Chapter 47.

Ana P.O.V

I drive into the estate and park up straight outside, I got off work early so I thought while I'm in town I'd visit Rebecca since Calum has told me she'd been having a bad time lately. I knock on the door and wait a few moments , knowing she is definitely in there since Security let me into the estate. After a few knocks I grab my phone and call her twice , I groan and search my bag for the spare key she gave me in emergencies. I unlock the door and walk in following the sound of soft sobs.

"Rebecca?" I call I hear it go silent and walk into the living room looking at my best friend.

Her eyes bloodshot and glossy connoting that she'd be crying only a few minutes ago. I drop my bag onto the floor and walk up to her sitting down beside her and wrapping my arms around her tightly, she leans into my gesture and soon enough my t-shirt becomes wet with tears.

Rebecca P.O.V

I pause removing my face from the cushion that is now mascara stained as I hear the door unlock. I try to gather myself up in fear it is Calum but the familiar blonde walks through the doorway and I can tell I still look a mess from the frown on her face. I burst out into tears and her arms wrap around my shoulders holding me close to her.

"What has happened?" She gushed squeezing me and rocking me back and forth in a comforting way.

"I ... Calum he's with another girl." I cried harder the thought of it making my skin crawl.

"What?" Ana asked a small laugh escaping her lips."-You're not serious are you? He would never do that again Becky he's not stupid." She sighed shaking her head.

"He is he was at the studio but I heard a girl laugh and ..." I tried to gather up my thoughts but they were a jumbled mess , I sounded pathetic.

"How do you know it's not a worker ? "

"I don't... I just." now I did feel stupid , it could of been anyone and I jumped to this conclusion so fast

"Rebecca you need to stop worrying. I promise you he isn't doing anything he called me to check up on you and make sure you're alright." She sighed pulling away from me to look into my eyes.

She could of been entirely correct and she could've been totally wrong. I didn't want to believe it ... He was defiantly at the studio I heard the other guys. But why wouldn't Calum just tell me if he was writing with a girl musician? It doesn't help that Ana doesn't even work for the boys anymore so she doesn't really know the facts. She has given me some hope though , it's crazy if this is all a mix up I need to talk to Calum about this because I certainly can't keep feeling this way , it's not healthy.

The way Calum got Ana to check up on me only shows that my lies are clear to him and he knows something is wrong. I'll talk to him later I say to myself but I doubt I will be able to bring it up when I actually see his face.

"Come on let's watch some movies ,  we'll do something with your hair and freshen you up so you'll feel better" she smiled breaking me out of my thoughts. I nodded my head slowly and let out a relaxing sigh at the thought of a nice ladies day.

It reminded me that I should organize something with the other girlfriends since we haven't really spoken much lately , I could even see if Sasha would come over maybe it could help her with her memory.

Calum POV

After the weird phone call with Rebecca I took Ashtons advice and got Ana to go check up on her , I didn't answer or ask after she said she would I just left them to it. When we finished at the studio me , the guys and Halsey went to a take out restaurant to eat since it was quite late , I didn't know if Rebecca already ate but I still brought her some food home with me.

I walked out of the restaurant and took a few photos with some kind fans who waited outside for us and waited for the car to arrive. We all go into separate cars , it was me and Ashley left waiting and we spoke about our excitement  for both of our albums that were going to be released soon. It was nice talking to her until a million camera flashes blinded me about six photographers surrounded us yelling nonsense and snapping pictures.

I groaned and we both tried to walk away but they just swarmed us , we stood back inside the restaurant knowing they couldn't come inside. My car pulled up and I hugged Ashley bye then walked out and sped up to the car and got in , ignoring the nonsense and rumors the lowlife paparazzi had.

When I got back home it was quite dark and silent. I switched on the hallway light and walked towards the living room where I heard distant laughs coming from. I peered my head around the doorway smiling and waving at Ana and Rebecca.

"Hey ladies."

"Hi Cal. I better go see you soon okay?" Ana abruptly said to Rebecca hugging her and jumping up from the sofa gathering up her things.

"You don't have to go ... There is no rush." I chuckled looking at her.

"Oh no it's fine I better be off , I just didn't wanna leave Becky on her own. Cya both later NO MORE BABY MAKING." She yelled the last part laughing and walking out of the room and down the hall.  I chuckled softly as did Becky , I shook the bag of take out in front of her and she smiled a little.

"Thank you." She said walking over to me and leaning up on her tip toes to kiss me, the gesture making me sigh of relief.

"Are you alright?" I ask my arms wrapping around her waist softly.

"Yeah much better now." She replied leaning into me and hugging me tightly.

"-Much better now you're home." She sighed. I nodded my head leaning down to kiss the top of hers.

"What time is mum bringing the kids home?" I asked.

"I asked if she could have them for the night , we haven't had a night in together for awhile." She replied , my response being a small smile and a squeeze of her hips.

''Not like that Cal.'' she giggled pushing her flushed face furthur into my chest , making me to erupt into laughter.

Rebecca P.O.V

Calum dragged us both down to the sofa and switched on a cheesy rom-com to watch , his arm loosely around my waist pulling me close while we shared the take out food he had brought home. Things were going good and I didnt want to bring up any of the mess from today but it seems like Calum had other ideas , as when the adverts came up he turned to face me looking and studying my face.

''Yes?'' I asked laughing a little.

''We need to talk don't we ?'' he asked , causing me to let out a soft sigh and nod staring at my small hands for a moment.

''What happened today?''

''Its nothing really I was being stupid.'' I half laugh avoiding eye contact with him , he placed his fingers under my chin tilting my head up to look at him.

''The truth.'' he whispered.

''I-I...Heard a girl in the background when we were on the phone and I , I just jumped to conclusions and was being stupid.'' I mumble my words in hopes he didnt understand but the frown on his face says otherwise.

''Rebecca you can't be serious? You actually think I'd do that to you again? Unbelievable!'' his tone is much louder and I can tell he is pissed off. Why didn't I keep my mouth shut I knew this would start a confrontation that I dont think I have the energy to deal with.

''Why not? You did it once you'll do it again. What stops you from doing it again Calum? It cant be because you love me because that means you didn't love me before And Yeah that would be fucked up! Is it because im not pregnant is that it? Is it because we can actually have sex well I'm telling you right now that won't be happening for a long time because all i see is that stupid PIA GIRL!'' I yell equally as harsh the words falling from my lips before I can even comprehend what I'm saying , my cheeks feel wet again as tears stream down my face

"Rebecca, I don't know what else you want me to do. I've tried everything , I've apologized , I've waited , I've been patient with you... you're the one who accepted the proposal again I didn't make you do that! I tried to offer you the help from a Councillor but you won't even take that I dont know what else to do !. '' He said equally as loud leaning over and tugging on the roots of his hair , the cracking of his voice telling me he was now crying.

''I don't know.'' I whispered , I didn't know what to say or what to do.

I just didn't know I felt stuck in a constant battle of loving Calum but hating him. I thought I had forgiven him but some part of me is still holding onto that anger with the pain he put me through and its scary because I don't know if I can ever fully get over it.

We sat there in silence for what felt like eternity before I finally got up from the sofa standing up and looking down at him.

''I'm going to bed... are you coming?'' I ask quietly and calmly exhausted from todays traumatic events.

''You know the girl was Ashley, the singer I'd been telling you about... she was there to help with the album thats all.'' he said , my heart sank as I felt immediate regret and stupidity from my accusations but then again could you blame me?

''Oh.'' is all I replied and waited a few more moments before leaving the room and heading upstairs to the bedroom. I climbed into bed and turned on the t.v the news flashing up just to show a quick video of Calum hugging the blue haired girl and leaving a restaurant. Just as Calum walked into the bedroom following my eye site and mumbling something under his breath and turning the t.v off by the screen.

''Why did you do that?'' I asked.

''Because I don't need other shit going on in your head. I went to dinner with her and the guys thats all you need to know. I can have female friends without it being romanticized she has a boyfriend as well , look it up as Im sure you will.'' he snapped , pulling his t-shirt off and stepping out of his jeans. Leaving him just in his boxers he pulled the sheets back and climbed into his side.

''I'm gonna sleep on the couch.'' I sighed not wanting to put up with the mood he was in.

''Don't be stupid Rebecca.''

''No I'm not being stupid Calum! I'm being honest with you , I open up to you and all you give me is shit. I'm sorry this is hard for you but its ten times harder for me. So please get some sleep and wake up in a better mood.'' I said grabbing my pillow and a blanket , walking out the room and back down the stairs.

Calum P.O.V

I don't know what else I can do to make Rebecca trust me again. I've tried everything possible and I've now realized maybe things will never go back to the way they were and that really hurts me. I was stupid I know but I can't change the past and thats what she needs to understand , I'm trying my best here and she just doesn't care or appreciate it. If she feels this way still why is she with me and wanting to get our vowels re-newed. Is she doing it for the money? for the kids? for an easy life? Does she even love me anymore?

I follow her up the stairs and sigh seeing the stupid E-news clip of me leaving the restuaunt play on the screen , I can tell shes overthinking things so reach over and turn the tv off and snap at her for no reason. I unchange and slip into bed just for Rebecca to jump out and pick up her pillow. She can't be serious , she won't even sleep in the same bed as me now? What is the actual point.

'Don't be stupid Rebecca.'' I sigh softly but my tone is aggressive.

''No I'm not being stupid Calum! I'm being honest with you , I open up to you and all you give me is shit. I'm sorry this is hard for you but its ten times harder for me. So please get some sleep and wake up in a better mood.'' she says and I feel guilty. I did act like a dick towards her tonight and I'm once again stupid.

I toss and turn in bed but can't find a way to get comfortable and a way to sleep , knowing Rebecca is downstairs on her own in the cold. I need to go apologize I don't care if its 2am I can't sleep knowing shes upset and that its my fault. I get up and walk slowly down the stairs the only light in the room being the television light that lights up the room only a little.

''Rebecca?'' I whisper , I hear her stir around and walk closer to her sitting on the small space of the sofa left.

''What are you do-''

''I'm sorry'' I apologies.

''Calum Its 2am... couldn't you leave this to the morning'' she groans looking at the tv then back to me.

''Nope.'' I smile , she rolls her eyes on response and moves up a little allowing me to lay next to her sighing.

''I'm sorry too.'' she whispers cuddling into me.

''It's my fault.'' I chuckled brushing her hair back from her face.

''You're trying your best , I just need to appreciate it and try to move on.''

''I know baby.'' I say my lips hovering over hers slightly.

''You can kiss me.'' she chuckled and with those few words I oblige leaning in to kiss her soft sweet lips that just reminds me of the first kiss we shared.

A/N

I'm so sorry for the long hiatus I took.

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