Chapter 38.

Chapter 38

I wake up in squinting as the sun hits my eyes a half naked Calum face down sleeping next to me.

Everything from last night comes back as a bit of a blur was it a dream? I nudge Calum , I should know by now he wouldn't wake up. A soft groan leaves his lips causing me to hit him on the head , his eyes open glaring at me.

''You couldn't just wake me up with a kiss or something?'' he smiles.

''Haha funny now get up!.'' I whine as he pulls me back down wrapping his arm around me , I sigh in fustration and after awhile give up on the fight.

''Calum can I ask you something?'' I said honestly dying to know if last night was real or not.

''Did we have sex last night? Yes we did now go back to sleep.'' he mumbles in his slumber state , his words cause my cheeks to heat up. What does this make us now?

Calum rolls over on his back and pushes the covers back. He picks up a t-shirt from the floor smelling it and then chucking it on before grabbing a pair of jeans and shoes.

'' I'm just going to meet the guys. I think we're all going out for lunch with the kids too. Then I have a show tonight... you know if you still wanna uh go?'' He says running his hand through his hair and shaking his hand through it.

He grabs a beanie throwing it on his head then sits on the end of the bed to tie his shoes , I slowly move with the covers around my shoulders sitting behind him and hugging him from behind , kissing him on the cheek.

''What are we doing?'' He asks leaning back onto me as I move a out of place piece of hair from his face.

''I guess we're just working it out.'' I say , ''- If you want to that is.''

''Yeah. I do.'' he says almost too quickly I laugh silently under my breathe.

''Well good.'' I smile down at him. I know Calum has a lot to make up for but he saved me that night from Logan. I think I should give him another chance , I dont want to fight with him anymore and I would be lying if I didnt still have feelings for him. He may of hurt me but he's still is and will be my first love.

''What are you going to do today?'' He asks standing up and helping me out of bed. I stand staring up at him shrugging me shoulders.

''I'll probably just hang out with the kids. Get stuff ready for tonight.''

''What you'll come?!'' he says his eyes lighting up a smile beaming on his face.

''Yeah. I haven't seen you guys play in ages. The fans wont make nothing of it either they'll think im there just for Ashton.''

''Oh.''

''I'll think about it.'' I say he nods , and I make my way to the kids who begin crying.

''Thats my que. Have fun see you later.'' Calum laughs walking out of the bedroom causing me to groan and go look after the screaming little monsters who are our kids.

Calum P.O.V

We were discussing the set list for tonight and go over any changes that we needed to do when my phone buzzed I fumbled into my tight jeans taking out my iphone. I smiled into at the phone when I opened it , a message from Rebecca with a picture of James who was standing up straight and Rosalie clinging onto the sofa standing. Another text was sent and it was a video of Rebecca clapping and squealing as James walked towards her.

''What are you smiling at?'' Luke asked

''Did Rebecca send you a dirty picture?'' Michael smirked , Ashton hit him across the head causing us all to laugh.

''Dude , Inappropriate.'' he groaned. I shook my head showing the guys the video as they all clapped and smiled.

''I remember when Kimberly started walking.'' Michael smiled , patting me on the back.'' I sent Rebecca a quick text back and made a tweet uploading the video with it then grabbed the bass to go sound check.

After sound check we went our seperate ways and would meet up again for lunch. I walked back into the house , Rebecca yelling my name. I walked in to see Rosalie walking up to me with a smile on her face then falling onto her bottom giggling.

''Whoa careful there usain bolt.'' I said helping her back up and letting her walk along.

''She's really close. Looks like there is competition between the two.'' Rebecca laughed holding James in her arms. I really love this , coming home to Rebecca and my kids. I was crazy to ever want anything else this is all I want forever.

''Ready to go?'' I asked , she nodded picking up her bag. We got inside the car that was sent for us and I could sense Rebecca was feeling... nervous? or scared?

Rebecca P.O.V

I still havent been in a car driven by a stranger since the crash I had with sasha. I just dont trust anyone else to drive me anywhere after that incident so I was a bit apprehensive to go in one this time. Calum had put the kids in and waited for me , I got in buckled my belt and took a deep breathe.

Holding onto the side of the door while looking and checking the kids every so often and the speed the driver was going. A rush of anxiety hit me all at once and I felt like a nervous wreck , Calum grabbed my hand lacing our fingers together and i almost felt okay. Except I wasn't I shook my head at Calum and called for the driver to stop.

''STOP THE CAR. PLEASE JUST STOP .'' I yelled as my speeding of breathe increased as he didnt seem to stop.

''Sir?'' The driver looked at Calum , Calum nodded to him letting go of my hand. I quickly opened the door almost falling out of it as I gasped my chest becoming increasingly tight as I thought of .

''Rebecca breathe.'' Calum said breaking me out of my thoughts I stared at him for a moment wiping the tears from under my eyes shaking my head.

''Hey. Whats wrong?'' He said , sitting down next to me on the curb of the road as I started to work on my breathing. He slung his arm around me and rubbed my back squeezing my other arm softly.

''I'm sorry I just can't''

''Can't what?''

''Go in the car. Im being stupid but it just brings back everything from the crash with Sasha and -'' I broke down after saying Sashas name.

She still isnt great Ashton is losing hope with getting her to remember him and it was all my fault for requesting a stupid car instead of using my own or walking.

''Rebecca , It wasn't your fault.'' He sighed pulling me into his chest and kissing my head softly.

''While you were away it all god worse. I went to the doctors and they diagnosed me with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder or something like that.'' I breathed

''I wish you would of told me Becky...'' he sighed and I shook my head.

''I couldn't even step foot in a car for weeks.'' I half laughed shaking my head crying furthur '-I'm being stupid.''

''No you're not. Come on the restaurant is only a few blocks away we can walk it.''

''Ar- Are you sure?'' I sighed and he nodded standing up and pulling me up.

''Its a nice day anyway.'' he smiled walking over to the car and taking out the stroller , taking out the kids. I went a apologized to the driver in case he thought it was his fault when I assured him it wasn't.

We were swarmed with paparazzi as we neared the restaurant , I just kept my head down and yelled at those who got in the way of the kids. Calum pushed us through the crowded place as we finally entered the restaurant , I let out a small laugh.

''I certainly haven't missed that.'' I said to him , he half smiled picking up Rosalie as I picked up James and we walked towards the table filled with everyone.

''HEYYY LOOK WHO IT IS!'' Sophia yelled running up to me and giving me a small hug. We passed the kids around so everyone could say hello to them before placing them both into the high chairs the restaurant supplied.

''Well I must say Rebecca you look great.'' Emily smiled , wiggling her eyebrows then laughing.

''What?'' I laughed along with her ,

''Oh you know you just seem to be GLOWING.'' Sophia yelled the last part causing my cheeks to heat up and my eyebrows to raise as I grabbed a menu holding it up to my face.

''She totally has!''

''Guys can you not discuss my sister doing the dirty.'' Ashton cringed as I sent a glare to him , Calum laughed sending me a wink and I rolled my eyes.

''Oh my god. Hi Sasha I didn't realise you were here.'' I said to the familiar blonde girl walking towards the table from the bathroom I presume as she sat down next to Ashton she gave me a small smile.

''Hi...'' She paused for a moment looking towards Ashton , He whispered something in her ear before she nodded. ''...Rebecca.'' a slight piercing of pain hit me not because she didnt know who I was because its been so long and she still hasnt regained her memory.

Calum clapped his hands arruptedly announcing ''Right lets order then im starving.'' and from then we all said something on the lines of agreement and placed our orders.

Halfway through the meal Calum decided he would play footsie with me under the table , I would sent a few kicks to his leg telling him to stop but he just grinned and began doing it again a little while after.

I shook my head laughing to myself and I began to engage into another conversation Mali and Sophia were having. I looked over to the other side of the room noticing Sasha and Ashton in the distance away from the table it seemed like they were arguing , she walked off leaving Ashton shaking his head running a hand through his hair and look over to me. I offered him a smile and he returned it but I knew he was far from fine.

I excuse myself heading towards the bathroom , after using the toilet washing my hands and fixing my hair and makeup I walked out only to be pushed back inside by Calum and held against the wall.

His lips came down on mine a second later and I tried to resist but I couldn't. His hands found my waist and he pulled me into him my body was flush against his. His hand trailed up my back and I shivered from the feeling. I kissed back my hands finding his hair, his tongue asked for entrance and I gave it to him.

My body moved against his and he brought his hands down gripping my ass before continuing down to the back of my thighs. He lifted me up and my legs went around his waist. He started walking and I wasn't completely sure where he was going. I moved my lips from his and kissed his neck. The spot just below his ear had him moaning. I nipped at his collar bones and kept my fingers in his hair. He locked the door to the toilet cubicle we was in and I pulled away gasping as his lips wasted no time in finding my neck.

''Calum we're in a public place ''

"I could take you home if you'd like, or we could go somewhere else," he suggested causing me to let out a groan. The sound of chatting rose and Calum stilled his movements looking at me frozen , I held my mouth as I couldnt help but not laugh at Calums scared reaction.

''Shit.'' He cursed as I smacked my hand over his mouth to shut him up.

'''Does this dress make me look fat Denise ... What about this lipstick do you think he will like it'' One of the women said , I held my fingers up counting down for three , on three we both ran out one of the women screaming as Calum ran past her he yelled a 'YOU LOOK GREAT THE LIPSTICK SUITS YOUR SKINTONE.''

We both piled out the door laughing hysterically as he pecked me one last time and walked into the gentlemens room as I made my way back to the table.

The rest of the table had called for the bill and Ana was smiling at me while Sophia wiggled her eyebrows and I flipped them off. Calum came back and forced me to put my credit card down laying down his to pay for the dinner. Ashton offered to drive us home and I obliged since I didnt want to walk in the dark or call a taxi.

Calum left with Ashton to go do another soundcheck while I got changed and drove to Joys house , I had a small catch up with her before I left the kids there with her to look after since she hasnt seen them in forever and I needed someone to look after them so I could go to the concert.

I then drove back home adding some finishing touches to myself before getting picked up by Sophia. We drove to the venue where a load of fans were already sitting down waiting with their signs , some of them looked like they had been there all day.

The screams came out louder once they saw me surprised maybe by me turning up , I said some hellos then proceeded to help Sophia get Daniel and Kimberly out of the car. I cant wait until the twins are old enough to see Calum perform I love how Sophia brings the kids to see Michael every concert. The screaming only increaased when they saw Michael run out to help us with his kids and the essentials we needed.

''Have fun. No pressure guys not that Its my first concert back seeing you guys'' I say kissing Calum good luck and waving to the rest of the guys.

I still remember the first concert I attended , when they were opening up for one direction. When I spotted Harry and almost got kicked out of the venue by their security guard , when Calum got me up on stage and said he loved me. All of that was awhile ago but it still felt like yesterday to me.

We get to our seats waiting for it all to start. Finally the lights turn off , Everyone rushes up to the stage,as close as they can possibly get. Hearts racing, blood pumping, fists in the air, feet bouncing off the ground.

The music begins.Too loud, but not loud enough bodies against bodies,no space to even breathe. But everyone's attention just glued to the stage, glued to the four idiots running around the stage like its all they've ever known. One happening to be my brother one happening to be my husband...Ex...Calum the other two happening to be my best friends. The music starts to reach its peak,getting more intense by the second.

Bodies start thrashing,people start pushing. the mosh-pits break-out.Everyone slamming from side to side,trying not to get swallowed in the middle of it all. Never in my life would I have thought that the guys would get mosh pits going but everything seems to be surprising me today. It looked unsafe for everyone below on the ground floor but it's all in fun,no violence no pain.

I saw the night ending,everyone wishing it wouldn't. I saw the music slowing,still intense and moving.I saw the endless smiles,everyone's needs were satisfied.I guess you can't help but get caught up in the middle of it all. We joined the guys backstage and we received a big sweaty group hug. It was their first show they've had together in awhile and they kicked ass.

''ITS AFTER PARTY TIMEEEE'' Michael yelled as we all seemed to pile out the venue after everything got packed up and we ended up at Lukes house with music blaring and everyone laughing and cheering at the success of the show.

''Do you wanna go home?''Calum whispered in my ear , I shook my head not wanting to ruin his fun but if im being honest I was exhausted.

''Well I do '' he whispered in my ear.

''Whys that?'' I yelled over the music still dancing around with everyone as Calum stood with me.

''Because I wanna fuck you again.'' he blurted out.

I hit him on the chest shaking my head as he burst out laughing yep he was drunk as fuck again. I somehow manged to pluck up the courage to take a taxi home with Calum it was only twenty minutes away so I manged the ride.

I had my arm wrapped around Calums back as I helped him up the driveway and into the house. I kicked the door closed locking it twice and made our way to the bedroom , pushing him up the stairs and down onto the bed.

''Eager.'' he smiled. I rolled my eyes taking off his shoes , socks , trousers and t-shirt leaving him in his boxers. I covered him up grabbing a glass of water and a painkiller putting it next to his bed , as I crawled in next to him. His arms found their way around my waste nuzzling his head into the crook of my neck.

''Thank you for looking after me.'' he whispers before falling into a deep sleep. Yep this was my big idiot and I loved him.

A/N

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