Dyllan

Lost track of how many times I've claimed I'm over you

But I remember the smallest details of when we first met

How scared I was every time I met your eyes

How nervous I got when you prompted me to let you in

I think of you, and I think of beauty

Of novelty and infatuation for a girls first girl crush

I think of you, and I see sunlight

I've never cared so genuinely for someone

And three years later

Long gone are images of sharing fries and exchanging essays to proofread

Of walking together to price center for free food

Moments that felt like destiny

Now you're gone, and you live a life you could never have with me

Gab with your girls on weekdays

Travel with a boy who likes you on weekends

Grow your mind through lab and studies every day

Bittersweet to have loved someone as wonderful as you

To let you go in favor of worthier pursuits

And me, well if you have me, I'll stick to seeing you once every couple of months

I know now we weren't destined to be

But I still choose to love you

Dyllan,

You rejuvenated my heart

Written: December 28, 2024