Paperweight

published on: August 28, 2021

***

Mew came late the next night, with as usual two portions of dinner,

"Sorry...I forget to tell you, I had eaten already" mew nods his head and placed the things on the table

"Actually, P'Mild...he is my manager and like a big brother to me, he was nagging like crazy", "so"

Mew nods his head again

"We still didn't exchange numbers, I realized when I was about to eat"

"Yaa" Mew agreed at the realization and they exchanged numbers...and Mew again started doing his work...

"Are you angry??" he was still following Mew around the kitchen

Mew paused, "No, why??"

"I don't know you are not talking"

Mew chuckled, "Sorry, but I was focused, and trying not to break anything... you know"

Gulf left a relieved sigh, "yaa.... how can I forget you are a tornado"

They settled around the table..

Gulf's feet again trapped in between Mew's legs.. and they shared a normal day of theirs..

It was like two friends having a simple chit-chat, he came across washed dishes.. Placed them in place after drying them, he likes doing it, somehow it felt domestic in his mind... he dried off his hands and wear his coat again...

Gulf was looking at mew's movements, he didn't comment but when he saw him wearing his coat...

"What are you doing??"

"Leaving"

"Why??"

"What am I supposed to do??"

"You are not gonna sleepover??"

"I..."

"We slept together before, and I promise I will not touch you"

Mew chuckled, "It is not like that"

Gulf arched his eyebrow, "seriously, Are you gonna lie on my face"

"No, but..."

"I will not touch you", "I promise", "and I will not say the prohibited word on first or second dates"

"You don't have expectations??"

"I do, but I respect the word consent", "come on" Mew keeps rooted at his place

"Come on" Gulf pulled him through his sleeves...

"I have chosen willingly to be part of this experiment...Okay"

And he dragged Mew towards the bedroom

It is their first time sleeping on a proper king-size bed, Gulf put two pillows between them to assure he is not gonna do anything, Mew giggled at him going back and forth arranging pillows and quilts.

He holds others hands, "You are stressing out"

"I trust you" and he takes out the little pillow boundary", "and I like to hold you as a pillow"

Finally, they settled on the bed, but this time just facing each other, not physically tangled...

"You are the first person sleeping on my bed"

"Am I??"

"Yaa actually you are the first person I allowed to be in my apartment, not allowed.....you just make your way"

"Sorry"

"That is fine, I know I am an ass"

"Me too"

They both chuckled and fell silent...

"So what is your type??"

"Ahhh, hmmm..."

"I don't know, someone caring, someone, who understands feelings, someone who speaks their mind, someone with whom I can be carefree, who makes me laugh.... someone like that, I guess"

"wow....that's a very different list than I have", "make sense why my moles failed for the first time"

"What moles??"

"Did you forget you had rejected me in the club"

"Did I??"

"Please don't say you didn't remember you are butchering my ego", "my seduction techniques failed for the first time

"You were seducing me??"

"Then why in world, I would be showing off my body"

Mew was looking at Gulf like he heard something new...

" God you forget, you called me kid"

"Did I??"

"Yaa"

Mew tried to recall the night but he thought he is some random kid who is under the influence of alcohol

"Ohh, yaa but it was your fault, I thought you were a kid"

"I was so furious"

"But you looked like a kid and I was intoxicated, and you keep on talking, and I was irritated I had an argument with Prink and  then I saw you, you look pretty and drunk and then I got worried what if you get in wrong hands you know"

Gulf just shakes his head... "Yaa no doubt, You had thought that"

"Soo, What comes under your list??"

"Anyone with pretty face, Good bod, and nice pack I guess", "I don't do relation", "I just..." he cleared his throat, "I just... do the deed"

Mew nods his head...

"Then why did you agree??"

"Just for a change, and you have everything as per my list", "Let's see if we can't be a couple I made a friend I guess"

Mew nods his head again,

"Why do you think I fit in your list??"

Mew chuckled "You think you don't fit in the description"

Gulf nod his head fast...

"Let see"... He took a deep breath like he is gonna do some commotion,

"You let me in even though I was clearly harming you... I punched you, threaten you... but you.... don't know are you really dumb or maybe understand my feelings, and you still let me in for like more than a week"

"You had a choice of not opening the door and let me be there, call the cops for making a fuss, but you opened the door every time"

"and then you cry just for my satisfaction coz I wanted to see you cry, who does that for someone... like, I don't know"

"And I thought I would be happy to see you cry, but I was not, I felt ashamed of what I was doing"

"And then I got drunk and go silly, and you played along with me, and go silly instead of making fun, you even didn't mention it once.... that was the first time I don't know after how long I laughed so hard, and forget about my image of being perfect,"

Gulf felt shy all of a sudden he has no word about why he did that, and it felt weird to know that someone can like him for these reasons not because he has a pretty face.

"And then I just realize you are a good person, and you put me in ease, I don't know how you do it... but you did"

"And then when I saw you in the morning, you look ethereal and.. and... beautiful", "I didn't realize that for like in how long our lives got tangled somehow"

"More than three months I guess, and suddenly you become beautiful in my eyes, it was weird, it never happened... "

"And I carved for more and..." Gulf put his fingers on Mew's mouth stopping him to say further, he was thankful that lights were off to hide his tomato face,

It felt embarrassing to get praised for things that he never thought are important or he didn't even realize it...

"I am not used to this much praise" he is used to praising but mostly physical and about his music like how good he is, and about his other skill you know but this is different...

"But... You are really Nice"

"Stop"

"Okay"

"ummm can I ask about that fiance of yours", "I mean does she fits in the description"

"Sigh, she did not, but she gets along with me...and you know things. "I have not told her about how I feel, but she never asked why... she assumed just like others that I don't like intimacy"

"My parents were asking about marriage, so I asked her and she agreed", "I thought we loved each other"

"Accepting each other as they are... is love right??", "I accepted her, she liked expensive stuff,, and have no issue providing them, I don't like much of physical interaction, she accepted it, but I now realized that it was not same"

"But we use to say I love you to each other, it felt empty now", "the word felt empty now".."I don't know"

"We never argued, except the earlier marriage fiasco"

"Is it easy to forget her??"

"strangely I didn't even miss her", "there is something wrong right, I was with her for like three years, what I felt was betrayal and nothing else",

they fall in peaceful silence..

"It is funny though"

"What??"

"I took the guy as my boyfriend with whom my fiance cheated with"

Gulf punched on Mew's chest and turned around...

Mew snuggled against him, "Sorry"

Gulf stayed there in silence, then chuckled, "But indeed it is funny", "you are an idiot"

"yaa I think so"

they talked little more until their eyelids felt heavy and they zoned out

***

The week went with a blink of an eye Mew was busy with settling things with promoters, and the packed-up schedule which he demanded once, but now was cursing for that packed schedule...

whereas Gulf was busy with the club and attending meetings with few Music companies...

They fall in routine, no physical touch, not a proper kiss just subtle touches here and there, cuddles which Mew initiates, once Gulf tried to hold him from back and others' body get stiffed... so he released him..

and now he waits so Mew can initiate it on his own, and he doesn't have to wait long...

"I will be out for gig for like three days"

"Congrats for the gig"

"Thanks, I am playing with two bands"

"Ummm hmmm that is great, when are you leaving"

"Day after tomorrow"

"You will call me right or you would be busy??"

"I will, if I can't I will text you"

"You like music??"

"Duhhh... is it even a question"

"Since when did you start playing??"

"I started taking early classes in like when I was 5 or something", "my mother was in theater so I used to go with her and saw her on stage, it was mesmerizing"

"She had perfect pitch people told me I am gifted but I know it is in my genes because of her"

Mew nods, "I don't have any talent like you"

"Shut up", somehow he felt offended, "tell me what is square of 35"

"1225"

"What is 75*13"

"975"

"Why are you asking simple calculations"

"To prove my point I need a calculator to do that simple maths"

"So??"

"It means you are talented"

Mew looked at Gulf in awe and again took his feet between his legs, it was not that complicated calculations but, it felt nice if someone sees your simple things as talent...

He again took the plates and washed them he had learned few house chores over living at Gulf place, which he doesn't know why he is here, leaving his penthouse on the care of house service...

***

they laid down on the bed to chit chat, it was their daily routine, to talk because Mew likes to talk,

"You will leave tomorrow"

"hmhmm"

"When??"

"At five in the evening"

"i won't be there to see off"

"that is fine"

"Did that Karen came back??"

"Nahhh she didn't"

Gulf wants to touch others face it was shining under the moonlight,

He wants to feel if his skin is still soft or is his chin has still a little rusty with stubble, but he restrained his hand and place it beside his face, Mew watched the moment of others, somehow it makes him feel happy, in past people think he is a prude.

He took Gulf's hand and put it on his face, residing it there wrapping it with his own, looking deep in Gulf's eyes under the moonlight it makes him shiver...

"How did you found out you are demi??" he wants to touch more, can he, should he...

"Sigh, it was difficult, the simple skin to skin touch hikes my anxiety, sometimes friendly hugs cringe me out", " my classmate talk about s*x, and I felt so backed out like it feels foreign to get attracted by someone's body, their voice, their scent i don't get it",

"I thought something is wrong with me"

"I didn't have a girlfriend or boyfriend like I don't, my parents thought I lived with my grandpa so I got influenced with you know traditions, customs etc, maybe it played a part little, but after my grandpa I was free but still I can't"

"It was a difficult time..."

"Did you get bullied??"

"Nooo, my grandpa was trustee so, no one mess with me"

"Lucky"

"Yaa i agree"

"Then??"

"Then, then nothing they make distance with me, I too didn't want to get involved so yaa that is it"

"Must be lonely??"

"Not exactly I found my company in books", "you have no idea books can be dangerous"

"Ohhh they can??"

"Yaa they can"

Gulf chuckled, "if I would be in your shoes, i would be punching everyone who messes with me"

Mew smiled, "Wild"

"In everything" he winked at Mew, and mew just chuckled at him,

"You flirt a lot"

"It is good for health"

He pulled Gulf to his chest and snuggled closer resting his chin above the other head... after weeks of laying side by side, Mew initiated it again, so it is okay right, Gulf can touch, can he hug him back... he snaked his arm cautiously and pulled Mew closer with his waist... Mew flinched for a sec but then relax, it was a green signal for Gulf.. he smiles under him...

"Am I stopping you??"

"I am getting used to being tamed"

Mew chuckled again, Making his body bounce making Gulf's feel the bounce with him

"How was your childhood??"

Gulf paused for a long time, his body gets rigid, which mew felt in his embrace...

"It was... it was"

"It is okay, some other day" he squeezed him under him and patted on others' head, kissing on top of it..

Gulf clutched on Mew's shirt, inhaled the clean scent and they entered into dreamland

*

*

Mew left early with breakfast, and a simple note, and a pack of vitamins...

Gulf wakes up like an hour or two late he dragged his feet to the living area, he glanced over the area it looks empty, his eyes fall on the kitchen counter, packed food on it he stepped towards the area with a smile, suddenly the apartment didn't felt lonely anymore...

"Don't stress out"... with a pack of vitamins he chucked, he seriously has no idea what he is doing with this man, but he will savor the moments until he can...

He applauds himself for not lurking around and having s*x with random people, it is new for him, but somehow this new improvement made Mild much happier...

He doesn't know the reason of Gulf's change he assumes, he is vibing with his new apartment decor..

*

*

The day was stressful, he directly made his way to take a soothing shower... when he came out Gulf was calling he picked the call instantly

"Hey hottiee" Gulf greeted whistling over Mew's half-naked body and winked at him

Mew shrugged his head, and put the phone at an angle to show his face only, "Hey cutie"

Gulf rolled his eyes, "can't I even see the glory"

Mew laughed audibly, "what glory??"

Gulf make a face, but then diverted his phone, "see... here I am going to stay for two nights", "let me show you the outer area" and he ran outside to the balcony..

And let me show you the best part, "tan tanna tana tanna" , "see" he showed jacuzzi... "I really wanna strip down and sit in this..."

"Who is stopping you, maybe I can see the glory too"

Gulf wiggled his eyebrows, "ahhh haaa... you are learning fast"

"Hail to my teacher"

They giggled at their own jokes...

"what a waste??

"what??"

"this jacuzzi could have witness both of our glories but his bad, he can't"

"you are shameless"

"zzzz you always use wrong words, you mean S for sexy, smart"

"yaa definitely Silly, Stupid"

"My S for stomach is growling like a hungry lion", "I just checked in thought let me just show you first"

"God Mew you talk too much and made me forget I need to eat"

"Do you see the irony in your statement,"

Gulf noticed Mew's background is different, "shhh.....where are you??"

"At my penthouse"

"But I gave you the keys"

"I will be there when you get back or do you wanna come to my place"

"Hmmm" Gulf thought for a while, "let's discuss that after refilling this flat eight-pack abs tummy"

Mew laughed again, it is what Gulf makes different he talks anything and Mew just finds it funny or amusing it is weird, isn't it...

"Yaa make those eight pack one"

Gulf showed his toothy smirk..

"Okay bye babe, I am gonna miss your farts" he puckered out his lips making audible kissing sounds... Mew laughed again falling on his back..

***

"how do I look??"

Gulf sent a pic of him fully dressed and coal eyes...

"you have make-up on"

"Thanks sherlock, but I asked how do I look"

"Like a chocolate cake with strawberry"

"If you have a food fetish, I will happily dress like a chicken for you"

Mew laughed out loud, slamming on his table, everyone around the table looked at him...he composed himself

"TTL"

"In a meeting"

"I laughed"

" 🙄"

🤣🤣

He clears his throat, "ahhh, I am sorry gentlemen" he put his stoic face on and straightens his back...

***

"why you are always naked whenever I call you", Mew rolled his eyes

"why you always call me after my shower"

"you are teasing me"

"I am not"

Gulf made a face..Mew put a tank top on over the shorts and adjusted the phone so he can see Gulf and eat along with...

"you are wearing shorts too"

"yaa Gulf I do"

"But you never did when we are together"

"I will, happy now??"

Mew adjusted little made his shorts go a little up

"you have a tattoo??"

"yaa"

"I never thought you would have", "show me"

Mew stands up and showed the tattoo on his thigh....

"what is it??", "it looks likes books, a ticking clock, and a candle"

"is there any meaning  behind it"

"yes"

"what is it??"

someone called Gulf's name from behind,

"i need to go"

Mew just nods his head...

"but promise me first, you will let me see it in person too"

"i will"

"no not like that,, full statement"

"i will let you see my tattoo when you will be back in person"

"and i can touch it too"

"okay"

"no say it"

"okay, you can touch it too"

"i can lick, and bite it too"

Mew paused Gulf chuckled, "kidding who want your fat hairy thighs"

Mew chuckled, "not sure about others but you do"

Gulf blushed, "keep on dreaming", "i want  a tattoo too"

"where you want it"

"On my waist, Does it hurt??"

"of course when they gonna poke you with a needle but it is fine, not hurt much"

"Gulf i think they are calling you"

Gulf looked at his back again, "God Mew, you talk so much"

Mew just shakes his head like ya ya he does talk a lot..

***

"I am going out for a meeting"

"But I am coming back today"

"I know😭"

"This is the last week of my heavy schedule, I will be free after this"

"and i can't be with you tonight, I am going out"

😢😭

"😩"

"Sorry,"

"But you can rest in my office"

"I will be back in an hour we can hang out there for a while"

"you are not excited  to meet me"

"I am"

"how??"

"I am inviting you to my office"

"What a romantic date"

"sorry"

"Please come there Gulfie 😍"

"yaa yaa i will be there..."

***

"Hye can I see Mew, I mean Khun Mew suppasit..."

Mew had already told the receptionist about Gulf, she picked the card and give it to Gulf,

"you know the directions??"

he nods his head and headed to the office, dragging his trolly bag along with...

he entered into the Mew's personal office, used the washroom to wash out his face, and give little touch-up...

he came out all freshen up and sit on the couch, he was going through magazines on the table and few papers, "how boring"

but his peripheral vision catch some light, he looked in the direction and found the sparkles.... his eyes shine and a smile erupts on his face, he went closer and closer..... the closer he goes his heart thump faster, he sat on Mew's table and saw the sparkle in awe...

"you are so pretty little thing" he admired the shiny piece from far, and caressed the paperweight which was shining like a normal paperweight but in Gulf's eyes, it was beautiful, without his conscience he picked up the shiny piece and take a closer look...

he put it in his pocket and went out of the office...

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