Help me

He said „look at me" I didn't want it and shakes mine head he lifted my head up with his fingers.

„I said look at me i know i lied to you it was all a lie we lived but i love you and that wasn't a lie i wasn't allowed to tell you the truth i had to protect you the mafia world is bad i didn't want you bring it in there i know we didn't really get married because i didn't want the others to know about you it would put you in more danger but i love you and it's real please forgive me".

he stroked my cheeks i couldn't look him in the eyes „i can't i don't know anything right now i need time i should go now" i said he didn't try to protest further just nodded and let me go.

i packed up quickly and went down the stairs with coco i packed everything in the car i wanted to get in but Leonardo stopped me.

„before you go i want you to know i wont give up on us we will get back together i will make sure" he said i got in and drove off ,my heart hurt i felt so empty i missed my other half.

I drove to sophie when i got there she opened the door for me she already knew i had told her on the way i was very tired for today and went straight to the room that sophie had made for me it was no problem for her i could stay here as long as i wanted.

I laid down but couldn't sleep i was just crying and lost in my thoughts coco cuddled me and it made me feel a little better I stopped crying I couldn't be weak I had to be strong for my baby.