Let's Talk

Don't want to play cat and mouse

I'm tired of endless mind games

Don't need a soft out

I'm a big girl, my voice as loud as the Nordics

Not a bitch for pleasure

But a bitch for necessity

I can guard my own heart

I know when to swerve off the road for protection

Won't come to halt your studies

Just as you have chosen not to bother with mine

I respect your respectfulness

Just know I tend to lash out when I don't have peace of mind

But trust when I say

I'll give you the time of day

For so long I was over it

But I've matured since early May

I wonder if you have too

I guess we'll come to see

Can't say I've been wishing the best for you

Just like I can't guarantee you've been thinking the best of me

But I'll extend the invitation

Say let's meet up at the park for old times' sake

It will have been a year since I've last seen you

I wonder how long we'll stay

And if you say "no" know I will hold no disappointment

I place the ball in your court like old times

If you say "yes" know we'll have lots to discuss

I can't guarantee you won't hate me for life

Promise you'll be honest

And I mean BRUTAL

Say all the things you wish you could change about me and scream

Tell me where I went wrong all these years

Let's have an actual conversation instead of dancing around trying to protect the other's feelings

And in return I'll tell you my secrets

How I've felt about you all these years

Come to learn how my resentment built up

Point the gun at where you're already bleeding

Oh, what maturity will come to bring us

See if we still want to see each other grow

If not, let's just end this early

I hate limbo more than I hate distrust

We don't have to end amicably

But I would be curious at what you have to say

Make your voice heard for the first time

And I'll make sure you know the shit I went through while you'd go out to play

Write out your anger on paper

Excrete sadness onto the tissues we bring

In annoyance scribble onto tree bark

In happiness go home and move on in your own way

Written on: December 9, 2023

A/N: Let's see what's to come