Song? (TW)

Trigger Warning: parental abuse (?) Verbal abuse

I feel like everyday is a burden

My feelings keep on getting worse

And

I pray that I get okay

But I feel unworthy

Yes I feel nothing but pain

These days

Nothin' but pain

My tears seem to drown in my bedsheets

My father seems to keep on telling me

That I'm useless

That I'm worthless

That not being perfect isn't okay

That not being at 100 means that I'm wasting away

That I ain't okay

My mother says its fine

But maybe she's just lying for my sake

For my sake

Who truly knows

He says I'm a coward

He says I'm nothing but a useless child

Who is not fine

Who has had mental problems

Who has low self esteem

Who likes to lie down and cry all her pain away

Pain away

Nights

Seem to get harder

Seem to drag on longer

I wake up with eyes

Tired

Bloodshot

Eye bags underneath my skin

It's never a win

Stress and other factors

Depression

A lack of laughter

They seem to come into play

He says I'm nothing but a coward

Nothing but a useless daughter

What a waste of space

Waste of breath and money

No I'm not perfect papa but I think I'm okay

I think I'm okay

Yet you keep on shouting

Even louder

Waking me up

When it's not day

So this is my song to you

Is this okay?

Is this Okay?

Am i still a coward

A useless daughter

A waste of space

Of opportunity, money, love

Is this a song?

A song?

I don't know

But, hey,

I'm a useless child

anyway

Originally released on: July 19, 2018