CH 20

Mitoma-san, who is in a cheerful mood, dragged me to the local supermarket. Recently, we often come here together, so the aunt who was working as a staff there always greeted us with a smile and it somehow made me very uncomfortable.

“You two seem so close~”

When Mitoma-san heard those words she replied happily, “Yes! I really love my senpai!”

“Hoho… you are a couple, right?”

“No, it’s not like that at all!”

“Stop being such a tsundere senpai.”

Why is acting like she is really my girlfriend!

Contrary to that internal teasing, my cheeks turned bright red due to embarrassment.

“As I thought. You have a cute girlfriend, so take good care of her~”

“Yeah, he really spoils me too much, isn’t that right, senpai?”

As she linked our arms and pressed her big and soft b***s against my arm, the saleswoman laughed even more. There is no longer any way to escape for me.

“…Well, then, we’ll go shopping now, see you again!”

“See you later~… And do your best to make her happy, Senpai-kun.”

She waved her hand as Mitoma-san yet again dragged me with her.

A strange misunderstanding just happened and I couldn’t do anything against it,

“Senpai, what would you like to eat today?”

“Today… wait, did you think I had forgotten about what happened earlier? Are you fine with that misunderstanding?”

“What are you talking about~?”

When I tried to stop her by grabbing her shoulder, she leaned towards me instead.

“What?”

“Why don’t you touch me, senpai?”

“Uh, well … th-that’s wrong…”

“What’s wrong in it, senpai? You were going to touch me just now, weren’t you?”

“Ugh… well, that’s true, but…”

“So what is your answer then?”

“Err… well. I was just caught up in the moment. Let me go! I’m sorry…”

“It’s good that you’re honest. And you’re cute.when you are that way.”

“Wh-what? How do I look cute to you?”

“Hai hai. Anyway, tell me what you want to eat!”

“Um… well, maybe katsu-don?”

“Katsu-don? That’s an interesting choice. Well, since it’s just the two of us, let’s eat a lot, okay?”

“Un.”

In the end, I obediently followed Mitoma-san as I had no words to counter attack her teasing as every time I tried to say something to make her embarrassed, she would properly dodge it and tease me instead.

On the way back home, I would usually talk to Mitoma-san, but today I felt unwell and was still being dragged along by her.

After walking a few tens of meters, she spoke up while breaking the awkwards silence between us.

“Um, senpai?”

“Yeah, what?”

“Did something happen yesterday or today? Your mood seems a bit low.”

“Well… Argh!”

I couldn’t help but let out a weird voice as because of her words I was reminded of yesterday’s events which resurfaced in my mind in a flash.

Sweat started dripping down my forehead, and I was obviously shaken.

“Are you okay? Your face looks… pale.”

“Uh, yeah… I’m fine.”

I did say I was okay, but the reality was completely opposite.

It was a traumatic memory from the past. And I didn’t want to remember it too much.

“—Are you hiding something from me?”

“No, I’m not.”

“I’m worried. If you’re in trouble, please tell me about it, I will try my best to make you feel comfortable.”

“Uh, yeah… okay.”

Seeing Mitoma-san trying her best to cheer me up as she was honestly worried about me. I was once again reminded that I was worrying those who were close to me again.

But maybe I can tell her about my past as she has proved that she is someone really close to me, despite us meeting only a few weeks ago.

“—If you want, you can tell me about it at home, okay?”

“Yeah, sure.”

When we got home, it was still before 7 PM. Miyuki was still not home and she wouldn’t be back until 9 PM, so we could take it easy and prepare dinner as we had enough time in our hands.

Today, Mitoma-san was quick and efficient, like a chef. I helped her prepare side dishes as I fried the cutlets, made an egg sandwich, and waited for the rice to cook.

When we were done preparing dinner, that’s when we decided to talk.

“Senpai, if it’s hard for you, please don’t hesitate to rely on me…”

“Okay.”

We sat on the sofa together, and she snuggled up next to me. Today, they were close to me again, but I didn’t care anymore.

“I used to have a girlfriend.”

“A girlfriend…?”

When she heard that I had a girlfriend, her eyes lost color and became dark.

But I ignored her reaction and continued.

“So…I have known her for about 10 years.

Well, you could say we were childhood friends, but we actually started talking when we were in the first year of high school.

Of course, I knew what kind of personality and appearance she had since we went to the same elementary school, but I had never actually talked to her. At first, I was only interested in her one-sidedly until we started talking.

Her face was pretty cute and her figure was neither too fat nor too thin, just right. It was perfect for me, who liked quiet girls.

Eventually, we didn’t start dating just because we were a little close. That’s when it happened, we were selected in the same High school, at that moment it felt like fate was on my side..

I naturally confessed to her and it was during a firework festival at the Toyohira River that we both went to see. It was romantic and even now, looking back, I think it was great.

She accepted my confession and we started dating the next day. She showed me various sides of herself that were different from what I had seen before, and she opened up her heart to me even more. We often went to a game center together after school and played at each other’s houses on holidays.

We went on picnics to the park and even rode our bikes to the beach.

It was a lot of fun and an enjoyable experience.

Of course, as boyfriend and girlfriend, we also kissed. We first kissed about a month after dating. Of course, we also had s-x later on.

We had a lot of experiences like that, went to school festivals and cultural camps, went on a date during a school trip, and before we knew it, we were already seniors in High school.

That was when that incident happened.

There was a difference in where I and she were going to study. I was going to the local National University and she was going to an art university outside of town. Although she was able to study easily, she was good at drawing illustrations and paintings and wanted to specialize in that, so that’s why she chose to go there.

Of course, we didn’t want to break up. It was exam time and we agreed to keep our distance so that we wouldn’t interfere with each other. We also decided that after we got into our respective universities we would hold each other and release all of the pent up desires.

But she wasn’t like that.

While I was studying every day, it seems she had an affair with a male friend who also wanted to pursue his career in art.

Of course, I was angry when I first heard it. Even though we kept our distance to do our best, she didn’t do it.

But when I saw her desperately apologizing, I forgave her. I thought she wouldn’t do it again because she was serious.

Because I trusted her I thought that she wouldn’t do it again.

But that was a mistake, she repeated the same thing yet again.

After that, I started to think that it’s okay for me to be with someone else too.

Because she did it too, so it was right for me to do the same thing, right?

Now that I think of those days, I was really a fool. Maybe it was difficult for the young me in various ways to accept that situation. I had become a human who could only think about letting her deserve what she started.

And then, conveniently, I started talking to another girl.

Well, of course, I wasn’t dating her, but my heart was shaken down to the core…

It was kinda fun to do that.

However, she was the same so I didn’t have any regrets.

Even though she was in a position where she couldn’t deny the accusations I pointed out to her, as it was the truth, I got really angry that day.

Probably, I shouted angry words that I shouldn’t have said while being influenced by anger. That’s how much my heart was hurt.

But my voice didn’t reach her and in front of me was just a girl who had become a w***e, who was starving for lust.

But I was no different, as I did the same thing as she did instead of confronting her and ending our relationship back then.

To me, who was observing that scene objectively.

‘I don’t want to continue this relationship with you anymore.’

That’s what she said.

Those words were vivid and seemed like a personification of self-inflicted consequences.

No matter how many times I calmly thought about it, that experience was engraved in my heart with a sharp knife.

At that time I had also started to develop a sense of discomfort towards women, so I joined a circle to overcome it.

And surprisingly it worked, as I no longer felt uncomfortable being around women.

But fate sure is a b****h as yesterday I met her again.

The trauma was triggered and the scary feeling of will the same thing happen yet again if I open my heart to Mitoma-san? Only to end up getting betrayed again?

It’s not that I hate you or anything like that. You are a very lively and caring person, and although there are scary parts of you, I really think you are a cute kouhai.

But it’s not that easy to overcome that trauma.”

After I finished telling her about my story, Mitoma-san hugged me and it felt really warm.

“Senpai… it’s okay…”

“Yeah…”

It’s not like Mitoma-san and I are dating or anything like that, but she still cares about me so much to the point that there is no coming back and I think I don’t deserve someone like her

“I like you and I want to be with you, senpai… So, don’t worry about it.”

“Thank you.”

“Yes, eventually, the end is inevitable. So, don’t worry and focus on what’s to come.”

With a soft expression and a shy smile, Mitoma-san faced me and smiled. That was the gentlest smile I saw on her face and it was enchanting. I got lost staring at my bewitchingly beautiful kouhai’s face.

But the rice cooker rang which woke me out from my stupor as I hurriedly averted my gaze from her.

“Ah…”

“…Want to eat?”

“Yeah. Let’s eat and get some energy.”

[PoV] Suzune Mitoma :

That girl? She is a b***h.

She’s the worst, isn’t she?

Really, next time if I see her, I’ll beat her… and drag her to the bottom of h**l.

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TL : Zenon#4120