27. Thrash

Chapter soundtrack:

Sia - Chandelier

N

ova

Staying out of the way was supposed to be a lot easier than what its been for the past two days.

Wolves coming to my house.. congratulating me.. declaring their allegiance to me. It all felt so... awkward.

I sat on my bed, the sunset outside being the only light I had, a map of all the terrirories of the united states laid out before me, pen i my mouth as i X'd out the places i knew were pretty wild. The places that I knew where savage Alpha's ruled the land.

I won't lie. We have it easy here. Our Alpha is laid back.. we pretty much do as we please.. but there are some places like Dark Moon where you begin rigorous training to be a soldier at five. Even the betas and alphas children. Thats somewhere i would not want to be found. They have omegas.... we do not.

I placed a large X over Dark Moon which left me with twenty peaceful territoties I could venture to. Start a new life. One of them being Deacon's Uncles Pack that he had talked about going to once upon a time. As soon as this entire mess was cleared up, i was getting out of here. Half a bond be damned. It would go away once Zaryn's skin side marked Grace. And it would bring agony to my soul but i needed to feel that. To know it was real.

A "tick" sound brought be out of my thoughts as I scrunched my nose up, glancing at the window. It happened again only this time i was able to see a small pebble hit the glass. I left my place on my bed and ran over to the window, pushing it open to see Deacon standing there smiling up at me.

"Hey Nov."

Frowning, i sighed inwardly. "Hey D. Whats up."

His foot shuffled the dirt slightly, hands behind his back. Submissive. "Can you come down? I wanna take you somewhere." His eyes pled up at me.

I was about to tell him I was busy but something about him.. about what Eden had said.. I had never really believed her because I know him. It drove my curiosity.

"Okay. Be right down." I smiled

I threw on a pair of jean shorts and an orange halter top with sandals before racing downstairs, forgetting the map on my bed. I met Deacon around the back of my house, nearest to the treeline. He had this boyish smirk about him.

"Hey" i couldn't help the smile and the relief i get when i see him like that. Like my old friend.

"Hey" his voice was deep now since the change. Gliding forward, he embraced me and held me tight.. his nose going into my hair as he took in a deep breath. I think I almost felt him shift below but brushed it off.

Something was pressing in my mind that there was something familiar about that..

"So.." clearing my throat, i stepped away slightly. "Where are we going?"

A slow grin formed on his lips, flashing teeth that was meant as no threat. "Come. Follow me. We wont go past any wolves.. we will take the back way." I let him grab my hand, holding it firmly in his as he led me across the street from my house, into the forrest.

Nightfall began to creep up slowly, forcing the sun to take shelter on the other side of the world as he guided me through thick brush and forgotten trails. Somehow... some way.. we ended up near the dead end of the dirt road where the alpha lived... along with Grace's cabin closest to the dead end of forrest. We had walked across the entire front forrest of the pack land just to come to this one spot that would have taken us fifteen minutes at best to get here taking the main route.

"Why are we here beside Grace's home!?" I seethed angrily beside him, thinking he wanted me to watch her.

"Just watch." He brought me in closer to him, arm around my shoulder as I watched for what he was asking me to.

Thats when I caught it.

A faint scent of Nic becoming stronger and stronger. With curiosity.. i peered behind the path into the back yard of her cabin to see a wolf.. my brother's wolf.. sniff around her home. Whining a bit.

"What?" It was barely a whisper as Deacon led me away from the cabin, back the way we camw through the woods as i kept trying to turn and go back. She wasn't there... why was he there?

"He comes at night. Just sits and watches. I've seen him here every night when I pass through.. observing." His quiet words had driven the wolf side of myself to feel betrayed. He protected her from me. Im his sister. "And watching them exchange words..."

That made me snap. My eyes locked onto his.. my lips pursed and eyes widened. I understand that mate pull but shes a disgrace to him. To anyone who would have her.

I would definitely be talking to him about this soon... and we would fight. I couldn't help but to feel hurt.. how could he go behind my back like that? I hated her! But shes his mate....

And i did the same....

But it doesnt make it right. He and Zaryn are on okay terms... she and i, not so much. After the stunt she pulled earlier he should have protected me... him and Z both should have but they fought for her.

"Where are we going now?" I whispered as he took my hand, leading me with him throigh the forrest, many sapplings springing up from the ground, visible under the moonlight.

There was something in his eyes as he looked at me. He stopped suddenly, taking me into his arms despite my protest. "Shhh Nova. Listen to me." He gazed down at me, eyes drifting along my face. I calmed momentarily for him to say what he needed to say, my jaw clenched in irritation at his needy behavior.

"Nova... i dont know how you cant see it... but i love you. As more than just a friend." He whispered into my ear causing my eyes to widen is disbelief. "The other night we spent together at the hot springs was so magical, even though you dont remember it. You were almost mine.." he pressed his lips to my forehead, hands not wanting to let go of my back.

"What!?!?" I jerked away from him, his eyes squinting at me in anger. "What are you talking about?" I yelled out, knowing we were further into the woods, no one would come... my anger and agression mixed in with shock as i stared up at him.

One single step toward me had my wolf on edge... i allowed the half shift.. claws coming out just in case.. her eyes looking on at him. I was beginning to understand her better.. her need to see what I could see.. to present our power.

"We almost made love Nova. Well, before you began to pass out and tell me you had taken a nerve pill so i stopped. Your lips were so sweet and you felt like heaven against my fingers while they caressed you from inside.." his eyes shifted dark blue.. a glow behind them.

My eyes widened at him in disgust. "You didnt...." growls erupting from my chest did nothing to deter him from moving in on me.

"We did..." he smiled, slowly the corners of his mouth pulled up as he watched me with a feral intent.

"You disgust me." The words were seethed out of my mouth as a swipe of my claws to his arm was caught by his own clawed hand, rotating me and pressing my back into his front as anger propelled my mind.

"Nova calm down." He whispered threateningly into my ear, his hot breath coming down on my skin had me wanting to crawl out of it.. let the wolf take over. This was not him. It wasnt right. "I just told you i love you. I always have. I always will. Its been hard to hide it... but let Zaryn have Grace. Don't fight that. Let me mark you because im going to challenge my brother when the time comes. If you choose him, you'll be mateless when i eat his heart out. And whatever offspring he has will be dead soon after." His tongue slid over my skin as i grasped to understand what the hell was happening.

Anger pulsed. Like hot dripping lava. Deacon wasnt my D anymore.

I sunk into him a little, letting his hold on me relax.. bending my neck slightly. He leaned down, pressing disgusting kisses on my skin, hands loosening their hold on me.

Thats when i took my chance. Turning swiftly, i let the wolf come out of me, snapping at him as my claws rained down upon his flesh, tearing into the soft tissue of his arms as my teeth clamped into his shoulder. He let out a howl of pain, thrashing his body around. The blood that pooled in my mouth tasted bitter.. floul. Nothing like it should have.

Taking my chance, i shifted, letting the wolf kick the skin side to the back as she leaped through the air, running as fast as she could, hind legs throwing her body forward and catchinf each step onto her front paws.. digging into the earth, propelling her forward as the night air swept through her fur with an urgency.

The wolf could smell Zaryn's scent once we passed the pack house. It was faint but she needed his wolf. She needed him and she wasn't going to allow me to stop her.

She ran.. like the wind past my home and up the dirt road where his scent was stronger.

Doc's....

He was there...

As soon as my wolf rounded the corner, she slowed, sniffing around the building before she found the area his scent was most saturated.. the whine that wanted to come out, was shoved back inside once she hopped, putting her face into the window to peel through.

Through her eyes, i watched as Grace lay in a hospital bed, arm lying in a sling, broken and awkward. Her being preganant didnt stop her from healing fast.. she would heal as normal.. but having a broken bone took a little more than a day.

Next to her was Zaryn..

It broke my heart a little .. watching him rub her stomach soothingly, his eyea drawn up in sadness. My wolf felt sadness and anger.. a mix of the two. She wanted to leap through those windows and tear Grace to unrecognizable pieces.

We watched as the door creaked open, the healer.. the witchy looking woman whom Grace called Aunt walked in.. smiling at the scene before her. To have such dark evil eyes.. she was a beauty to look at. That dark raven hair.. she was a sight but something foul poured from her. How was it that no one noticed?

She spoke a few words to them and Zaryn nodded, getting up as he leaned to kiss Grace's stomach, making me sick to mine. I couldnt wait for this bond to break.. he was a liar.

But at the same time, my wolf whined for him inside.. calling for him.. telling his wolf she needed him. That's when his eyes turned a deep black, darting directly to the window before he exited the room with haste.

My wolf crept around the back, away from the room, collapsing onto the ground as so many emotions roller coasted through her. That was the moment Zaryn came..

His boots were the first thing to see before my wolf gazed up at him, his hands in fists and jaw tense.

"Nova what are you doing here!?" He whispered. "You have caused enough damage to everyone already... you could have killed the pup and my wolf wouldn't have forgiven that so easily. You forget you are the one who wanted me to do this. To do the right thing. What do you want now?" He crouched, touching my wolf's head softly as she whined up at him, nuzzling his hand.

"Shift." It was a command from her mate.

Without thinking, she obeyed, throwing me forward as she sank inside my brain, shifting back to my fully human self, naked as i stared up to him with eyes of hatred.

He offered me a hand, his face set in a grim line but i knocked it away, standing to my full height on my own. He narrowed his eyes on me, sniffing the air as his nose came in contact with his brothers scent on me.

"Your brother has gone insane Zaryn." I whispered to him as he grabbed my arm roughly and led me deeper behind the building into the woods so we wouldnt be seen. Jerking me with agression, he tried his best to not look at my nakedness but failed miserably. I didnt like the surge that sparked between us anymore. I loathed it.

He turned to face me once we stepped into a secluded spot, eyes serious now as he studied my features. "What do you mean? Why is his scent all over you " that voice held menace...

I ran a hand through my hair, exasperated. "Well according to him, the other night he tried to fuck me when i was wasted.. i dont remember anything."

Low growls came from him as his teeth elongated, claws extending.. pulsating jealousy thick on my tongue. I rolled my eyes. "He said he loved me and that i needed to let you mark Grace so he could mark me because he is going to challenge you for the alpha title when hea stronger, kill you, and whatever pup you may have. He forced himself on me.. theres something not right with him. And by the way? My brother has been sniffing around Grace's house since he got here. Theres something strange happening." My eyes were set hard on him , my arms folded over my chest as i watched him take all of this in.

Pitch black eyes met mine.. anger and fury spiralling through him, tendrils of rage slithering out of his pores. "He wont live Nova. Im going to kill him when i see him." His beast was vocal now..

I shook my head as i let out a huff. "No! You need to tell your dad. Something is wrong with him he's not himself!"

"Because he fucking loves you Nova!!!! Can you not see it? Are you too fucking blind?!?" He screamed in my face, my wolf inside wanting me to show my neck in submission but i dont bow as easily to our mate as she.

Closing my eyes, I took a deep breath. Even though I made up my mind to forget him.. to move on... this bond hurt inside me.. it bended and twisted with his angry attitude.. punishing me as i clutched my stomach in pain. I wanted to cry out in that moment.. to tell him i loved him.. to tell him i needed him.. that he couldn't pick her...

But all that, i pushed back down where it came from as my eyes met his. "Whatever Zaryn... just fix it." I turned on my heels, walking away as i felt his gaze linger over my ass as i walked.. shivering my spine, bliss running through me at full course.

"Nova wait." He called lowly.

I trekked onward towards my house, ignoring him.. He's with Grace now. Right where he wanted to be. How dare him say i wanted him to choose her.. i would never. I only said i wouldn't wait.. i couldn't.. not when there was a pup in her belly.

He was the one who left me that letter.

I managed to make it back to my house without anyone seeing my naked self walk out of the forrest and in my front door. Everyone was asleep right now. It was already midnight. How much time had past since I agreed to meet Deacon downstairs??

Ignoring the clock on the wall, i made it up to my room silently. Pulling a long tshirt on, I sat on my bed... waiting.

Waiting for Nic to come home because we had some serious talking to do..

Whoo!!!

Not my best chapter but im siiiick so dont worry... answers and emtions will soon follow. Its about time we all found out what the fuck is happening in the pack!