Miscommunication

It glitches

The words that come out

I see things and I say things

But you always filter them out

I mean one thing but you think another

there's no point in correcting you

I'm already such a bother

I tell you one thing but you seem to cut me off

Rather sit in silence than say something that will shut you off

Your words overflow while mines barely leave my lips

So much to say

But I can't seem to let you in

Miscommunication

that's all I've known thus far

Miscommunication so you never get that far

You don't really know me

And everything I say you forget

have to remind you of the little things I once said

Miscommunication

that drifts us apart

Money flows for what

If only for words to get caught somewhere between zoom and 0's and 1's

Miscommunication

that drifts us apart

I want to say so much

But I got used to you taking all the applause

It's so normal now to be in the backseat

No longer #1 in any single thing

Miscommunication

I don't state what I think

My feelings stuck inside

They're all I ever think

Miscommunication

You don't know who I am

Ever-changing interests and things I don't comprehend

Miscommunication

In things that were once ours

Now nothing

and nobody

can see me in a crown

The times I overshared and the times you said you were here for me

They all seem like hearsay when I think back to when you left me

The silence

the disapproval

the look in your eyes

Seeing me in a costume that was really just my eyes

The tint of a smile

braces with a color

Blue like the sky

Blue like the ocean

Miscommunication

In that no one will ever really know

My potential for loving someone who never seems to show

Why do I always fall for those who leave?

Why do they always end up hurting me?

Miscommunication

I don't know what I know

Everything is so confusing

Everything gets scarier as I grow

Miscommunication

I feel split apart in two

I don't know what I'm doing

I'm trying to reach the old me too

Written on: March 15, 2021