44. Broken

Chapter Soundtrack:

Paramore - We Are Broken

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Nova

The clouds were billowing through the sky, a heavy grey shield of puffy clouds blocking the sun from shining. An overcast day.. no rainclouds.. everything was just grey.

A cool breeze blowing through the tree tops that were thinning out as their leaves lost their green, sending bursts of red, orange and yellow leaves to the ground as they dotted the road with their bright colors.

It was no longer scorching hot outside... first day of fall and the temp had dropped immensely, making it comfortable for long sleeves and pants. No jackets just yet.. I could almost smell the pumpkins and bonfire smoke that would soon come.

Wearing a black flannel button up and my favorite skinnies, i pounded down the dirt road as my knee length black boots crunched the dead fallen leaves underneath. My hair was piled high on my head, showing off the mark on my neck that was still red and irritated yet no longer swollen.. setting into my skin comfortably... wanting Grace to see it.. if chances were i saw her.. i wanted her to know. I wanted to remind Zaryn of what he did.

My arms were crossed, a heavy scowl on my face as I rounded the corner, coming face to face with Doc's clinic where I could see Alpha Blake pacing outside.. waiting. For an older wolf, to be thirtyeight, he was an attractive male.. if i didn't want to hurt him so badly and didnt see him as an uncle, i would probably fall over myself whenever I saw those blue eyes similar to Zaryn's.

But that wasnt the case.

My boots made havy sounds as i stomped up the sidewalk only to be haulted by Blake sidling up in front of the door, his chest puffed and a frown on his face.

"Nova, if you've come to start trouble then-" he grumbled.

"Send your son our here this instant!" I shouted, angry at everyone right now..who does he think I am?

He growled low. "Watch how you speak to me. Im still your Alpha and your mate is -"

I shook my head, cutting him off. "I meant Nic. I dont want to even see Zaryn! Ever again! You can tell him that! Matter of fact ill tell him myself!" I growled. The wolf inside me gave a whimper as i passed the words through the mate bond along with a series of curses.

Sighing irritably, Blake walked through the door as i leaned against the support beam, hard lines set all over my face as Nic stepped out into the cloudy light.. fallen leaves rustling around the porch as a breeze picked up.

His expression was forlorn.. sad. His mossy green eyes held no light in them as they found mine. He trudged over to me limply.. no confidence in his steps.. "hey Nova.. " he gave me a weak smile... eyes lingering on my mark with narrowed eyes.

I glowered at him. "Dont hey nova me." I was being bratty but i was tired of being walked all over. Used. The mate bond and being ignored for days after an intimate moment with my mate was hitting me hard.

"Nic what the hell were thinking.. using my best friend like that? You took our your sadness on Eden! Then here you are with Grace.. helping her through something .. after everything she did! You were the one who said you wanted to make her atone for her sins! For doing what she did! And no one is studying the fact she poisoned Deacon into doing those things to me!" My tone was angry and loud.. i didnt care who heard and i knew they all were witnessing our little show.

Nic scowled. "Eden was a mistake. I shouldn't have done that.. but its not like she has a mate anyway." Furyflew through me as he continued. "And yes. I said those things about Grace.. but with the new events of me being first born.. having a chance? I cant deny that i feel for her.. even if she is pregnant with my half brothers pup. Im a weak wolf. What can i say? And Zaryn told us all what Anita told you about Grace. Her story. She was coerced into doing those things! She's been with Anita and Conrad all her life! The two most tainted wolves in the world Nova! Conrad... raising her all this time only to abandon her? My wolf is going crazy inside!" His hands fisted in his hair, tugging harshly as agression poured from his skin. I had to take a step back from the power that surged from him. "You wanna know why im bigger now? Why my wolf s becoming more dominant? Because i grew up thinking i was no alpha.. but the moment i found Grace.. my wolf wanted to show his mate that he can provide.. now that i know the truth.. i can feel the power! But i feel powerless knowing that because shes pregnant with that wolf's pup in there," he jabbed his thumb angrily toward the clinic, "that his wolf is so paternal over his pup.. that now he's seen the sonogram picture that the skin side is paternal as well now.. it makes me sick to think that i may have to watch my mate bear his pup! And the sickest part is that I still want her!" His tone had died down into one of agony, a hand gripping his shirt over his heart with a mask of pain.

I stood stock still. Taking all of this in. "Nic." My tone was soft yet filled with so much hurt. "You know what she did to me yet you still want her? I understand the mate pull.. i do.. but listen to yourself! Shes holding his hand right now. Not yours!" I spat angrily.

Those green mossy eyes turned a darker shade as he glared. "And i want to rip his throat out for it. He doent want to be with Grace. He just cares about the pup. I know that but my wolf is ready to challenge his in an instant. Im an Alpha blood Nova! Alpha's are known to have a higher possesion over their mates than most wolves! And the fact im being commanded to stay out of the room because "this doesnt involve me" according to Blake.. my Alpha.. im madder than hell! Once this is over, the wolf will make everyone pay."

He was right. Alpha blooded males wanted more.. they were possesive.. over land.. mates.. family.. their pack.. it was uncontrollable. It went for all Alpha bloods but for some reason, Zaryns skin and wolf was possesive over his pup by another... . And not just me.

"Nic! I get it i do.. but .. goddess i dont even know what to say to you right now!" I threw my hands up.

I knew the story Anita told me was true.. i knew Grace was doing what she was told to do out of fear.. but she could have came clean to us all.. saved herself. But the greed Anita had in her surpassed everything. She wanted grace to be a Luna. Grace did nothing to ask for help.

Nic growled low. "Your one to talk. You let your mate bond with Zaryn be sealed.. he marked you.. yet he's in there with my mate." His words were hot and angry as his wolf peered out to see me.

Taking a step back as i gaped up at him, sadness encompassed my body.. i felt the overwhelming urge to cry but i wouldn't do it. Not here. Not now. "I know that. Which is why i will no longer have anything to do with him. You don't have a mark yet. Do whats best for you and find someone else." I glared, hurt across my features for him to see.

Turning away from him to walk away, he grabbed my hand, pulling me back to face him as i rolled my eyes.

"Nova. Im.. im sorry. I shouldn't have said that." His head dropped to face the ground with sadness before peering up at me, hopeful. "you still see me as your brother right ?" He looked like a pup, waiting to be rewarded.

My shattered heart just kept on breaking even when i thought it couldn't break anymore.

Closing my eyes, i nodded. "Of course Nic. Your blood changes nothing.. we share a mom and a dad in my eyes. im sorry too. I know this is hard for you. I know your wolf wants to be with her.. despite everything..." i admitted as my eyes met his. "Im just hurting that the wolves i care about are shunning me to go to her. I hate her nic. I do. Even though i know she could have been brain washed.. i hate her for all the shīt she has brought to my front door. Its changed me and not for the better." An unwanted tear leaked down my face to my dismay. "I just want you to be happy in the end.. even if that means i have to deal with this seething hatred on my own.. if she wants you ill try to deal with it.. i cant make any promises.. i just hope you know what you're doing. It seems i can forgive anyone who has done wrong.. except the people that hurt my heart. The ones responsible in helping hurt my heart. But if this is what you want.. then i understand." I gazed up into his eyes, unshed tears blurring my vision. "I know what the mate pull is like." My voice whispered, cracking. "And i know how much it hurts... just be careful."

Suddenly i was being crushed into his body, strong arms going around me as his breathed in my hair. "Im sorry." He whispered. "Im sorry i cant stsy away. I know you hate me for it. I know how much pain you've been in.. over Grace. But i just think she needs a second chance. Please. Just talk to her soon. She wants to speak with you when you're ready. Alone. To make amends.. And im sorry about Zaryn. As a male, i can understand his possessiveness and protective instinct over his pup who could possibly be dying.. but as a big brother to you.. i want to rip his throat out. I cant handle these emotions im about to lose my shit Nova." He croaked as his face stayed buried in my hair, holding me to him. Emotion swirled inside me.. i wanted to cry here and now.

How could i give Grace any of my time? She went back and betrayed us all by begging Conrad to take her back! Because she saw an option with Nic!

"What if she has the pup, Nic?" I could feel the bond poking around inside my head. Zaryn was listening..

He stiffened. "I don't know Nova. I guess im hoping it doesnt happen but i cant turn her away if she does.. but she will have a connection with Zaryn then and you and I will be the ones to suffer. Sometimes I think its not worth it.. but my wolf disagrees. He would deal with it."

This surprised me. An Alpha would never... could never deal with another males pup from their mate.

I frowned. "She ran to Conrad, Nic. After finding out your an Alpha.. she ran to him and begged him to take her back. Telling him about you being the firstborn...he even came to us about taking her back Nic! You were there! He wants to get rid of her pup!" I clenched my fists at my side in frustration.

Nic shook his head, "no she didn't. She didn't go to him."

My brow arched.."then who did?"

He moistened his chapped lips, licking them.."Conrad heard from the other Beta talking. Grace was taken to her cabin and put on house arrest while we were having our family feud.. when she disappeared once dad wolfed out. Conrad made that decision on his own, realising he could have an heir for his pack. He has no other children.. Grace refused though."

This made me faulter. She refused?

"Nova.." he pulled away to study my face. "We all know about how you amd Zaryn mated. He told us all everything. About how Anita tricked the both of you..." he seemed saddened. "I know you can't fight the heat or the bond. I don't blame you.. infact im happy you got what's yours in a way even if i want to pulverize the little shit for abandoning you for this whole time.. i have been fighting him consistently these past three days because his wolf wont let him leave his pup .. he claims he's torn between wanting to go to you and having fear that he won't be here if his pup dies but i still want to murder the little shìt." This caused me to laugh lightly.

"The alpha in me wants to rip him limb from limb for being in that room with her but Blake is trying to help me. To help me realize that's his pup. Not mine... i just. Im so angry over everything.. especially with him leaving you that way even if he does feel guilty.

So he really does feel guilty over leaving me alone? Good.

His forced my gaze to his, all seriousnes. "Nova.. you arent... you arent pregnant are you?"

My eyes widened as i pursed my lips. "I .. I dont know yet. I still have time to start bleeding." My face fell as did his. He wrapped my up in his arms tightly.. anger coming from him once more. "If he challenges me for title i can't promise my wolf wont try to kill him. Even if we are brothers." He admitted with his jaw clenched.. eyes far away.

Sudden fear coursed through me.. the bond tingling... my wolf wanting to go into attack mode over the threat but i forced the feeling away. My brother wouldn't do that. Even if he said so.. he wouldn't hurt me.

"Nic." I whispered softly.

"Yeah?"

My face lifting up to gaze up at his tall form. "Despite everything thats happening. All the drama.. You need to make things right with Eden. You know she's loved you forever.. even though she hides it. You kinda broke her heart even though she knew it was a one time thing. Go to her. Please." I pled with my eyes as he sighed reluctantly, a hand ruffling through his hair.

"Alright. Ill talk to her."

"Thanks." Nodding, i turned away from the clinic realizing i came here to berate him and i could never stay mad. The hurt and anguish inside him was too much for me to be angry at.. i also found i couldn't muster up the courage to talk to Zaryn..

No matter what paternal instincts he felt... he hurt me.

Just as I was walking away, i heard the door to the clinic fly open and turned in time to see Zaryn running toward me. Rolling my eyes, i turned away and began to walk faster but he was fast, taking my wrist which sent a burst of bliss through my body as he turned me around to face him, his eyes bright blue and rimmed with red.. worry and concern on his features, his dark hair so disheveled which only seems to make him look even more attractive.. i nearly swooned at the sight of him but the knowlege of him abandoning me...of him knocking me out with sedatives and leaving me alone never to check on me, made my anger return as i stared hard up at his angelic model like face.

"Nova."

My name from his lips has my insides churning..melting into liquid as his hand grazed my cheek. Slapping it away with a glare, i postured my ill will toward him.

"You dont get to talk to me.. you sedated me. Left me for days! Because of her." My green eyes glared up at his saddened blue ones.

His shoulders dropped. "Im sorry " he whispered as he peered down at the ground. "In the cave the morning we were found.. I.. I was rummaging through the medical kit i had shoved in the basket in haste once i found your fake letter telling me to come meet you. I never looked inside.. i just grabbed it from the clinic. I thought you might be hurt. The letter said bring medical supplies.. i figured you didnt want anyone to know where you were.. but while you were passed out from our.. sessions.. i was looking through the bag and saw the vile and syringe. For sedation.. i had already came out of the fog from your heat.. thinking clearly then and realised we hadnt used protection. When you awoke in the morning... you were having another heat wave.. i didnt want to risk anything.. knowing my situation right now wouldnt help. So before i could get sucked into the heat crazed lust.. i put you out." He looked away, ashamed.

I could understand this.. he didnt want to get me pregnant. But leaving me? Anger left my face as i just stared at him.. all the hurt i had been feeling coming to the surface. The unwanted feelings.

"When Eden finally found us, i explained everything. Your mom suggested it was best to keep you sedated seeing as how we had already went too far.. how i .. marked you and.. stuff." His cheeks heated and mine did too, remembering what his powerful body did with mine in that cave.

"Thats when Eden told me what had happened to Grace. That during the night she began having fainting spells and severe cramps in her belly.. every painful episode she had... it was each during the times we were.. together.. and two episodes were the worst. When we marked each other." His hand reached up, thumb gently brushing his mark on my neck, making my legs feel like jello. A gasp left my mouth as i faltered but Zaryn caught me before i could fall, standing me up right.

"Dont touch me!" Snapping at him, i didnt like the pleasant feelings on my skin when his touched mine.

He stepped back, seeming hurt. The bond connecting us seemed to vibrate with the negative energy.. sending an agonzing wave of discomfort through me. The bond didn't like mates fighting.. i could see he felt it as well.

"Nova please!"

"No Zaryn!" He visibly tremored. "You left me. No visits.. no calls. You just.. marked me, fůqked me and left me." My voice quaked as i glared at him.. the moisture in my eyes returning.

"But the pup-"

I shook with anger. This was the last time i wanted to hear this excuse. "Fk the pup Zaryn! I hope it doesnt make it out alive! Its an abomination! This never should have happened but you just can't resist temptation of a heat!" I was angry.. being bratty because of it. No understanding this time. Not for this wolf.

He took a step back, his eyes scrunching up in hurt before a shadow of fury over the words i spoke about his unborn pup.. the innocent life that i hated and hated to admit i hated. It did nothing wrong but i hate him for what he has caused. He's just a pup. Im in the wrong and i know it.. but i just cant help it. My wolf cant help it. The wolf would be a danger and it pains me to say that. I would never want to hurt a pup. Its the ultimate crime and i was scaring myself at how my wolf felt.

He could sense these thoughts in my mind..

An amgry growl rumbled his chest as eyes turned dark. "Dont threaten my pup Nova." His tone was dark.

I felt the anguish from the bond as did he.. his eyes turning back to blue once he felt that instant pain. He would have harmed me over the threat had we not been mates.

Tears fell.. i couldn't stop them.

How can one wolf feel utterly alone. Yeah I have my broken family, patched together with stitches.. yeah i have Eden and the entire pack.. and i had Nic.. but he loved a problem for me.. but Zaryn.

Zaryn is supoosed to be my rock. He's supposed to protect me.. feel when im sad and go to me.. help me. But he keeps betraying me over and over.

"Why Zaryn? Why do you keep doing this to me? My wolf is going insane! Im going insane!" I dropped to my knees.. the shattered pieces of my heart finally exploding.. lodging through my intestines and out of my body completely. My fingers latched into the grass as a sob escaped my body. Wracking me as i cried harder than i ever have.. hyperventilating on my own tears.. my cries becoming louder the more hysterical i became as the place my heart once was felt like it was bursting.. dropping.. nothing there to fill the void.. hurting me from the inside.. tears flowing hot as the panic and anger flood through me.. the betrayel. The hurt. The jealousy.

The feeling of being unwanted by what is supposed to be yours.

Quickly he kneeled, the anger long gone, arms trying to wrap around me but i swatted them away.. pushing him off of me. "Stop!" I screamed so loud it hurt my own ears.. My eyes met his and i felt... like i had snapped. His baby blues became wide when he saw my face.. the bond pressing him to comfort me. He was in pain, seeing me like this. Seeing me hurting...needing to hold me.

A crying sobbing crazed mess on the ground, my hands went to my hair. Pulling as strands came out. "Why do you do this to me? Why! Why do you always choose me last? Why am inalways the one on the back burner? Do you even love me?" I was a snotting sobbing mess.

Zaryn leaned closed, trying to touch me but his hands hovered.. backing away bevause he knew i would snap again. His voice was strained with emotions.. tears mixed in his words.. desperation. "Of course i love you! Theres no doubt in my mind! You are my mate Nova. These marks let everyone know it and i dont regret giving you my mark. I just wish it was under different circumstances." His voice loud.. incredulous yet deep as the tears blurred his blue orbs, he was feeling what i felt.. the pain.

"You dont love me" it was spat as my hysterics calmed.. i sniffled, wiping my nose on my sleeve. "If you did.. youd have been there for me!" A sob wracked from my chest as i cried. No one could see us on this side of the clinic and i was glad because the thin string i was hanging from finally snapped and my emotions were high.

"Nova!" He cried. " i love you with everything! Im sorry i left you alone.. i am! But the thought of losing my pup.. if i wasnt here and something happened.. i - i cant explain it! I just cant! And i dont expect you to understand and i know you are hurt.. but.. i have to be here and im sorry! My wolf needs to be here! Im sorry! Please understand. Please!" He begged on his knees before me as he cried for me.. hands itching to touch me. To comfort me.

He was a weak wolf.

Any other male would not have listened to their female giving them order not to touch them. But i really didn't want his touch. Im glad he was a weak wolf.

Our sobs filled the air.. mine for him and his for me.. and his pup.

"Do you want the pup to be Born? To ruin our mate bond? Because you know i can't deal with that. My wolf wont!" I yelled out as i gripped the grass.

Closing his eyes, he seemed torn.. tears falling to the grass. "I do want my pup. I told you i dont love Grace and i dont. But if you truly loved me.. wouldn't you try to make it work for me?" He questioned, eyes wide.

Scoffing, "how do you think your mom would have felt if she knew about Nic in the beginnin? If she had to deal with my mom and Nic being apart of your lives Zaryn!? She wouldn't have. No female could do that!" Tone matter of fact as i yelled at him.

He dropped his eyes. "I know. I was just hoping that.. maybe youd-"

"What?" I questioned sarcastically. "Take in your bastard pup? Love it? You got me all kinds of twisted Zaryn. This bond was a mistake. Even when that pup dies.. i wont be with you. And the pup will die. Conrad and Anita will make sure of it." My jaw was pressed hard.. grinding my teeth.

His head shot up, nostrils flaring as he breathed heavily. Eyes wild. "I wont let them."

Shaking my head sadly. "What if im pregnant Zaryn? What then? I cant do this!." I rose from the ground slowly..

He followed suit, knees popping as he loomed over me, a fearful look. "Y-you havent started b-bleeding yet?"

Wiping my eyes fiercely i shook my head before my steely cold eyes met his. "And if i am pregnant... i wont give you the time if day. Consider yourself mateless. I won't let you be apart of my life anymore Zaryn. You get no more chances to hurt me. Even when the pup dies.. if it dies.. dont look to me for consoling because i am no longer your mate in my eyes." My tears had ceased and now anger replaced everything i had felt. I wanted to hurt him but the bond would only allow so much.

"Even though this means nothing and we are mated for life.. i just want you to know Zaryn... that i reject you and your mark. Your nothing to me anymore. I hate you!" The bond was twisting... hurting me.. but i didnt care. I welcomed the pain now. I needed the pain.

His face fell, blue eyes staring down at me in shock and horror... agony.. "what?" He fell to his knees as i watched with a blank face and tight jaw. My tears drying slowly. His eyes held mine as his knees hit the ground.. head bowing down.. arms launching around my thighs.. holding me to him.

"No. No Nova. I wont let you do that!" He cried full blown now. "You can't say those things.. i love you! Please understsnd me please!" His words were truth but my mind was made up. I couldn't deal with this. I cant watch him put someone else first. Yeah i got the male.. but at what cost?

I stood still as the warmth and pulsating comfort ran through my body where he touched me.. fingers trying to skim up my jeans to touch the skin of my stomach. His face turned up to mine which held nothing.. while his.. his was full of heartache and pure sorrow.

"Please understand me.. please. I dont want another female. You're it! Im sorry i want my own flesh and blood. Im sorry i love him. I am.. im so sorry Nova if that makes me a bad wolf. Im sorry that I fear his death more so now than before.. before i saw his face in that photo." Full blown crying, tears streamed down his red face, scrunched up in every way with how his heart felt. I felt it too. I could feel his agony. "Please dont make me feel this way. Loving that pup is something i cant explain! And if.. if you're pregnant i would feel the same way about our pup too.. if not more. Please Nova.. im only here for my pup. If he makes it out alive.. Grace wont be apart of that anymore. Shes only the vessel.. please baby please.." he pressed his face into my abdomen.. sticking his nose in my skin.. inhaling.

"I cant." The words were whisered by my hoarse voice as i pulled away from him.. wrenching his arms from around my legs.. watching him fall on his hands as his back curved.. crying out.

I hated feeling his pain.. which reminded me.

"You felt my pain when i awoke. You felt my heart ache and you couldn't even just call. Your priorities are messed up and i may sound like a heartless monster for giving up on you because of a bastard pup... but im hurt. You hurt me. Over and over again. Those words you spoke of in the cave that night... you didnt keep them. I know it all changed once you saw his face but you promised me things.. once more.. that you couldn't deliver." No emotions from me now. My heart was long ago shattered and now the pieces had lodged themselves out my body, into the atmosphere.. leaving a gaping empty hole where it used to be.

Zaryn pulled back to sit on his shins.. staring up at me. "I love you.. and if you are carrying my pup.. you wont get rid of me that easy. You wont be rid of me easy at all period." Conviction in his voice.

Shaking my head sadly, "its too late Zaryn." I turned, leaving him in the grass as i walked away.. leaving him sitting stunned in the grass at the side of the clinic.

As i walked back down the dirt road.. my limbs numb feeling.. i felt sorry for myself. I had to get away.. my wolf was becoming stronger.. more feral.. protective over me. Thoughts of her jaws around the pup scared me.. i had to keep her away. I dont know what i would do if she were to get ahold of that pup. It would kill me...

Unforgiveable.

I was a threat right now.. Zaryn could sense it.

The wolf in me was possesive now that she was mated. She would take out that pup whether born or not.. she would go straight for Grace's belly. I shuddered at her thoughts.

She wanted out.. but i couldn't. I had to force my control over her.

I trudged onward.. the sun sinking along in the sky. Leaves crunched under my boots.. the trees still partialy green but feathered out.. leaves falling everywhere. Deep pinks and orange hues lit the sky where the sun was peeking down into the horizon as i kept on.. Zaryn's pain from the bond coming through hot and heavy. I didnt want to feel it.. sending him a message to put his walls up unless he wanted to bring out my wolf, the emotions immediately stopped.

He wanted to protect his pup but knew the bond wouldn't let him fight me. Make me submit, yes. But cause harm? No.

He could.. but it would hurt him too. Physically.

I sighed in relief as his emotions trailed off.. out of my mind. The empty spot where my heart used to be, a black massive hole now.

The decision i had made.. making up my mind what to do as i stood in that yard with Zaryn ... it hurt me. I broke down at the thought.. but i made a decision none the less. His never ending betrayel to me making that decision easier.

Im selfish. I admit it. Only when it comes to what should be mine. My wolf doesnt know how to share. She will never learn. Some say im just a juveile, how could i know?

Its true. Im a juvenile. Six months away from being considered an adult.. but these past months.. all these emotions.. every single thing ive been through.. its made me stronger.. less naive. And now i know what i have to do.

So many will hate me for it..

But it has to be done.

I can't go on like this.. the thread thats held me together broke not even ten minutes ago and in that moment i felt the pain. And now its a dim version of it.

I was going to do this.

If that pup is born, my wolf will kill it. If she still carries it.. my wolf will try to kill it and her. I couldn't feel sorry for her.. my wolf wouldn't let me. I was a problem now so I needed to remove myself. So much has happened between Zaryn and I that even if the pup died before my wolf could get ahold of it.. i wouldn't want to see him. Going against the mark was hard on its own... the bond pressing us to be together. But all i could see when i looked at him now was betrayel.

My boots hitting the dirt road heavily, i came to my front walkway outside my house. Dad was home now..

Taking a deep breath, i steadied myself as the shock of what had happened was still settling in.. I was about to march up the stairs but a voice stopped me.

"Nova." Its deep barritone.. i knew who it was.

Turning, i remembered this very spot where Deacon assaulted me.. playing in my mind. My eyes set on a tall huge Alpha wolf..

"Conrad. What do you want." I snarled. Hasnt he taken enough?

He seemed determined as he inched closer.. my hand going for the dagger tucked inside my waistband that i began to carry after the scare with Deacon that left me vulnerable.. somethinf i dont like to feel.

He held his hands up, signaling he meant no harm as watchful blue eyes studied me. "I just wanted to ask you to have a drink with me. To talk. We have both been betrayed.. and i see something in you that reminds me of someone. Indugle me. I mean you no harm. I swear it." His voice was gruff as his eyes found mine.. no malice. No lies.

"A drink?" Eyeing him suspiciously.

"At a bar. On human territory. Bring whatever weapons you'd like. Im not gonna hurt you. I just want to talk.. " his eyes never left mine. The beast of an Alpha before me.. asking me to have a drink with him on no mans land could be dangerous..

He was telling the truth though.. i could see it in his eyes.

A drink..

"Im not old enough." I responded emotionlessly.

He waved it off with his large hand. "Dont worry about that part. I go here often."

I bit my lip in thought. I could be pregnant right now.. which would not necessarily harm the pup if i was considering it was still a group of cells trying to form if in fact i was pregnant.. i don't even drink though.. but the time i did.. it numbed me so well. I could just have a glass of wine.. it would be safer. One glass would make me tipsy anyways and it wouldn't harm whatever cells were forming if there were any at all.

Drinking with Alpha Conrad though?

That could be dangerous..

The adrenaline rush that spiked through me at the thought had my heart beating in excitement. Maybe i could wash my sorrows away with one glass of wine.. i have been through a lot and why else would ge come to me if he didnt have something important to say....

"Okay. Lets go." Nodding to him.

He gave me a small smile.. his giant form much bigger than my mates, moving out of my way so i could walk past him.

The danger of leaving to no mans land... especially with this beast of an Alpha who slaughtered his own beta sounded like an awful idea. My wolf whined at me for even saying yes... but i didnt detect any ill will in him. There were no feelings from him to make me think he meant to hurt me. I did what he wanted in the first place. I marked Zaryn..

I needed this rush of danger.. this rush is what spurred me on.. kept me from focusing on my sadness.

Im going to have a drink.. one drink.. with Grace's pretend father.. Alpha Conrad.. the wolf who killed her real father.. it would make both she and Zaryn upset.

Why not kill two birds with one stone?

I smiled to myself as my heart race sped up.. this would be interesting either way.

Dun dun dun!!!

Holy crap yall..

Next chapter shit hits the fan ijs.

This wasnt much of an action chapter but i try to give you guys action on each page so theres not too much fillers however this page had some information that you needed to be aware of.

Like the fact that Zaryn is very confused he loves nova so much.. and doesnt love Grace. But the love for his pup has increased and its clouding his judgement. Nova is realising shes being selfish but she has a rigjt. Shes been stomped on for so long.. now shes about to make some drastic decisions.

Find out next chapter about what that decision is!!!

*singing bye bye bye by nsync.*

😏🙄

Xoxo

Chilee.

MidnightWolfDreamer thank you for all the comments! I recieved a ton of notifications from it! Lol. Ill do a special shout out to all my new commenters in the next chapter.. give u guys some recognition! It will be from the last few chapters i did since the previous shout out chap bc its impossible for me to go back to the first chapters to see who all the new commenters are lol.