and make him fall on him

"We will not fit on this" Gulf smiled internally, at least he didn't say what is wrong with him..

He scooted to the side giving space to him, "We will"

"I have work to do"

"Call them and say you are busy for half or an hour"

"Gulf??"

Gulf blinked few times showing his puppy face, desperate to get wrapped in a bear hug.

Mew's heart flutter again, what this guy is doing to him, is his puberty working backward, hitting in his thirties making his hormones go crazy, and weak for this guy...

He shakes his head,

"Please, it won't take much of your time"

Sigh he takes out his phone, "Pen can we adjourned the meeting for an hour",

"It is with department heads, Ummm, hold the meeting without me and send me the minutes of the meeting"

"Okay"

Without any further questions, he removed his blazer and tie, and laid beside Gulf, trying his best not to touch the other one, Gulf looked at him, sigh, he pulled Mew over him and make him rest on his chest,

"Like this, it feels better"

"I am wearing a suit"

"Yaa, you look so f**ing good",

Mew smiled at Gulf's response, "I am heavy" he wiggled a little over Gulf, adjusting himself

"I like heavy" he put his legs around Mew caging him...

Every sense on Mew's body was hyperactivated he was feeling things, his heart was beating so fast like it gonna break his rib cage, gulf's scent hitting on his nostrils, his mind was going blind, he desperately wants to be out but want to hold him too, it is strange..

Gulf sniffed on Mew, "Seems, you smoked a lot"

"Ummm, ya was stressed a little"

"Why??", "I like it clean"

"Should I freshen up??"

"No.... don't move"

"But??"

"What I told you, when i say don't move, it means Don't Move"

Mew plopped on others chest again, Gulf smiled..

"Why were you stressed??"

"Media... Marriage... Rumors...Promoter" "And about You...whether you are home or not, whether you were skipping breakfast, whether you were flirting with someone"  of course he didn't say the part after promoters, how can he say he was missing his human bolster....

Gulf's heart was beating fast, he can feel it, he felt happy he is not the only one with erratic breathing and heartbeat,

"your heart rate is erratic"

"Hmmm", Gulf just hummed in response, he is already feeling drowsy...

"Mine too" he adjusted himself on him, so Gulf can feel the other heart in his stomach,

They made eye contact and snuggled again, Mew sandwiched him between the couch and himself,

It felt nice, this felt nice, he crushed Gulf more, wondering if it was too tight, but the guy underneath him didn't complain, he was sleeping peacefully, with a smile lingering on his face, he must be comfortable right, Mew squeezed him one more time, it feels so good...

After an hour or two, Gulf felt his arm is numb, he steered a little, and found himself caged between mew, after weeks of a sleepless night, he got his sleep,... he hugged him back, scratched on Mew's scalp.

Mew opened his eyes, and leveled up weighing on his elbow over Gulf's face, "Are you ok??"

"I am good" they keep on looking at each other,

It felt like the first time, he wants to trace those features, his nose, his lips, his cheeks.... he wants to know did he missed him, does he have a hard time too, like going insane, did he imagined things like him, he just wants time to pause and let him be here in cramped bed under him...he scooted closer and nuzzled in Mew's neck and shoulder plate. Mew's body shivered at the gesture, he flinched a little... Gulf sensed the stiffness so he backed away.

"I didn't have your number"

"Neither do i"

"You didn't come back"

"Were you waiting for me??"

he smiles just the mere thought of Gulf missing him was enough to make his heart do summersaults.

"I thought, you were trying to find my weakness??"

"Yaa"

"So you gave up without finding??"

"Yaa"

"Why??"

So, he felt something too, it encourages Mew to take a step further, he has to learn... he needs to experience. He took gulf's hand placed it on his face, "What do you think??"

Gulf chuckled, caressing mew's jawline, his jawline skin felt a little rough than his cheeks, he didn't shave he guess, he wants to rub his face on that little ungrown shrub, but he settled with his fingers tracing and got kissed...

"That you are knocking on someone else door", Kiss.....the kiss on Gulf's hand, makes his blood flushed on his dusky skin till the tip of his ears,

"And??" Mew asked in a lower tempo without losing eye contact..

"Ah, um... and finding someone else weakness", kiss again .....Gulf was fidgeting under the touch.

"And??" Mew asked not breaking the eye contact nor leaving Gulf's hand either, holding it firmly on his cheeks...

"And you want to see someone else cry", kiss,

"sleeping on their floor", kiss

"Drinking and singing with them" kiss mew smiled dearly at Gulf

"Ordering breakfast for them" kiss.......

Mew was listening Gulf patiently, kissing his hand at every statement, holding it closer, nibbling on his thin fingers, they were not soft, but he likes the roughness of them against his skin..

Nuzzled his face into others neck, what is he even doing.... but it felt so right, after weeks of feeling frustrated, he felt at ease, the calmness and happiness he felt while rolling on that floor, it is the same kind of happiness, he wants to do more, want to explore more, and if it means to be with him then he will take a chance, and finally he brakes the silence..

"But I was thinking of finding traces here" he poked on Gulf's left side of the chest, "which are unknown to others"

"I revisited the memories behind your closed door every day, and relived in them whenever I was alone"

"I have never thought floor can be that comfortable"

"I still want to see you cry, but with some other reasons" Gulf squealed under him, the more the Mew's voice deepens, the more gulf backed to the single crowded bed...

"I want to sing silly songs on your floor only"

"And I keep imagining eating som tam with you every day"

Gulf gulped, the silence was heavy for both of them, each minute pass by with their entangled bodies on couch...

He was touched by many in his life but never held this delicately by someone, it felt tingly, sensational, and Mew's gaze makes him shiver, it was the same kind of gaze he admired in their announcement party, maybe more intense than before, it felt giddy to be on the receiver side of that gaze...

"I..."

"I don't do relations"

"And I don't fuck around"

"I am not your ideal type"

Mew chuckled at that, "Let me decide that"

"What if I fail??"

"Better to fail, than regret"

"But??"

"It is gonna be my first time with a guy, I can fail too, i am nervous too"

"Am I your experiment??"

"To be honest, I don't know", "but I can't stop myself imagining with you" he touched their foreheads...

"I am taking risk of getting a heartbreak again"

"Then why didn't you came back"

"I was planning to settle things first and then confront you"

"what if I don't like it"

"you can tell, I will let you know too, just talk"

It is the first time someone put his faith in him, his own father didn't trust him years ago, but now here, is someone who is trusting him, should he take a chance, what is there to lose he said it is an experiment,

Gulf smiled at him, "you really know witchcraft don't you??"

He hanged his arms on others neck, pulling his stiff body closer, "I want Khao klukh krapi for dinner"

***

Khao klukh krapi is rice with shrimp paste,

I don't know what I am writing, but want to write something cozy, so yaa here it is... and I really like to bring things back, like some inside jokes or something like that which are only known to them, I think I had done this in my every story, it creates intimacy, at least I think so...

Again if, i could complete the chapter on time, see you on Wednesday if not then see you on saturday😊, pardon my mistakes💜💜