34. Confession

N A D A' S P O V

Will everything be over now? I will have to get back to my normal life? Where me and my Mom recalled and missed my Dad every second? All these situations made me escape from the reality, but it was short lived. I knew this, I knew it wasn't going to last forever but still I had hoped that it would. Such a day-dreamer I am. The worst part is that I did something I shouldn't have.

I fell in love. Which is gonna make things more difficult. I remember Fahad saying that love makes things difficult than already it is but I always thought he was wrong, now I am afraid that what he said is true. God I am so messed up.

"Nada, why are you overthinking? Talk to me please." I heard Mira plead. It was later, when my source of happiness, Alizah, went with her parents, real might I add, and now Mira and I were in Fahad's room and the rest were downstairs.

"Mira! Why is life so difficult?" I asked as more tears slid down my face.

"No Nada, life isn't difficult it is you who makes it difficult." Mira spoke. She was always the practical one and I was kinda the fantasy one.

"No Mira! First my Dad went away at such a small age, then my Mom is always sad I know she never tells me or let me know about, however, I am not a baby who doesn't understand her unshed tears and now I can't even afford love now. I am not self-pitying, but you know everything about me Mira, don't you?" I rambled.

"Nada! My best friend." She hugged me. "You are much more than what you're thinking. You are one of the most important person in my life. I don't know if you weren't there for me, I wouldn't have been happily married now. You know that you were the one who made me realise that I was in love with Rahim. I know everything about you. It's all Qadr (fate). Allah has planned everything for us. Have Sabr (patience). Remember patience will break you, wreck you, make you want to scream out loud, make you want to leave everything but for Allah's love, keep going, keep trying because He promised that He loves and is with ones who are patient. He promised." Mira tried to calm me down, make me understand things.

"I know Mira, I have my all trust in Allah but I just want the strength to go through this."

"It's Allah's will, just pray to him- it's his plan and he will help you to make you through this situation easily."

"You were always the intellectual one." I smiled at her.

"Hey! Look whose talking like a professor she is." She teased.

"Oh? And what about you? Ms Marine Biologist?" I said and hugged her.

"Thank you Mira for being my support system. I am very lucky to have you." I babbled as hot tears rushed with a rapid speed and travelled down my face.

"Oh Nada! What are best friends for?" She whispered pulling me back to look at her face.

"Mira, what am I supposed to do now? I love Fahad, but does he love me back?"

"You know what? You were in love a long time ago, maybe a few days after you both got married, you just realised it today."

"That isn't helping me now. And wait was I that obvious?" I am dumb. Fahad was right about it. You see, how everything I think is related to him.

"Yes and I am glad that you have accepted the reality and your feelings rather than being in denial and destroying two lives at a time."

"Mira, it's only me who has fallen in love, not him." I said in disdain.

"Who told you that?" Mira questioned and my head snapped in her direction.

"What do you mean? That guy won't even look at me. If I will stumble in front of him, he will not even bother to spare his high priced time to save me from falling." I tried to control my emotions.

"Well, that's not what he did a while ago, when I met you outside." She wiggled her eyebrows at me.

"That was because of Alizah. I had her in my arms, that's why he saved me. And Mira, now everything will be over! We were together only because of Alizah and now she's also gone. Mira I- I cannot live without him. What do I do?" I cried out of frustration and more tears made their way down.

"I don't know about love, but to be honest, he doesn't hate you anymore, maybe more than not hating you."

"Don't give me false hopes Mira." I mumbled.

"I am stating the facts."

"What do I do now? Tell me." I asked her desperately.

"Confess him." She declared.

"But he doesn't love me back!"

"At least confess your feelings. Don't make a mistake by not confessing."

"Fine. I will. I am brave I can do that and honestly I wouldn't want that I didn't confess my first love." I had no problem of confessing and I knew that I am going to get rejected, even get a divorce which I would try to not let that happen, I just want him to know that I love him. I won't hide my feelings. I can't. I shouldn't.

"That's like a good, brave girl!" She smiled at me and I smiled back at her.

And that's when someone knocked at the door.

"Nada! Mira! Open the door girls!" I heard Uméma shout from outside.

"Yes, yes opening." I and Mira both got up and opened the door.

"Come have dinner." Uméma smiled.

"Yes let's go." I said and we all went down.

"All the best!" Mira whispered from beside me to which I gave a confused look.

"For confessing, doofus!"

"Oh yeah!" I blushed.

We sat at the table and started eating everybody was still sad about Alizah going but accepted the fact, howbeit.

Mira and Rahim were also there as Aunt Naaz refused to let them go as they came after such a long time and requested to have dinner with us.

"Now what are you guys gonna do?" Rahim asked looking at me and Fahad.

"We should proceed to issue a divorce." Fahad stated. He surely doesn't not like me.

My face was horrified, I looked at Mira who mouthed me 'confess'.

"Fa-" I tried to say but I had lost all my confidence.

"Just like that? How could you say that?" Uméma interrupted.

"That's what has been decided from the start."  Fahad declared. He definitely highly dislikes me.

"Listen t-" I said actually it was a whisper he wouldn't even have heard it.

"So you're really gonna do that?" Aunt Naaz asked me.

"Yes." Fahad replied. He hates me.

"Rahim will you come with me tomorr-"

"Won't you ask what Nada wants?" Mira asked Fahad.

"I am sure she-" This time I cut him off and mustered all the courage I had.

"No!" I stated.

"What?" He asked bewildered.

"Yes, you heard that right."

"Why don't you want it?"

"It's her wish." Uméma piped in. Guess she loves her ship too much and she's trying to sail it. Same here sis.

"You really don't want it?" Aunt Naaz asked, delightedly.

"She wants it. I am sure she's pranki-"

"NO I DON'T WANT IT BECAUSE I LOVE YOU! IS THAT TOO DIFFICULT FOR YOU TO UNDERSTAND?!" I shouted and Fahad's eyes widened. I am afraid his eyes might pop out. Damn those hazel eyes.

"Oh yes!" Uméma exclaimed as I heard Mira sigh in relief.

"What?" Fahad asked furiously.

"What did you just say?" Fahad grabbed my arms. I wasn't able to look him into his eyes.

"Nada! Answer me!" He shouted.

"Fahad! Stop man handling her!" Aunt Naaz scolded.

"Say something Nada! I am getting irritated! Did you really mean what you said?" He asked me looking actually glaring at me.

"Yes Fahad. I love you." I whispered and kept my hands on his arms.

"No you don't." He snatched his hands away.

"What? I know about my feelings. How could you say like that?"

"Leave me Nada!" He said sternly and tried to my hands off him.

"F-Fahad don't do this to me please. I know you don't reciprocate the feelings but what about our friendship?" I asked devastated about the situation.

"Leave me alone." He forcefully removed my hands and went away.

"I'll check up on him." Rahim followed him.

I sat back on the chair and cried my eyes out.

"Oh my God! Nada don't cry." Aunt Naaz came and hugged me.

"What do I do then? That's what is written in my fate!" I spoke.

"Oh no, my dear. You are such an amazing girl. I know Fahad won't resist you." Uméma said trying to make me feel better.

"Yes Nada have faith." Aunt Naaz comforted.

"He doesn't love me! Actually I should give him the divorce that is better for both of us." I said wiping my tears.

"Did he ever tell you that? And if your love is that true you can make him fall in love too." Mira suggested.

"And I know that you are written in his fate just as he is written in yours. Trust me." Aunt Naaz tried to convince me.

"Ofcourse I won't let my ship drown, right Mira?" Umèma spoke excitedly which caused me chuckling.

"Yes, not so easily." Mira replied giving a smile.

After sometime, Rahim came downstairs, my eyes were searching for Fahad maybe he would come down and confess that he loves me too but no, it was just 'maybe'.

"He's just flabbergasted by the situation. He will come around." He informed us.

"I guess we should leave now, Mira." He said.

"Ya. Assalamualaikum (Peace be upon you) Aunt and Ummi and my bestie!" Mira said to which we all replied.

"AllahHafiz (Parting greeting of Muslims. Basically meaning let God be with you) Rahim." I greeted him.

"AllahHafiz Mrs. Sheikh. Don't lose hope. My best friend needs you." He teased making me blush.

"Ya-ya."

"Aww is someone blushing?"

"Get lost Rahim." I laughed.

"Okay AllahHafiz now everyone, Asalamwalaikum."

"Bye Mira. And thank you for everything."

"You have cried too much today. It's time to be happy." She smiled.

And like that Rahim and Mira also went. I was just waiting for Mom to come back she is gonna arrive tomorrow. She will be happy hearing her daughter falling in love. However, her son-in-law not loving her daughter back is a different thing.

Aunt Naaz went in her room to rest and Uméma also went to prepare for her final exams.

I was really missing Alizah, she had become my routine and I was really missing but I am happy that she is with her real parents. I will visit her, her Mom allowed too. Actually I have Feroza's number I will contact her tomorrow.

I sat on the couch, because I had no courage to go up to the room where Fahad was present maybe later after his anger subsides, but definitely not now. Why is he angry though? Maybe he really wants to divorce me because he cannot stand me. That is what he wants, what about me? Divorce was decided by you both already. Ya, but I fell in love. Love doesn't knock on the door.

When I hated him, I hated him with all my guts and now as I love him, I will love him with all my fibre.

Of course I won't force him to fall in love with him, but I will prove him that I love him, truly and deeply.

I sat on the couch thinking about what can I do to make Fahad fall in love with me. Hmm. That guy is as cold as the sensation we get after we eat mint and then drink cold water. Just that thought gave me chills.

Anyway, I feel very sleepy. I should get some sleep but I was afraid to face him.

It was midnight when I decided to go upstairs. Should I sleep with Uméma? Yes that's good. Backing off so soon? What happened to 'I will make him fall in love with me' Nada? My brain had to give a commentary in between. He must be sleeping I can go, I am a daredevil.

Okay, I will go inside. How many times did I say brave? Anyway I twisted the doorknob and I saw what I didn't expect, Fahad sitting on the bed with the most profound expression ever.

Here goes nothing.

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