Rosé- You're mine (part 1)

"Hey y/n. Wanna go grab something to eat?" You feel a hand caressing your shoulder and turn your  head around to the source of the voice to see Rosé standing behind you with a smile on her face.

You have been  working for YG Entertainment for 3 months now, as the new video editor for Blackpink. You felt like an outsider for a couple of days due to  language barrier. You are not Korean so talking to some of the staff was a problem. The CEO saw to this problem by adding you to the Blackpink team as most of the staff knew English, which helped you a lot as you slowly leaned to speak Korean.

You have become close to everyone in the team. The girls, the production team, makeup artists, the managers. It has been a blast, but for the last couple of weeks you feel your knees go weak whenever Rosé smiles at you, talks to you or even glances at your direction. Now that is a problem considering the fact that you have to talk to them all the time to get or give ideas about editing their videos.

"Oh. Hey, Rosie. I was just finishing up. You want a ride?" You ask, confused as to whether she was just asking for a ride or actually asking you to dinner.

"Oh no. I was asking whether you want to grab a bite with me." She says, hand still on your shoulder.

Your heart starts beating faster when you notice the little touch. You seem to notice every little thing about her nowdays.

Her touch and gaze makes you stutter out a tiny 'yes'.

"Okay. Grab your things. Will get changed real quick. 10 minutes?" She questions you with her left eyebrow a little bit quirked.

"Yeah. Sure. I will just wrap up while you get changed Rosie." You say as you start turning off the monitors.

She gives your shoulder a squeeze and walks out of the studio you were in. The other girls seem to have gone home. Rosie was the only member in the studio as she was recording her part of their new comeback.

"What do I do? How do I stop looking at her like she is a godsend angel. Damn she is beautiful." You talk to yourself. You know that it's no use falling for someone like her. She is a celebrity with a hectic schedule and you were literally no one. You weren't insecure or anything. You know that you were quite good looking, but that was not the issue. The issue was the difference in status and the fact that you both were girls.

You sigh and realize that she most probably has A-liners after her since the release of the album R. 'She is way out of your league y/n. Stop imagining a life with her and forget about her.' You think as you push the last of your stuff in your bag.

Rosie comes to the door just as you wear the straps of your bag. "You ready y/n?" She was  wearing a simple grey shirt with black shorts and brown boots and had her blonde hair in a messy bun.

"Yeah. Lets go." You say as you grab your car keys off your table.

"So, how was your day?" She asks you as you walk down the hall towards the exit. You open the door for her. She walks out and you follow her.

"It was nice I guess. A lot of work due to the comeback being just around the corner. The lunch was good. The manager got me jajangmyeon." She laughs at the expression on your face. Your eyes probably had starts in them just thinking about the noodles.

"You always get this look in your face while talking about food. Lisa says that its the same as mine when I see food", she says as you open the car locks and open her door for her to seat. You close her door and move to sit on your own seat and start the car.

"You don't really have to open the door for me you know." She looks at you for an answer.

"I know. I just like doing it. Can't help it I guess." You give her a smile and start the drive.

"Where do you wanna eat?" You ask but already turn towards the road leading to her favourite restaurant knowing her answer already.

"Ooh. Wanna have sweet pork at Masineun" She says while she turns on the radio.

"Its IU!" She turns up the volume a little and starts singing to it. You notice the way she looks out the window pretending to hold a mic as she sings perfectly along the song. Your heart swells and your unnoticed smile broadens.

You love moments like this with her. Rosie doesn't have a car and usually rides with the person that gets off work at the same time as her, which is you most of the time.

You are the closest to Lisa. She is like a friend you never had, sharing same frequencies and everything. This brought you close to Rosie too.

Pulling up to the parking space in front of the restaurant, you shut the car.

"Let's go." You say grabbing your purse and phone. She opens her door and waits in the back as you lock the car.

"So how's your Korean classes going? I see that you have improved a lot since you started here. Your progress is surprisingly fast. Even Lisa wasn't this good when I saw her for the first time as a trainee." She says as she grabs your hand in hers and puts her fingers through yours.

See, this was a problem. This right here. Her holding your hand or wrapping her hand around you or giving you a hug so casually. You grew up in a family where hugs were not a common thing. You can literally count the number of times you and your family has hugged. So being hugged so casually and often by the girl you are crushing on and most probably in love with makes it even more hard for you to move on and stop liking her.

'Like that's ever gonna stop', you think as she tightens her fingers around your palm trying to get your attention.

"Yeah. Its going nicely. I have learnt a lot of new expressions and words. It hard, I won't lie. But its also fun. I kinda missed learning something new."

"Nerd." She teases you and drags you to the restaurant.

"Hi. A table for two, please." You say and notice Rosie taking out her phone and texting someone real fast.

The owner takes you to a seat at the back , where both of you get seated near the window, looking out the main road. Both of you order your food.

"I need to do some grocery shopping after dinner. Need some things for tomorrow. You don't have any problem staying here for a while as I get a few things from the shop next door do you? I mean you can have an ice cream to spend the time while I shop." You speak, as you sip your water and open the menu. When you don't get a reply, you look up to notice that Rosie is still busy with her phone.

"Rosie?" Still no reply. "Hey. Rosie." You tap the table and finally get her to notice you.

"Huh?" She questions, obviosly not getting why you distracted her from her phone.

"I asked if you have any problem if I go to the shop next door to grab some stuff. You can get an ice cream to pass the time or if you have to get home early I will just drop you off and get my things afterwards." You say while looking at her eyes, which seem a little distracted.

"Yeah. It's no problem. I will just stay right here as you shop." She says just as the food comes. You both eat like you always do, without any inhibitions till your stomach was full.

"Okay. I'm going to pay the bill", you speak over her protest about you paying the bill, "and go do my shopping. Stay right here, yeah?" She nods her head, while your pay the bill and go to the shop right beside the restaurant.

You and Lisa had planned on going camping for the weekend which started tomorrow. You had to grab all the junk food you could get your hands on. And all the alcohol cause you guys were gonna party hard for the weekend. You had asked all the girls but they already had other plans. So it was just you and Lisa.

You grab a few six pack beers, some soju, a packet of Marlboros, some other drinks, and all types of packaged meat for grilling.

As you move through the ice cream isle, you think about getting yourselves and Rosie an ice cream. You grab her favourite type for her. Sweet corn popsickle. At first you though that it was disgusting for someone to eat such an ice cream. But it grew on you and you have started liking it as well. You grab two ice creams and went to the cashier.

You open the door and exit the shop after paying. You open  your ice cream and take a bite as you start walking  back to the restaurant.

You start calling of Rosie, when  you notice that she isn't alone.

She was holding hands with an idol. It was V from BTS. They were whispering to each other with their heads nearly touching, so you couldn't hear them. V says something that makes Rosie laugh.

Your heart breaks a little when you see that smile. You have never seen it before.

They both lean in and kiss a long lingering love filled kiss. You walk out the door and back towards the shop, trying to breathe normally.

You have never felt pain like this before. It was almost a physical pain, like someone had punched you in the chest while sitting on it.

You couldn't feel anything as you sat on a bench in front of the shop.

You throw your ice cream in the trash besides the bench and sigh.

Grabbing the packet of cigarette you brought, you unwrap one of the ten packets and pull out  a cigarette. You light it and breathe in long drag. You breathe out the smoke slowly. "It's okay y/n. What did  you think would happen anyway. That you could have Rosie and would live happily ever after? Dang, she is one of the most famous celebrities in the world right now and you thought that she would someone as miniscule as you?" You scoff at yourself and keep smoking.

"Doesn't mean that it hurts any less though." You say as you throw the old cigarette and light a new one. You look up at the night sky and wish that you had never started falling for her. That you didn't notice her silly little antics, how kind and hardworking she really was, how all her facial moles showed when the light just hit right or how her voice was angelic as hell and made you feel peace every single time.

Now you knew why she was so distracted and busy with her phone in the restaurant today. Yeah, she didn't mean to have dinner with you. You definitely were her ride to meet V.

You sigh once again as you hear the door to the restaurant open and both of them coming out hand in hand. They were smiling, and didn't even notice you sitting on the bench.

"Okay. I will meet you tomorrow baby", V says as he caressed Rosie's arms and gives her a long kiss. "Bye." He waves at her and walks towards his car, gets in and drives away, all the while Rose looks at him like a happy puppy.

She turns around and get shocked to see you sitting there with  two very large packets filled to the brim with what she could see as snacks and junk.

"Hey. Didn't see you there. Done shopping?" She asks giving you a smile, which somehow didn't reach her eyes. She looks at your hand and her eyes widen. "Y/N are you smoking?" She tries to make a grab for the cigarette to throw it away, like she always does when she catches you smoking. But you pull it away from her reach.

"So you seeing V ha?" you say trying to force your tune into a teasing one. Pretending to be taking a pull at her leg as every friend does.

She gives a nervous chuckle. "Yeah. It has been a few months since we started seeing each other." She gives you a sheepish smile. You get up and give her the sweet corn ice cream.

"For you mademoiselle. A delish popsicle. Your favourite." You hand it to her with a courtsey, forcing a smile as your heart breaks a little more.

"Oh my god. Thank you." She takes it out of your hand and opens it.

You start walking towards your car. She tries to grab your hand, but you silently pull yours away. When she looks at you questioningly you get saved by your phone ringing from having to answer to why you pulled away.

"Hey Lils. What's up." You say down the line to Lisa. You knew she would be calling to double check the schedule you two had for the camping tomorrow.

"Hey y/n. Did you buy all the food? And the alcohol? And the toilet paper?" She asks, speaking fast.

"Yeah got everything. You getting the dishes right. the cute plastic ones? They won't break so you should get them." You reply.

Rosé was listening to you talk to Lisa. She wondered what you guys were planning. She was  kind of jealous how close Lisa was to you. She wanted to be that close to you too. You three were similar in age with her being the oldest and you being the maknae.

She listened to you say about all the things you got while eating her ice cream in tiny bites.

"Yeah sure. 7am sounds good to me", you say and hang up.

"What are you guys doing at 7 in the morning?" Rose asks with curiosity eating away at her. "Is that why you had to go grocery shopping?" She asks as she points to you bag of goodies.

"Uh. Yeah. Remember that camping trip Lisa and I were talking about? Well it's tomorrow for 2 nights and a day. We come back Sunday afternoon." You open the back of the car and drop your things.

"What camping trip?" Rose asks, surprised as this was the first time she was hearing of it.

"The one I told you girls about. I wrote about it on the group chat and everyone said that they were busy. That one remember?" You start the car and roll into the road.

"I don't remember. I would've remembered. I must have missed it." She say pulling out her phone and scrolling through the messages in the group chat.

"It doesn't even matter much. It's just a small trip where we are just gonna get a hell lot of drunk, eat a lot and just act silly. A relief from all the burden at work." You look at her to see a frown on her forehead as she still scrolls through the group messages, still looking for your text.

"You can't even come because you have to meet V tomorrow anyways." You barely hide the sadness in you voice.

She lifts her head from her phone and frown like she is thinking of something and gives a small 'Yes'.

She looks at you curiously. "Where are you guys going anyways?" She finnishes her ice cream and puts the wrapper in you mini trash holder.

"We are going to  Noeul. I heard its nice this time of the year.  A lot of scenery and a bucket loads of privacy" You say nodding to youself.

"Privacy? Why do you guys need privacy?" Rose surprises herself by asking that question. An emotion she doesn't quiet understand rising in her.

"Its not for me. Its for Lisa. Did you forget that you guys are superstars, sought out by every producer and artist all over the world. Its a must for her to actually relax. And it will be good for me too. I don't wanna hear all the fans screaming while trying to make a hotdog or eat ramyeon with Lisa." You say as you enter her street.

"Hmm. So you guys are going at 7am?" She asks, looking at you.

"No. Actually I am first going to Lisa's house to get the dishes and collect the coolers. Then we will together go at about 8am after eating a little something." You pull up to her apartment complex and wait for her to get out. You usually get out of the car and open the door for her, but you know that you need to stop doing those things to move on from her. To stop getting anymore attached. You need to save your heart.

This doesn't go unnoticed by Rosé as she waits in the car. When you don't move, she reluctantly pulls the door handle to open her door.

"Goodnight Rosé." You say finally looking at her.

"Goodnight y/n", she says frowning. You have never called her Rosé since your first month. It has always been Rosie. She wanted you to call her Rosie. She liked you calling her Rosie. She shut the car door and waved at you as you drove away without even waving back.

You always used to wait till she reached inside her apartment and waved through the window. And what about you not opening her door today? She knew that it was not your job to do so and she tells you to stop always. But you actually not doing it made her a little hurt.

She sighs, not understanding the rioting thoughts through her mind and moves inside her apartment.

What upset her most today was the fact that she didn't notice the message about camping in the group chat. She wanted to go too.

She somehow didn't like the idea to you and Lisa in a camping site filled with privacy. She loved hanging out with the both of you.

She washed up and got in bed for the night. She couldn't stop thinking about the camping trip.

Taking out her phone she texted V.

Rose: Hey I don't think we can meet tomorrow. Something came up so I gotta skip tomorrow.

V: Its okay baby. I understand. I also have something that came up. Meet you soon?

Rose: Yeah.

V: Love you. Goodnight.

Rosé looked at the last message, sighed and went to sleep after setting an alarm for 5:30am in the morning, with the thought of calling Lisa first thing in the morning.