Shop-aholic
☆Faith☆ (A Series Of Poems)
Browse the web
Take in everything you see
The clothes, the jewelry
Everything you hope to one day be
The models that tell you
you'll never be enough
Even if you buy the clothes
You still won't look like them
When my heart begins to beat
It's easier to say spending money will aid me
When push comes to shove, objects can fill in the spots that feel empty
Heart the clothes I like
Add them all to cart
Go to the next website
And repeat it all at once
Yes my eyes tire
The nausea creeps up
But I have to look at everything
One piece is not enough
Buy enough to qualify for free shipping
Buy enough to make the trip to the world wide web worth it
After all, you'll have to wait a month or more for the next splurge
The next available time to scream "fuck it"
Sure I'm being optimistic
Trying to buy sizes that once belonged to me
Even if they arrive and don't fit me
All that matters is that I spent my money
Have something to look forward to
Constantly refresh Shop
Is it coming?
Has it shipped?
It's getting delivered
I have to run out quick
Once it's here, it's a full-on haul
Pictures and pictures
part of a photo-shoot I organize all on my own
A girl finally relaxed
Finally at ease
But within the next few days she is once again empty
Her wallet has flies
Her clothes no longer shine
They've been washed once or twice
They no longer give off the same vibes
So she sits on her bed
She's a self-proclaimed shop-aholic
Earn money to waste it
To believe it'll finally fix the emptiness in her soul
To believe it'll make her shine
Like all those instagram models
And if one article fits too tight
She too will enter a fit
Maybe diet for a day or two
Until she finally decides to quit
In the back of the closet she hangs it up
With the other useless items she spent money on
She cries and cries
Until her tears are no more
Nothing left to shop
No more currency to splurge
What a shame
She wasted all this time on something so trivial
Didn't make her feel better once
Only told her she could possibly feel an ounce better
Completed on: April 2, 2021