Learn

I'm learning not to trust you

I'm learning to lower my head

In your presence I bow before you

Who holds my secrets and once held my hand

I'm learning that contact

Isn't what it once meant

But I should've known sooner

After all, it's all coming to an end

I'm learning how the Earth does change

The rocks begin shifting

The world tugs at my legs

Tying to get me under it

Swallow like I take in my meds

My mouth open then shuts

When I hear you're coming in

The thought of your eyes that once captured our innocence

Now something I can never seem to look at

Now I learn on my own

Retract when I know you won't show

Unsend and don't speak

Patience is something long gone to me

Series of panics

I learn to handle on my own

The shaking and crying

But you'll never even know

So I learn not to cross

on your side of the street

I learn not to speak

Unless I am spoken to

I learn where to hide

And look to others

Those I don't know

And won't bother to start knowing

I hide in this field

Wheatgrass and all

My pristine shine falling

As the witches carry me off

The ones who called me crazy

Told me I would bring harm

Not aware of my issues

And the fact that I could never detach from the haunt

And even as I leave

from this wretched little town

I learn as they whisper

'You were wrong in letting your guard down"

Written on: March 23, 2021