Chapter 50 - 49 She’s Not Worth It for Herself!

“Qin Yize, in your eyes, is marriage not a matter of seriousness? If you didn’t treat this as child’s play, why did you disregard me? In this marriage, how did you act as a husband?

What right do you have to say that I treat marriage as child’s play? If you think marriage is sacred, why didn’t you firmly refuse from the start?

With your abilities, Qin Yize, you had a thousand ways to refuse, yet you did not. You married me, then treated me with indifference, leaving me anxious and restless day by day. Now that I have finally seen things clearly and initiated a divorce, this decision is the most solemn one for me and a respect for this unequal marriage. How can you say that I treat marriage as child’s play?”

Gu Qiaoqiao’s eyes brimmed with mist and hatred as she roared softly.

Qin Yize was stunned.

He looked at Gu Qiaoqiao intently, his dark eyes seemingly shadowed like ink.

He finally realized that Gu Qiaoqiao’s divorce proposal was not a whim nor a tactic to garner his attention.

She was serious, so serious that she publicly proposed it in front of everyone.

Not giving herself any room to retreat.

It was indeed resolute and unwavering.

He also saw the hatred in Gu Qiaoqiao’s eyes. Why did she hate him?

Was it because of today’s events?

He wasn’t sure and didn’t have time to ask, as Gu Qiaoqiao and Bai Yun hardly gave anyone a chance to respond.

However, if Gu Qiaoqiao insisted on divorcing, he would not cling stubbornly.

He would willingly let go and give her freedom.

All this time, he had never experienced falling in love or youthful infatuation.

To date, at twenty-two years old, no girl had made his heart flutter.

He had also never imagined like other boys what his future wife, with whom he would have children, would be like.

In front of these girls, including Gu Qiaoqiao, his heart remained utterly still.

Just like an ancient well for thousands of years.

Chu Chengfeng mocked him for being heartless, but he knew it wasn’t a sickness, just that there was no girl worthy of stirring his heart.

Thus, he viewed romantic attachments with extreme indifference.

Thinking that this would be his life, he agreed to marry her.

She wanted to marry him, so he provided her with marriage; she longed for the glamour of the Imperial Capital, so he quickly brought her into the Qin Family.

But now, she told him she had thought it through, and she wanted a divorce.

A divorce?

Fine!

But some things need to be made clear.

Qin Yize slowly began to speak, but his voice was somewhat hoarse, “I understand now; you are indeed not acting on a whim or impulsively, but after careful consideration.”

“Yes, I’ve thought about it for a long time.”

A lifetime, which is indeed a long time.

“However, I need to clarify some things with you.”

Qin Yize slightly distanced himself from Gu Qiaoqiao, but the chilly fragrance of bamboo leaves still lingered between them.

It seemed mingled with a hint of a young girl’s delicate scent.

Gu Qiaoqiao cast her eyes downward.

“First, I want to tell you that agreeing to marry you is no child’s play. If nothing major happens, we’ll spend our lifetime together.”

Gu Qiaoqiao slowly clenched her hands, a hint of coldness spreading across her lips.

“Of course, the accident refers to the end of my life.”

Gu Qiaoqiao suddenly looked up at him.

Those eyes, brilliant as stars, held emotions she couldn’t understand.

A few moments later, Gu Qiaoqiao indifferently lowered her head as a voice gently began overhead.

“On the day of our wedding, due to special circumstances, I went to Diannan overnight. The nature of the job was confidential, and I couldn’t call you, nor leave even a single word. By the time I had completed the task and returned, it was January. I went to the Northern Border City to continue setting up a research base, where only military phone lines were available, which were quite inconvenient.

Moreover, there was a holiday a month later, so I didn’t write a letter.

The day I returned, I handed over all my allowance and the bonus from the mission to you. I thought, this was an obligation must be fulfilled as your husband…”

Gu Qiaoqiao was stunned.

In both her past and present lives, she had thought that Qin Yize had gone to the experimental base in Northern Border City, which indeed was inconvenient, but letters could still be sent.

Yet it turned out, he had only returned from Diannan last month.

A bitter smile tugged at her lips, her thoughts churning like tumultuous waves.

She felt unworthy of herself!

Why didn’t he say so? If he had told her, would she still be so tormented and pained that he didn’t call or write to her?

If she weren’t so fixated, would she have been deceived by Bai Yun?

However, there would never be an answer to this question.

“So, I wasn’t ignoring you.”

From Qin Yize’s perspective, he could only see the top of Gu Qiaoqiao’s soft, black hair, not the expression on her face.

He could barely catch a whiff of a faint fragrance.

He suddenly recalled their first meeting; Gu Qiaoqiao, carrying tea, had trembled surprisingly when she saw him. The tray holding four cups of tea nearly tilted to spill everything on the floor.

This girl, quick in reaction, flipped and steadied the tray in her hands.

And his hand, awkwardly hanging in mid-air, stopped moving.

Thinking of this, Qin Yize’s gaze softened, his voice lightened, “Gu Qiaoqiao, do you remember the talk we had at your home before I agreed to the marriage?”

Talk?

When was that?

Without the icy chill from Qin Yize, she felt a trace of warmth and calmed down significantly. She remembered that Qin Yize indeed had a conversation with her, but at that time, she was so blissfully elated, like walking on clouds, floating about with only his pleasant male voice in her ears.

But she hadn’t really heard what he had said.

Gu Qiaoqiao’s head hung even lower.

Qin Yize seemed to understand, for back then Gu Qiaoqiao hadn’t been listening attentively, but the radiance of her smiling face was so brilliant it was hard for him to bear looking directly.@@novelbin@@

“Since you’ve forgotten, let me repeat it to you, I am a cold person by nature, sometimes harsh and unsympathetic…”

He paused for a moment before continuing, “I told you, I couldn’t guarantee being a qualified husband, couldn’t provide the dream marriage you wished for, and you said you didn’t mind.”

Gu Qiaoqiao bit her lip, vaguely remembering these words.

“I also told you, we had only met once, I had no feelings for you, not even liking, let alone love, yet you still said you didn’t mind, as long as you loved me. You said the future was long, and you would desperately make me fall in love with you, as long as you could marry me, you didn’t care about anything else…”

These words from Qin Yize were like needles piercing her heart, shaking her soul, her complexion changed drastically, and she shouted, “Stop talking.”