𝑺𝒕𝒖𝒑𝒊𝒅 𝒃𝒐𝒚, 𝑰 𝒔𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅'𝒗𝒆 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘𝒏, 𝑰 𝒔𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅'𝒗𝒆 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘𝒏

🎶𝑪𝒖𝒓𝒓𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒍𝒚 𝑷𝒍𝒂𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈: 𝑾𝒉𝒊𝒕𝒆 𝑯𝒐𝒓𝒔𝒆 𝒃𝒚 𝑻𝒂𝒚𝒍𝒐𝒓 𝑺𝒘𝒊𝒇𝒕🎶

Conrad POV

I have been staring at the ocean water for about an hour already, feeling like the most stupid man on earth. Feeling like the unluckiest person to be alive, and wanting to throw myself onto my bed and sink into it.

Because I should've just jumped in and told her, but instead I stood there staring like an idiot. And now here I am throwing rocks at the ocean as if it was it's fault and not my own. As if I didn't have a complete batch of daisies in my room because those are the ones Olivia likes, not roses.

"You don't look great," I hear Elina say from behind me. She sits next to me and her girlfriend sits on her other side.

"I'm doing great," I say while throwing another rock to the ocean.

"First of all," she says while taking away my soda from my hand.

"Have you really drank all these soda's?"

She points at the cans of soda on the ground and I just shrug.

"It's better than drinking a shit ton of beer," I say as I lay on the towel and place another towel over my eyes.

"Damn, he is down bad for her," I hear Elina's girlfriend, Eleanor, say from beside her.

"How does she kn-"

"She aint tell me. It's very obvious,"

If it was very obvious, I wouldn't be here right now. I guess obvious to some but not to others.

I stand up and pick up all my things.

"Well, it's whatever. It was just a small crush, it will die off"

"Are you sure you're alri-"

"Byee," I say while walking to the house, not wanting to hear anything else. Because truly, I don't know how I feel, myself.

Should I feel angry that they got together, or should I be happy for her since she is with someone she truly likes? But should I really be happy right now when there is a bouquet of daisies sitting on my bed, waiting to be given to her, that will now, instead, end up at the dumpster.

As I enter the house, it is silent. All of the balloons are popped, the cake is half eaten, and the floor is full of cans.

I don't feel like dealing with this today.

I walk towards the stairs, but then stop once I see Olivia picking things up off the ground in the living room. She has headphones on and is silently singing lyrics to a song. I go over to help her but then I see Tae walk towards her and wrap his arms around her. He sways with her while his head is on top of hers.

I don't even want to acknowledge how this is making me feel because it just makes it all worse to think about it.

I quietly walked up the stairs, hoping they didn't hear me, and headed towards my room. As soon as I enter, there lays the daisies, mocking me. Mocking my every move today, yesterday, and every day before. Laughing at me because, at the end of the day, I am always just the friend.

Stupid flowers.

I grab them off the bed and as I throw myself onto my bed, I toss them onto my desk. I look over at them and then towards my ceiling.

Stupid me.

Cause, I never learn.

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𝒔𝒉𝒐𝒓𝒕 𝒄𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝒔𝒊𝒏𝒄𝒆 𝑰 𝒂𝒎 𝒑𝒐𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 2 𝒕𝒐𝒅𝒂𝒚. 𝑰𝒇 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒆𝒏𝒋𝒐𝒚𝒆𝒅 𝒑𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒔𝒆 𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒂 𝒗𝒐𝒕𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒏𝒌𝒔 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒅𝒊𝒏𝒈 <3