Chapter 10: "care to explain"

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Fortunately I didn't have any dreams. 'A dreamless sleep was amazing sleep' is my motto. But it can't be long before I have one. I say I have one either tonight or tomorrow night.

At first my mom didn't want to smoke or do drugs around me. I don't know why but I guess it's because she was ashamed. So because of that I used to stay up all night so she couldn't do it. Eventually she started to not care and did it in front of me.

I used to think 'does she have no shame? Doing horrific things in front of barely a kid?' but now I don't care. She could've tried harder but didn't. Why should I waste my thoughts on a woman who certainly didn't waste hers on mine.

When I had finished getting ready and made sure my bruises were covered I headed downstairs.

As I got there I was surprised to see that the food was already made. I'm sure the boys could see the shock on my face because Jesse said "Awesome isn't it?"

"Huh"

"Never seen such good looking food in your whole life, have you?" He said with a hint of a smirk.

I don't know if I should've been offended but my food was pretty good I would say.

I took a seat at the island and waited for my food.

These people confuse me to the max. Wasn't I supposed to do all this? I mean that's what I'm her for, aren't I? I rid my face of any confusion when the food was placed in front of me, but that doesn't mean it never left my mind. Two fried eggs, three pieces of bacon, and a stack of small pancakes. This was way to much for me to eat.

I stared at Zack. "Thank you for the food but this is too much for me" I told him.

"What are you talking about? This is barely any" he retorted back.

I just stared at him in disbelief. Did he really think that this was nothing? He seemed confused my face which was covered with disbelief and confusion.

I lightly shook my head and turned to eat, not wanting to seem ungrateful, but to my surprise one of my eggs was gone! I glanced up and saw Jesse happily munching on my egg. My only response was a smile.

As I suspected I didn't eat half of it. It was too much and I had told him that, but would he listen to me? Noooo! Of course he wouldn't. No one ever had and no one ever will.

"Chica why aren't you eating?" Zack questioned.

"I'm sorry but I told you it was too much", he was about to question why when my brain came up with, you guessed it, another lie! "I'm not used to eating this much. Mom and Carl never had much money so sometimes we didn't have enough food" again it was the half truth. We didn't have much money since it was wasted on drugs and drinks, but that was not the reason I didn't eat.

"Oh my! I am so sorry you had to go through that. If only you were with us. I", The twins glared at him, "we will never, ever let that happen again. Promise" Zack said with more concern than anyone in my entire life had shown me.

I gave him a small smile. "It's okay, is isn't your fault" I reassured him.

But of course nothing can go right in Lidia Cams life because James just had to say "Is that why you were not eating all of your food last night?"

Ha! He was trying to trick me by saying that I was lying. Well too bad for him because no one, and I mean no one, can out trick or out lie me. "No it was the truth. You all have a black hole for a stomach" I said with a small chuckle.

Thinking that I was telling the truth he nodded. When times like these happen, I am glad I can lie so well. Am I happy that I can lie so well? No, I'm not. But am I glad? Yes because it comes in handy, but that is the only reason. If it were up to me, I would never lie again. But alas, life is not that easy.

After breakfast Zack had told me that tomorrow we were going school shopping. It did not sit well with me since I absolutely despise shopping. Zack couldn't see through my façade though.

With nothing else to do I grabbed my book, Words On Fire, and went to the crafts place. Earlier that morning I finished Strays like us.

I was still in the beginning when Luke,

the last person who I thought would ever approach me, did. He sat like a business man, never leaving his face fall for a second, spoke.

"I have a question for you Lidia, I would like to ask that you answer with honesty"

I mentally snorted. Honesty is not in my vocabulary. I'm not dumb. With Luke approaching me I knew that there was at least two more outside the door, listening.

"I always reply with honesty, well to you and the rest of my brothers right?" I said to him.

He nodded. This is so not fair, why does he get to nod and not me?! "Okay then. Yesterday when you saw Spencer sitting at the kitchen island you, and correct me if I'm wrong, started to breathe harder? Why is that?"

I have to keep up my lie at any cost. Normally if a person looks away when they are telling a lie the other person will know. Although my eldest brother was hard to look at normally I acted as if I wasn't about to tell a lie.

"Oh that. Well, uh, how do I say this. Well at my old school I" I changed my face appearance to look disappointed in myself, "I was bullied, a lot. And seeing that man, Spencer, looked like one of my bullies I guess my instinct took over and got me out of there. Now don't get me wrong Spencer is an awesome guy and I'm totally fine now, it just confused me" Jeez. My lie was so good even I believed it!

Luke nodded, again not fair, his face leaking only the tiniest bit of emotion before looking calm again.

"Very well. That is all my questions. Thank you for your honesty and cooperation. Goodbye." Like bid his farewell and left out into the hallway.

I internally sighed with relief.

I have noticed a pattern when I lie to my brothers. I always give the half truth. Never the full one yet never a full lie. I guess it's because you can't really lie to family. Either way it was helping me more then a full lie would.

I continued to read until dinner. I swear to the Holy God I hate dinner.

Well there's that! Was it what you thought? I told you it was going to be different. I stayed up extra late to write this one and almost got in trouble so know you know how much I appreciated you guys reading! For the end of the book I want to give out recognition to the people who were the first to read my book so please on this paragraph or any of this chapter write or comment your name down so I can write it down. As always I hope you like it and don't forget to vote, comment and obviously like :)