Chapter 123 — On the Ship
Hokuou Kizoku to Moukinzuma no Yukiguni Karigurashi
Interlude â Aina and Emmerichâs Snow Country Hunting Life
Finally, I was to return to Aina-chanâs village.
I am extremely nervous.
I wrote to Ritz-kun and Aina-chanâs mother that I am alright, but I still was restless.
It seems that her grandfather lost his fangs, but even now I end up trembling just from thinking about that.
Aina-chan was receiving abuse. Because she was being pen pals with someone like me.
Her grandfather wanted to marry his granddaughter to someone he accepted. Then, I snatched her away. It might be natural that he gets angry.
However, I think hitting Aina-chan is too much.
The more I thought about that, the more I felt sorry for her, and the more I censured myself.
Ritz-kun said, âBergholm family has a complicated situation and context, so donât hastily rule someone as bad.â
Those were the only words that helped me.
When I meet him in person, I wish to introduce myself properly.
On the ship going to the village, I thought of such things.
Indeed. We were going back to Ritz-kunâs village.
We got a private room, and were spending the trip leisurely.
Aina-chan was spending the time sewing.
Since I couldnât do anything, I stared at her work diligently.
Rossa approached me while meowing.
She rubbed against me, in a rare moment.
I wonder if she might be trying to cheer me up from my depression. What a kind cat. Iâm touched.
When I lifted her and tried to hug her, she extended her legs and refused.
I got shocked.
At least she didnât pull her claws out.
Aina-chan approached and said, âRossa might be hungry.â
Ah, right. I seeâ¦â¦
The cat food is in my bag. She was demanding me to prepare quickly.
As Rossa-sanâs âLifetime Feederâ, I put dried vegetables and fish on a plate.
I stared at Rossa as she chomped down on the food.
I told her to eat slowly.
While I was staring off absentmindedly, someone tapped my shoulder lightly.
ââ¦â¦Hey, is something wrong?â
â!â
Is Aina-chan worrying for me this time? She was staring at me like Rossa was.
âFor some reason, your expression is grim from a while ago, you know?â
âR-Really?â
âRealy.â
Iâll be energised if you rub against me! Of course I couldnât say that, so I smiled cheerfully and told her that sheâs imagining it.
What should I say. Iâm scared of getting disliked by her, so I could not yet tell her my true feelings nor reach out for her.
I have no excuses to offer even if I am called an idiot.
However, sheâs only 17.
â¦â¦Iâm 28. From her viewpoint, I am an old guy.
Really, I pondered many times if she really was alright with me.
Low confidence is an incurable disease of mine.
Furthermore, what worries me is whether Iâll be able to hunt well in the village.
I donât know how to hunt, nor do I know etiquette.
Maybe I can find work at the fort?
No, thatâs under the jurisdiction of the army so I canât.
Could someone like me really be with such a cute girl. I felt sorry.
âAre you feeling unwell?â
â!â
While I was lost in thought, worrying, Aina-chan laid her hand on my forehead.
I flinched out of surprise.
âNo, Iâm well.â
âThen what is it? Youâre acting weird from a while ago.â
ââ¦â¦Iâm nervous.ân/ô/vel/b//in dot c//om
âWhy?â
âIâm uneasy about many things.â
I shouldnât be saying such things, but when Aina-chan asked my thoughts came flooding out.
Could she have thought of me as an untrustworthy person?
She had her eyes wide open and stared at me.
âWhat are you uneasy about?â
âLiving in the village, work, Aina-chanâs grandfather.â
âyou were worried about such things?â
âEh!?â
It seems like the things I had been agonising over were of no big deal to her.
I was surprised.
Aina-chan touched my hands which were on my lap.
The moment they touched, my heart skipped a bit.
When I looked at her face, she was smiling.
It was a serene expression that was consoling me.
âDonât worry. Itâs alright.â
Aina-chan spoke to me.
She told me to leave things regarding daily life to her.
Regarding interacting with other villagers, she too is not used to it, so she said that we should strive together.
About work, she told me that hunting is not everything.
Recently, there are merchants that buy handicrafts at high prices, so a normal life could be led if we tried hard.
There seems to quite a lot of work, such as at the port or at stores.
In winter, there are also people who go to the cities to earn money.
She told me that thereâs not only one way.
âSo, donât act strangely.â
âYes. Thank you, thank you.â
About hunting, Ritz-kun said that heâll teach me.
I have no leisure to say that I am scared of bucking deers. To protect my life with Aina-chan, I have to do my best.
âAina-chan.â
âW-What?â
On her hand which was on one of my hands, I laid the other hand on top.
Then, I told her my true feelings.
âThough I am useless and cannot work enough for a man, but I can confidently say that I love Aina-chan the most in the world.â
âEh?â
What could this âEh!?â mean?
If she didnât hear clearly, I have to say it again.
Itâs very embarrassing, but itâs important so I said it again.
âI love Aina-chan the most in the wâââ
âI did hear that!â
âS-Sorry!â
Th-That scared me! So she did hear.
Then, what could that âEh!?â possibly meanâ¦â¦
Maybe sheâs turned off because I said something âin the worldâ?
I already said it, so thereâs no helping it.
I decided tell it all the way through.
âSo, then, if itâs alright, please marry me!â
I put my forehead to the floor and begged.
This is second proposal.
The first time was when we moved into the countryside and registered the marriage.
However, back then, it was for light confirmation, so shield ourselves from others, so she accepted the forceful proposal with understanding.
But this time, itâs different.
This will be the first and the last time I propose wholeheartedly.
I spent all my courage on today.
What if she refuses, I had not pondered such a thing.
Sometimes, I am frightened about how I get too positive in strange directions.
Now, I could only just wait for Aina-chanâs reply.
ââ¦â¦Ah, raise, your head.â
As she wished, I quickly raised my head and returned to normal.
Aina-chanâs face was bright red.
âErm, about the answer, anytime you want,â
Itâs fine after I become properly accepted into the village.
I just wanted to convey my feelings to her.
However, Aina-chan grabbed my coat hem to stop me.
Without meeting my gaze, she said one sentence.
âI-I am inexperienced, but please take care of me.â
â!â
The moment she said that, I felt as though steam would come out of my head.
To think she agreed to marriage!
While in disbelief, I quickly spoke up.
âIs it really okay!?â
ââ¦â¦Thereâs only you for me.â
â!â
Maybe because Aina-chan was embarrassed too, she quickly went away and turned her back on me.
Ah, even so, I am happy.
Any bit of restlessness that I had flew away in a snap.