【44】 His Confession!!

All the mixed emotions calloused in me when I saw Ruvit walking towards me, under the rain.

"You know, Princess." He murmured, his voice low and seductive.

"You're impossibly beautiful when you're standing like this in front of me." He ran his fingers through his wet hair.

It wasn't supposed to be turn out like this.

His words should not have such a strong impact on me, my body and my emotions.

I should maintain distance from him after knowing about that accident.

However, I can't. I just can't.

One thing is absolutely true, and that's I'm going to hurt him more than myself.

But It's necessary.

I definitely need time to process everything. I can't compromise my whole life with this thing.

Yes, I'm distressed by the proof of that accident sent to my phone by an unknown person.

The same number from which I got a call on Ridhima's marriage.

And as per my assumption, they are the same person who sent me that invitation today in the morning.

I tried so much to find the truth about that accident but I couldn't.

But this person revealed it just like that as if they were the one who erased all the proofs back ago.

It seems like they were protecting it from me all those years to drop a bomb on my love life.

I need to find that person at any cost because I don't want to misunderstand Ruvit.

From the bottom of my heart, I still want this video to be fake but I know it's not.

I don't know what's the purpose of this person but I swear if all this shit is meant to separate me and Ruvit, I won't live them alive.

But for now, I really can't stand it. I can't face Ruvit, knowing that he was involved in the same accident as my grandpa. I need time.

And if leaving away from Ruvit brings me closer to this unknown's secret, then bring it on.

But I should have left by now and here I'm standing giving him one more chance to get rid of my trauma.

I'm such a selfish person. That alone makes me cry. My decision even sucks. My life is a mess.

"Jaan, Will you give me a chance to worship you under the rain?" His gaze softened.

Worship? Under the rain? Seems like “sex in rain” to me.

But again, who am I judging? It's Ruvit Rathore after all, he won't ever lust over me.

Definition of his love says, ‘Worship the woman you love.’

And his way of worshipping is no less than that of any devotee.

My head moved automatically to grant him the permission.

Instead of walking closer to me as I expected from him, he moved back inside the house.

My body trembled again as a realisation hit me.

I wasn't trembling, I wasn't fearing the rain under Ruvit's gaze on me.

And as soon as his gaze averted, I started trembling.

Is my body really getting so much affected by his eyes alone?

His muscular well built body came in my view again, with a sweet melody breaking behind him.

As soon as his eyes fixated on me, my body filled with excitement and reassurance, numerous butterflies blooming in my stomach.

yeh raatein, yeh mausam,

nadi ka kinara,

yeh chanchal hawa.

The song started and with each passing beat of my heart, I realised him walking closer to me.

His song choice exactly matches our current surroundings.

Ruvit then grabbed my right hand. Keeping it on his shoulder, he circled my back with his right hand.

His other hand intertwined with my free hand as we moved in rhythm with the lyrics.

yeh raatein, yeh mausam,

nadi ka kinara,

yeh chanchal hawa.

His eyes met mine with our body pressed against each other under the rain, darkness of the night surrounding us.

The thought of catching a cold isn't my concern for now because all I have to do is, get rid of this trauma.

kaha do dilo ne ki mil kar

kabhi na honge kabhi hum juda

Ruvit made me spin before pulling me against his back.

The feeling of his bare chest with his dampened hoodie I'm wearing is intoxicating.

yeh raatein, yeh mausam,

nadi ka kinara,

yeh chanchal hawa.

He made me swirl once again but this time he picked me up.

My grip on his shoulder tightened as if he was my anchor.

Our nose brushed as my feet landed back on the ground.

ye kya baat hain aaj ki

chandani mein

ki hum kho gaye

pyaar ki raagini mein

If anyone had noticed us, they would have say, Dancing is our Love Language.

Because our every special moment holds a dance.

I clearly remember how Ruvit used to say that he doesn't like dancing. But for me, he did everything.

ye baaho mein baahein,

ye behki nigaahein,

lo aane laga zindagi ka maza.

Droplets of rain ascended down Ruvit's forehead, taking my breath away.

He left my hand after doing a dance step and dropped on his knees in front of me.

yeh raatein, yeh mausam,

nadi ka kinara,

yeh chanchal hawa.

"I don't know what people says about Love. But for me, it's just a stage of life." He said, looking straight in my soul.

What does it even mean?

His words, sounding low and gentle, made the song fade away.

All I can do is hear his breathing and my fast heartbeat. The song is still playing but my whole attention is on this man.

His hand reached to my feet, making me shift backward all of a sudden.

My hand automatically went to his shoulder as I stumbled on my words, "What are you doing?"

"Touching my Ardhangini's feet, what's wrong with that?" He tilted his head.

The rain water cascaded down his body, making him look like a servant asking for apologies from his master.

I kept that thought aside before I start laughing.

A smile break on Ruvit's face but ut wasn't charming, it was sad yet enough to melt my heart.

He took my hand and planted his soft wet lips on there.

"Stand up, Ruvit. You will get your trousers dirty." I stated a fact.

"Should I remove them too?" Was his only reply.

Sorry to say that, your highness.

This guy really knows what to say and when.

"Let's get serious here, Jaan. I'm going to say a lot right now. Just hear me out." He sounded serious.

I slightly nodded, curiosity getting over me.

“Dilkash or Attraction is the first stage of my life, which I feel for you every time I hear your melodious voice and see your divine beauty. It also represents the day of our first meeting, memorable and special and beautiful. However, it all started the day when I heard your voice without knowing your identity and your face. I literally changed my school and city for you after that, Jaan. But when you came into my sight, I just got mesmerized by your looks, not knowing you were the same girl whose voice made me crazy. I thought I fell for two different girls at the same time but those two girl were the same person, you.”

"Wha—" I interrupted, ignoring all the giddy feelings taking over me.

"Shh, I'm speaking na."

Ohh, I'm a goner for his dominant side.

Though I don't know when he heard my voice and even fell for it, I can't help with the butterflies.

I thought that bumping scene of us, where he acted like a weirdo was our first meet.

But it seems like before that, Ruvit was familiar with my voice but not my face. And later on, he fell for both.

“Uns or Attachment is the second stage. I am infatuated to you so much that I can't survive a day without you. It remarks on our friendship and all the beautiful memories we have ever made. Your friendship was everything I could ever ask for. Imagine being the best friend of the girl you have fallen for. And yeah, It was never a crush. From the very first day, I was crystal clear about my feelings for you. Now, I have just become an inseparable part of you. I don't care what our destiny says. I don't even care if we are not meant to be soulmates, I'm yours till the eternity.”

I gasped at his confession, tears of happiness mixing with the rain.

No. No. No. I can't melt right now.

“The third stage is Ishq or Love that I have been craving from the day we got separated. I never expected anything from you any day, I just kept loving you selflessly. It was Love which kept me alive all those years when I couldn't see you. It is Love which gives me hope to live for you. It will be Love that will remain forever between us. And You are the only Love of my Life till death do us apart. Although dying for you is underrated, I will happily end my life if it keeps you happy. But never forget, my soul will always remain near you. So, My Love is all yours. I Love you today and forever, Meri Jaan.”

Tell me! Tell me! TELL ME SOMETHING MORE BEAUTIFUL THAN THIS.

I won't be able to control myself like this.

But this man decided to confess today when my mind is already mess.

He will make my heartbeat fail at this rate.

“The fourth stage; that is Akidat or Trust. I have devoted my whole life to you since our first meet. I'm yours without any doubt. My loyalty belongs to you. You will never ever have to question it. To understand you, support you, trust you and always believe in you are the principles of my life. I will never let this trust break between us. You can trust me to let me become your friend you can share everything with, your husband you can rely on and your life partner who is dedicated for you. You can trust me with every inch of yourself to be safe for the rest of our lives. Your heart, Your body, Your soul are all safe with me.”

Ohh my poor heart. I can't really stand it now.

What else a woman need other than these?

His eyes bored into mine as his lips grazed my hand.

“Ibadat or Worship is the fifth stage. Emotionally, Mentally, Physically and Spiritually, I'm yours. You were the only woman I ever desired and you are the only one I need, I love and want to worship like a Goddess for the rest of my life. You are the Laxmi of my Home, Sita of my Life, Saraswati of my Knowledge, Radha-Rukmini of my Love and Body, Parvati of my Soul. You are the only woman God gave me eyes for. You are the one and only for me. If you aren't with me, I don't need anyone else. But I will make sure I'm with you every time. I want to spend the rest of my life with you as My Ardhangini.”

If this isn't a proposal then tell me what is?

I'm a human. But he wants to worship me like a Goddess.

What else can I ask for? Nothing, I can't be more selfish.

“The sixth stage comprises Passion, Obsession, Madness, Addiction, Possession or anything you name it. The reason of my fast heartbeat is you. I'm addicted to you to the point where I think no one deserves to breathe the same air you breathe. I am mad enough to end any man who dares to touch you. Without you, I will bring cataclysm to the world. If you are not happy, I make sure you smile. If you are crying, I make sure to end the reason even if it includes me. Release your demons in my darkness and just enjoy how I end them. Your emotions, expressions, words, your everything influences me to the extent I'm ready to burn down the world. You are mine. Your everything is mine — whether happiness or sadness — I accept the way you are.”

The tears fall aimlessly from my eyes at the way his eyes are shining with sincerity under the moonlight, mixed with little droplets of rain.

“The last and seventh stage is Maut or Death. With you, I don't think my soul will ever find salvation. Rather, my soul with roam with yours making sure no one gets to hurt you. Because this topic is sensitive for you, I won't say more. But after our deaths, let's meet in another life, hm?”

Bending down, I pressed my lips on his.

If he can do so much for me, I don't deserve to hurt him.

I will let my demons reach him and will enjoy the sight of him ending each one of them, just as he said.

But for now, we have to separate...

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