Chapter 35
BDSM Checklist: A, B, C
Mae closed her eyes, competing feelings of relief and anger warring within her. Relief from having him in control and anger for this heartless charade heâd put her through.
âLook at me.â
Mae met his gaze, and there was something in his eyes that seemed to echo what she was feeling. He tipped her head back a fraction, gaze hardening until his eyes were as unreadable as his masked face.
âYou will submit. You will behave.â
âYes, Master Xavier,â she murmured.
âGood.â Xavier released her.
James was rubbing his jaw and looking at her in a decidedly unfriendly way. âMae was always a bit bratty, but this is new.â He looked from Xavier to her. âYou two need to talk. I have this room reserved for the weekend. Youâre welcome to it until this evening.â
The other Dom clapped Xavier on the shoulder before leaving and closing the door behind him.
Now that she was alone with Master Xavier, Mae didnât know what to say, what to feel.
Their gazes met once more, and she had this strange feeling that Xavier was just as much at a loss as she was. Sheâd never even spoken to him until twelve hours ago, and yet the idea that heâd dismissed her by passing her off to another Master had shredded her heart. That he had the power to impact her so heavily was beyond worrying. It was terrifying.
âI didnât mean to upset you.â
His words were both unexpected and infuriating. âYou gave me to another Dom.â Mae tried to keep the emotion out of her voice, to match his level tone. âHow did you think that would make me feel?â She wasnât succeedingâpain leaked into her words.
He shook his head. âI donât own you. I couldnât give you away, even if I wanted to. And I donât.â
âI thoughtâ¦â Mae blinked to keep tears from falling.
âJames is the kind of Dom you like. I thought youâd be comfortable with him.â
âI didnât walk away last night when you told me to, so now youâre trying to get rid of me this way? Then you could have a sub who wonât ever talk back or be scared.â Mae spat each word, losing the battle with her feelings. Pain and a sense of betrayal made her long to lash out again.
Xavier grabbed her hips, jerking them against his. For the first time she felt the hard length of his erection. The evidence of his desire took her breath away.
âI thought youâd be comfortable telling him the truth.â Xavierâs face was only inches from hers, his voice a growl.
âTruth about what?â she breathed.
âWhether you really wanted to include sex in our session.â
Chain rattled as Mae reached for him only to be brought up short. âHow could you doubt it?â
âA Dom canât change the terms of a scene while itâs happening. Submissives will agree to things they shouldnât when theyâre in subspace.â Xavierâs hand moved up her side until his thumb was poised at the bottom swell of her breast. âTheyâll do things like say yes to everything on the checklist because theyâre turned on while theyâre filling out the form.â His lips twitched and the corners of his eyesâjust barely visible behind the maskâcrinkled. Mae blushed.
âI needed to know if you really wanted more than straight BDSM play.â His eyes were new-leaf green, the daylight making them appear lighter than they had last night. âWhat James said was trueâyouâll be completely at my mercy. I told you that Iâd push you. I did, and I will, because thereâs something inside you begging to be let out. And because itâs what I want, what I need to do to you.â
Mae closed her eyes. The answer to the question of sex was a resounding âyes,â but the rest of it was a bit more complicated. Theyâd spent only a few hours together and yet heâd had more impact on her than any other Dom in years. If they kept going there was no telling who sheâd be when they reached the other side.
âI want you.â It was the simple truth, and Mae hoped it was enough. âI want you to touch me, dominate me. In every way.â
Xavierâs hand closed over her breast as his lips captured hers in a savage kiss. Mae arched into him, wanting every bit of contact he would give her. She moved her hips side to side, rubbing his cock with her lower belly. His free hand closed over her abused ass and she bit his lip in reaction to the sudden stab of pain.
Xavier growled and jerked her head back. âDid you just bite me, Red?â
âIt was an accident, Master.â She was half distracted by the nickname, but the intensity of his stare warned her to concentrate, to watch him and obey his commands.
âIâm going to bite you, and itâs not going to be an accident.â He smiled darkly. âGood of you to remind me that we have checklist items yet to complete. I think we should take care of âbitingâ right now.â
Master Xavier dropped to one knee, his mouth level with her bellybutton.
âSpread your legs, Mae.â
She inched her feet apart, exposing her wet core. Her heart was pounding so loud she thought heâd be able to hear it. It wasnât fear of him biting her sensitive pussy that had her blood racing, but anticipation of him finally touching her.
Xavier lowered his head, Mae sucked in a breath, and he bit the inside of her right thigh.
The pressure-pain of the bite was so close to her aching pussy that it only made her body throb harder.
âMaster Xavier, please. I canât wait any more.â Couldnât he see how wet she was? How much she needed him?
âYou will wait.â His words brushed her pussy. âI like you this way. Wet. Needy.â
Mae let out a frustrated little scream, banging the cuffs back against the bedpost. In response Xavier placed a second bite next to the first, this one a bit harder, lasting a bit longer. Mae trembled, but didnât protest or move her leg away. The sweet sting of pain wasnât the orgasm she craved, but it was satisfying in a way she didnât fully understand.
âYouâll have a bruise there.â Xavier traced the marks heâd left on her thigh.
âThank you, Master.â And she was thankful. She wanted him to mark her.
âI have something of yours.â He went to the screen and came back carrying her shoes. Dropping to one knee he carefully helped her slip them on.
Mae looked down at her naked body and her lips twitched. âMaster?â
âYes, Mae?â
âThey donât match the collar either.â