chapter 14

Author's POV..."Stoppp.....that's enough...I know it's my fault and I am sorry ....truly I am sorry"Thulir apologized sincerely...he just stared at her plainly she couldn't articulate what he was thinking..."I know I've caused you a lot of pain, and at the time, I was at a loss for what to do. My mind was a whirlwind of thoughts, I couldn't accept or reject anything. The night you confessed your love, I was overwhelmed with shock and surprise, yet a part of me also felt joy. However, everything fell apart when I learned the next day that Aadhavan had left home without informing anyone, and I was the last person he had spoken to. Unsure of how to react, especially knowing you were also in turmoil, I distanced myself from everything, hoping it would help clear my mind. Instead, it led me into a deeper abyss. I acknowledge my mistake now, I was in a confused and troubled state, unable to determine what was right or wrong. I was frightened to make a decision, so I took the easy way out by ignoring it, but this only ended up causing pain to both you and me.....You might question me about this sudden change of mind....it is just that I realized this hiding game is not giving me any peace neither to the people who love me...I can't act like I am alright to my family that hurts every time when I say I am fine to my Appa...I can't fool myself anymore...I know and I accept the fact that I love you....I love you madly  And yes I am selfish to come and ask you to love me back when I gave you a hell lot of reasons not to and give up on me which you eventually did......But I want you back at any cost and keeping al all this with me is not going to help me so I rushed here to meet you and dump all this hoping at least now I get some peace......I won't compel you to accept me and love me .......but surely I will force you to forgive me....forgive me for hurting you.....forgive me for not cherishing  your love....forgive me for my foolishness of believing that I can survive and forget the feelings I have for you just by being away from you hurting myself and you in the process......please forgive me Agathiya.."Tears streamed down her face, unhidden at the moment, while her focus remained on him, who was silent."Agathiya..."She called out his name once more, yearning for an answer. He turned towards her, gently wiped away her tears, took a deep breath, and then spoke."You will be tired go and sleep Thulir....Good night "He stood up, ready to leave, when she grasped his wrist, stopping him. He did not look back, nor did he shake off her hold."Did I become that much worthless in your life you don't even want to talk with me anymore....IF you are angry shout at me scold me but not this silence......Don't take revenge for my silence of past 5 years...These three months of silence from you have already hurt me enough....don't give me this silent punishment in person.....I know it is less compared to my 5 years ignorance.....but please don't"Thulir pleaded him...."Woah...Remember once you said you are the fortunate one in our generation ....how true that is you can choose which punishment you want and can make the person agree to that "He looked down at her.. just as she was about to speak, he placed his index finger on her lips stopping her....Agathiyan signed and kneeled in front of her... "Fine ....If my forgiveness can give you peace then I will forgave you.....Happy now "In the next moment, Thulir threw herself into his arms and hugged him tightly, he caught her securely, holding her close.She was mumbling multiple sorry......"Kathula Ratham vanthuda poguthu dii...un sorry mandharatha niruthu dii" (at this rate my ears would bleed dii,.....stop your sorry mantra )Thulir shook her head, not yet ready to break the embrace instead, she tightened the hug further."Matein"(I won't)"Athan manichutein la...aparam ena dii"(I said I forgave you right ....then what dii)Thulir drew back a little and gazed into his eyes, wiping away the tears once more."Aren't you angry at me ??""Unma solatuma ila poi solava "(You want the truth or lie )He questioned her, she gulped, met his gaze, and swallowed the lump in her throat."Poi solu Agathiya....Unmai enaku keka vena"(lie Agathiya....I don't want to hear the truth)Thulir spoke. Agathiyan nodded gently and cradled her cheeks... she leaned into his palm..."I am neither angry nor upset with you Thulir "Thulir already know that's what he is going to say still  it does hurts her..."Then why did you forgave me Agathiya""Because you asked me to "Agathiyan said truthfully......Thulir became silent to lift up her mood he said "along with that I thought what if your Appa,Thambi along with my Peripa ,appa and chithapa's do if they get to know that I made their dear Thulir cry........That's scary isn't it??"He pretended to be scared, which made her giggle."Ama romba than ACP sir ku Bayam"(Yeah yeah ACP sir is so scared right )"Ilaya pina....En varungala Mamanar machan ku bayanthu thane aganum....and unoda  mamanga magan ena vitutu unaku tha over ah support panuvanga naa konjam jakrathaiya thane irukanum "(Of course....I have to beware of my future Father in law and Brother in law right.......and your uncles supports you more than me so I have to be careful with them  )"Ohh then what about the ladies of our family""I have the full support of my Uyir Athai. what more do I need?" He said, wiggling his brows...Thulir shook her head in disbelief  and hugged him again....."I thought you would lash out on me...at least would scold me"Thulir mumbeled.....Agathiyan Chucked and kissed her hair..."The truth is, I wanted to, but I couldn't. Choosing to be angry and prioritizing my ego at this moment, especially when you've set aside your pride to ask for forgiveness, would be wrong. The 'tit for tat' approach doesn't work in love, Thulir. If we adopt it, the cycle would be endless. Someone has to  step down, and make the first move towards compromise. If it's always one person, that's a problem. It has to be mutual. I managed to stop nagging you, and you, overcoming your stubbornness, made the effort to come here and asked forgiveness. You're trying, and I respect that, Thulir.that doesn't mean all those scars of past 5 years vanished at this moment itself......no it does takes time to heal and I wanted my wounds to heal that's why I am giving us a chance...I don't how much time it would take me to heal from all those memories of pain......but surely it will and I hope I will get that time from you too"Agathiyan asked kissing her forehead...Thulir nodded her head with a smile and kissed his cheeks. she didn't asked further but hugged him snuggling to his neck seeking his warmth that calmed herself...they stayed in each others embrace neither of them want to break....Thulir closed her eyes slowly getting into slumber.....his hand wander around her back and his eyes widened when it hit him...."Adiyeii""hmmm"she hummed lazily.....he called her again irritating her "Aadiyee Theenii""Ena da "she pulled away from the hug and glared at him....he narrowed his eyes at her...she was straddling him...he was kneeling on the floor and she was sitting on his lap...He surveyed her from up and down, swallowing the lump in his throat... Thulir's brow furrowed upon seeing his reaction. She lightly slapped his cheeks playfully to bring him out of his trance....He looked at her...Thulir raised her brows questioning him...he took a deep breath and his right hand slowly slid inside his T-shirt she is wearing.....Thulir gasped due to that bare skin to skin contact...he smirked at her then his travelled up in dangerously slow manner....her lips parted and breath picked up its pace still he didn't broke the eye Contant...Thulir furrowed when his lips carried a mischievous smirk ........his fingers brushed her under boobs....Thulir eyes widened in realization she held his hand above the T-shirt....still she couldn't stop his fingers brushing her nipple Lighty when she pulled his hands out of her T-shirt....her face flushed and she couldn't look at him due to her shyness ......" ohhh Unaku vekkapadalam Theriyuma dii en Theeni..."(Oohhh.....You know how to blush dii Theeni)Agathiyan's laughter earned him a playful slap from her as he teased her....she hid her face in his chest to hide her flushed face from him....Their moment was disturbed by his phone ringtone....Thulir picked his phone and gave him seeing the caller Id he excused himself and went outside to speak....