I'm the Issue

My mood is somehow never stable

A tear drops from the weakest offence

I never know what's coming

I never know how to protect

everything seems jumbled

Everything seems unclear

The vision they have laid out for me

I don't know how to adhere

And I have so many people

Who can't wait to climb up my skirt

Get deep into my skin to hurt me

Call me words I've already heard

They want to start a conversation

That I'll never allow occur

Even if good intentions

I can't help but have to hurt them first

So even if pretty girl adds me

And can't wait to hear back soon

I can't face her perfection

With a sleazy sad girl attitude

So I leave her on delivered

Leave her on read

I know I'll never get nowhere

But at this point I don't know how to quit

I hurt them all by hurting myself

Cry after cry each night

And the advice that my therapist gives me just turns into a toxic way to win a fight

So I pretend it's all them

Because it's never my intention to harm

But inside I know

that I've been the issue all along

Completed on: April 3, 2021