chapter 58

{ Slightly mature? Non-consented kiss? Idek what I am writing- So yeah- please read if you are comfortable or feel free to skip. Just don't come at me with ' wth is this ?' idk either. }" I love you!"     I blurted out. If you ask me , my dream confession would be under moonlight in a beautiful garden , on my knees holding a ring . Hell never holding the door in broad daylight getting kicked out by my love .     I can tell she was caught off gaurd at that , the way her fingers slid down and her lips parted in confusion as she took a step back ; it gave me the opportunity to slip in. She further backed knowing there was no point in holding the door anymore. I shut the door behind me. From what I can see , there was no one home . Or else she won't be kicking out a guest. She stood in front of me too stunned. " I am sorry. Whatever happened that day. I know , I-", I started explaining the very moment I got chance but damn if this girl would let me. " Vibha get out ." " Is this how you treat a guest?"" Out!" " Arushi please listen first. "    " I don't want to.", her voice was urgent as if all she wanted was to escape. No making up, no explanation, just get away from me. Not happening today love.    I followed her as she quickened her pace entering her room once again closing the door on my face. This girl really loves to play with doors. I swear when it's our home I am making sure it has no doors. We can keep an elephant to gaurd the entrance but never a door!     " Not again. Arushi please!" , I held the door while she pushed with all her might. If I want I can just force my way in but I don't want her to get hurt in the process.    "   I said leave!" , she was at the edge of rage and crying. Her sleep hairs covering her face as she looked down eyes shut. I know I can't keep playing this way with her. I need to sort it out.     " Arushi listen to me please!" , I almost yelled at her and her grip on the door weakened again.  I didn't want to, I don't like raising my voice at her. It hurts me more . I finally got to step inside but that effect subsided again as she was back to protesting. She tried to walk out but I held the door now. We do need to get rid of these damned doors. " Move."" No."   She glared so hard at me that I for a while considered actually leaving but I can't step back here. " Arushi you have to listen to me!" " I won't!"" You will! "    She tried to leave once again but this time I held her hand. She at once started struggling to get out of my grip as if I'd let it happen that easily. Her expression shifted to irritation as she pulled at one of my finger at a time. I am not bragging here but I am in control love. I smirked and I am sure she saw that . It's going to add fuel to fire now. " Now will you stand still in one place and listen?" , I asked looking at her unbothered by her efforts to get past me. " No! " " I was just trying to-"     Before I could complete she started screaming. This girl really tests my patience. I grabbed both her wrists pinning them to the wall as I caged her . She was too stunned to react and I was too gone beyond sanity to even comprehend my own actions.I could feel her unsteady breath and somehow I liked the look of panick that replaced her face , it had a hint of anticipation in it. She didn't struggle anymore she only stared at me . Her gaze was of pure confusion, those confused lips slightly open , inviting me to capture them in mine. Before I myself knew what I was upto I had my lips on hers shuting her up for good.       She didn't protest. It was my first time kissing someone , and definitely I don't expect her to have this experience either . We just stayed like that until I felt her tensed body relax so I could let go off her hands and instead held her by her waist .  Her hands simply falling to my shoulders , resting there , no pushing away , no resistance. She stood like a frozen statue while I slowly moved lips on her savouring the every bit of the moment. It felt like I was in euphoria. If it was a dream , I didn't want to wake up.     I didn't want to pull away but out of nowhere I was shoved away and not really expecting it , I didn't get to steady myself before I felt a slap land on my face. I wasn't even in my senses. The only feeling I had was the stinging pain on my cheek and the sudden weight on my heart. " We both know you love me . What are you playing so hard to get for ?" , my voice reflected my irritation. It was as if I couldn't do this anymore. I really can't . Her expression shifted from scared to disgust. The red lining taking her eyes as they watered up . " You think you own the world don't you?" " You are so great that everyone must listen to you?"" You feel you can go about forcing your feelings on people? Using them however you want ?"" I never -"" Shut up Vibha. You know, you are really disgusting! You are way too spoiled to accept a rejection! You just feel if you force it , everyone and everything has to be yours. You are really a princess who's never heard a no and you expect all other to be at your feet. You just want to go about bossing everyone as if we were simply pawns in n your life whom you'd use to your benefits and then toss away. "" You don't even care about the other person. All you care is that you get what you want and if you don't  , you just force it. You don't even know love . You don't even love me Vibhavari . All you want is to slap it on your boyfriend's face that you are better than him. All you care is about satisfying that damn ego of yours !"  I felt my entire body go numb. All the accusations she made were so real that I hated them , hated myself, I hate her . " Fine . I won't bother you here after. Sorry for all I did. ", I sounded so sick that I won't believe I used this tone to her but she looked nowhere bothered. She had vented it all and for her it seemed she'd just want me gone. And I will. I will leave .      I stormed out of the house not even knowing what I felt anymore leave alone what she felt . All I know is , it's over for us. She doesn't love me and I can never love her. We are never meant to be.