How I overcame you

We always had a friendship

So strong, and pure, and true

It was me and you against the world

As if nobody mattered but us two

We were close enough to be sisters

Maybe fraternal twins

Yet in the grand finale

I was no longer your best friend

As if you were a stranger

As if someone messed with time

It felt fake, unreal

Was it all just in my mind?

Did you ever really care?

Was it all just some kind of joke?

I felt sick inside

My body had just gotten worse

Without your sincere wisdom

Without your care or trust

I was basically no one

A ghost engaging in wanderlust

As I continued to be losing myself

Summer came and went

And the next time I woke up

You had your new group of friends

Seconds, days, turned into months

I was alone in the cafeteria room

The light glistened on my never-ending tears

As I continued thinking of me and you

How fast our childhood went

And how fast we stopped being friends

How time was a figment of our minds

How could you leave me alone in the end?

Pity flashed with quick glances

I had no one who told me goodnight

No one to wake me up in the morning

No inspiration to get by

Yet somehow I decided

That you should no longer be in my mind

I don't know how it happened

But I guess I realized you had made up your mind

Ignored texts

Ignored calls

Ignored hi's and bye's

You ignored it all

I was no one to you anymore

And I wanted to stop that feeling

And so I decided

The grief was not worth keeping

I took this time off

I rethought of everything

How we met

The end of our friendship

How it was no one's fault it ended

It was just time

And all I needed was someone who would listen

Like how you did

Sure my heart stung every time you walked by

Sure I ignored eye contact

But I'm sure you know why

All I needed was an outlet

Someone who would listen

Someone I could trust

Someone wise and forgiving

I already had some problems

This was just one of many

But together we planned it out

And near April I was ready

I was ready to talk it out

I hoped you were ready to listen

But when I asked you to meet up

You just replied with "sorry I'm busy"

And that's truly when it ended.

Why is this person worth my time?

Why do I even care what they think?

Why do I want to be their friend?

Why does this mean so much to me?

And this was my breakthrough

And he helped me figure out the "why"

I missed the past

I wasn't quite ready for the future

I wanted to hold onto good times

I wanted to hold onto the idea of "forever"

Life before was so easy

Now I was covered in vines

I missed the old her

Not the one who was in with "the times"

But I soon felt okay

I felt free and tamed

I had my own friends now

People who loved me for me

Those who cheered me on

Especially on the last lap of a race

Maybe they don't know it yet

But they helped me somewhat

And I'm thankful

Because losing a friend is hard

A best friend is harder

All the neglect

All the feelings of being alone

It was too deep in

I was lucky it found its way out

I was lucky the sun shone down after my darkened rain

I was happy that I overcame you💔

I hope one day you feel the same

Originally released on: Feb 14 2018