Submit

12 years have led to this

The simple press of a button

My future is now determined

But is this what I even wanted?

All across those 12 years were words shoved down my throat

I should do this and I should do that

And I should amount to what everyone says I should without doubt

And with 2 hours that remain is that what I truly amount to?

Continue to meet everyone's expectation

I should do this and I should do that

But what if I never wanted to in the first place

Thinking I'd grow up to be an Einstein, when I'm just an average Joe

And not even in a negative way, I'm just not the person I thought I'd become

And maybe I was never meant for greatness

Maybe I wasn't meant to be an Ivy League kid

Maybe I just end up at state level

Why do I have to take that as a diss?

So no need to hit submit

On an application I didn't even try on

One that I don't care for

One that someone says I was meant for

Because I'm only meant for my own dreams

And surprisingly they don't align with Stanford

Or Dartmouth, or Swarthmore, or even University of San Francisco

I won't be hitting submit

This is not what I know I was meant for

Written on: January 4, 2022