Could It be Us?
☆Faith☆ (A Series Of Poems)
My heart begins to flutter as I see you in your element
We're nothing, that I know
But if we were something
Then would I know?
I dream of an identity
I'm not sure that I own
About to commit to us
But then I admit it's just for fun
So then why is it that when I see you're online
My lips begin to curl
A smile greater than you'll ever know
My heart skipping along to the echo of your voice
My eyes making out the curvature of the shags in your hair
How I'm sure they portray a heart monitor
Of me questioning if these feelings are real
Can I imagine us on a date?
Eye to eye in love?
Can I imagine us on a couch
Threatening to make love?
Can I imagine us on a wedding stage
About to say our vows?
Speaking of our friendship
Tears on your wedding gown
But it's only when I truly imagine it
That I can see within a soul
Maybe I'm not faking
Maybe this crush is as real as the ones I try to disown
Maybe it's as real as the ones on the boys who broke me
Yet how iconic is it
That I think I'm falling for the one who I blamed for the openings in my chest
The boy who left
Who I thought was unlike the rest
The one who said he loved you
The one who you said "no" to
But what if it's I that love you?
And what if it's something more than I think possible
What if it's me being honest
Saying we're both girls but I want you
Written on January 30, 2021