CH 7
I Was a Good Person, and Then a Lot of Things Betrayed Me
After school on the day of the broadcast, I was summoned to the student guidance office by Satozaki-sensei.
I reluctantly agreed and headed for the guidance counselorâs office.
I stood in front of the door and knocked twice to open it.
âYouâre here.â
Satozaki-sensei said and looked at me.
âWhy am I here?â
I asked.
âDo I have to tell you?â
Yes, I know.
Itâs almost confirmed that itâs about todayâs morning broadcast.
âYes, I know what youâre talking about.â
The teacher lets out a little sigh.
â Why did you do that?â
Huh?
Why is the teacher talking to me like I did something wrong?
âCan I ask you a question before I answer your question?â
âNo, not until you answer my question.â
The teacher gave me a sharp look.
I answered without being intimidated by his gaze.
âI understand, I will answer your question.â
âI just need to know. Why did you do that?â
The teacher asked me the same question again.
âWhy? Because it was fun.â
âFun?â
The teacherâs voice was filled with anger.
âAs long as youâre having fun, is doesnât matter what you do?â
âIn fact, I feel so much better.â
I had a sense of déjà vu what the teacher said.
âSensei, you heard the broadcast, didnât you?â
I laughed, as if mocking her.
âIt was Shiraki who said itâ
ââ¦.She had her reason.â
The teacher says so after a short pause.
âHaa?â
It almost stuns me.
âHaa, letâs say Shiraki had a reason. Would that be a reason to hurt someone?â
ââ¦.â
Sensei fell silent.
I was disappointed in Sensei.
She was a very strict but kind teacher who cared about her students, but that was completely gone from my mind.
âSensei, you should scold Shiraki first. Why are you scolding me before Shiraki?â
âIâve already talked to Shiraki.â
âI see. Then why are you talking like Iâm to blame for everything?â
âShinzaki, thatâs not true!â
âWhat is not true? Then, why did you say something like defending Shiraki just now?â
She looked as if she was wondering whether or not to say anything before speaking.
âIt was because I heard Shirakiâs true feelings.â
What is she talking about?
âSheâs the kind of person who enjoys toying with people.â
I said coldly.
I thought there was no point in talking any more, so I turned on my feet and left the guidance counselorâs office.
âAh, thatâs right, Senseiâ
I said, as if remembering.
âW-What is it?â
âI told you I had a question for you, right?â
I turned to face the teacher.
âWhy am I being called into the guidance counselorâs office for being the victim?â
âDonât you know why?â
The teacher looks a little puzzled.
âBecause I was betrayed by Shiraki and was disgusted with her, so I just tried to get revenge on her, is that it?â
âShinzaki! There are things you are allowed to do and things you are not allowed to do!â
âWhat is it that Iâm doing wrong?â
ââ¦.Ha?â
Iâm the one whoâs confused.
Why should I be looked at like that?
I was wrapped in discomfort.
âIâm done.â
I walk toward the door.
âShinzaki! Wait!â
I leave the guidance counselorâs office without listening to her words.
âIf you keep this up, youâre going to break someday!â
I start walking down the hallway.
âI knew this was going to happen.â
Just before I left the guidance counselorâs office, I thought I heard something, but I couldnât quite make it out.
Leaving the guidance counselorâs office, I walked back to my house.
Walking towards my room.
I havenât talked to my sister at all recently.
When I try to talk to her, she ignores me.
If that was the case, it would be best if I didnât talk to her either.
Just as I was thinking that, there was a knock at my room door.
I open the door, feeling a little uncomfortable.
There stood my sister.
âWhy did you do that at school today?â
How did she know I did it?
Aah, I told her before that I was dating Shiraki, so it is natural that I was the only one who would do something like that.
I answer my own questions in such a way.
The same question. I answer with some annoyance.
âItâs revenge.â
âYou!â
My sister raised her voice.
âThere are things you can do and things you canât do!â
There it is again.
âWhat makes it what Iâm doing wrong?â
Maybe if itâs my sister, she knows.
ââ¦.Ha? What are you talking about?â
Her expression was a mixture of confusion and a little fear.
âLike I said, what did I do that was wrong?â
I continued.
âOf course itâs Shirakiâs fault.â
âAre you serious?â
My sisterâs expression was the same as before, but I could see the fear in her eyes.
âI have it enough.â
I was about to close the door to my room when she gave me an answer that didnât seem to satisfy me.
âWait a minute!â
My sister slides her hand between the door and the wall to stop me.
âWhat?â
I said with a hint of hatred on my face.
âW-Whatâs with that face?â
Youâre so annoying.
âItâs nothing.â
âIt canât be nothing!â
Tsk
âI SAID ITâS NOTHING!â
I say as if yelling at her.
âHii!â
My sister screams, perhaps startled by the sudden yell.
I closed the door of my room while looking at my sisterâs face.
For some reason, my mind flashed back to the sad faces of Himari and the teacher at school, and the frightened look on my sisterâs face.