Sucky Comeback

It had been months

Plus weeks

Plus days

Everyday I had hoped and prayed and dreamt of us reconnecting

Reconciling

Falling in love

Making up conspiracy theories

That maybe if it was you and I

This wouldn't be the world we would be living in

But alas

I finally gave up

We were both moving up, moving on

And the train wasn't waiting for us both to get on

So on your graduation night

I moved my heart's tassel from the right to the left

Tired of this heartache

Of your unrequited love

No attention

No hitting me up

And I laughed at your picture flashing on the screen

And I kissed you goodbye

Knowing you would never kiss me

And then...

I was happy

I didn't think of you, dream of you

I had forgotten about you

All our fun times

My sleepless nights

Me crying on my dog's bed

After hours

Practice over

Bathroom mirror

Mindless flirting

Falling deeper

I looked back and laughed

And I could say with confidence that I no longer knew you

So I did other things

I watched PBO

Enthralled by the hosts

Went on IG

And then came across my DM's

UNREAD

And it was YOU

Months after a global pandemic began

Countless deaths

Our town having the most cases in L.A. County

Finally you asked If I was okay

And I was

Until you

Until you came back.

I had an ending

I didn't need a new beginning

The world was ending and you DIDN'T come over

Still

I let my feelings get in the way

So I respond

And we talk for a day

Enough to reel me back in

And then as soon as it starts

You stop

And I remember you were probably just bored

And I was nothing more than a side on your senior plate

Even though you said one day I'd be the main

Originally released on: August 18, 2020