GUN'S POV
I finally had my invites ready for the opening of my coffee shop and I was contacting my friends if I could drop by their places and hand them the invites or at least leave it at their places...
I left after lunch and decided to head to the coffee shop first before dropping the invites to my friends, everything is all set... I felt happy, finally the hard days back then are worth it. I left some instructions to the staff that was fixing the interior and decided to start delivering the invites. I could just send them through a courier but I wanna make sure that it will arrive to them, I won't be inviting a lot for the opening anyway plus I'd also be posting on social media for those who wants to go.
I was almost done delivering the invite and Off is the last one in the list, he wasn't supposed to be last but he was in a meeting a while ago and he just got back home a few minutes ago... I messaged him that I was already at the lobby when he called the lobbyist to tell me to go up to his unit. I was confused with that because I told him I was just dropping off the invite and I do not intend to stay, it's getting late.
"Off?"Â I said when I knocked at his door
"Gun come inside, the door is open"Â Off yelled from inside
I went inside and realized he was inside the shower... Oh...
"Off I just went here to drop off the invite, I'll just leave it here on the table?"Â I asked
"No, wait for me, I ordered some food, have dinner here"Â He said again
I sat down on his sofa and waited for him to finish taking a shower. I didn't want to have dinner here but Pim messaged me that she won't also be having dinner at home plus I'd be stuck in traffic and I wouldn't probably find a decent restaurant to eat at.
"Let's just wait for the food, I asked for it to be delivered"Â Off said as he walked out of the bathroom.
"Yeah, here's the invite"Â I said as I handed him the small envelope
"I'm so excited! I'm proud Gun"Â He said as his phone rang
He went downstairs to pick up the food he ordered for us and I patiently waited for him... We had dinner and he was awfully quiet and I could tell he is either stressed or something is bothering him...
"Hey, if something is bothering you, you can tell me too"Â I said
"It's just stuff... or maybe everything... I don't know, you're already dealing with stuff I don't wanna burden you"Â He said as he took a tub of ice cream from the fridge
"I'm willing to listen"Â I said
He was silent for a little while until he gave me a spoon and finally started talking...
"I didn't came back to the acting industry because I want to... I'm just really scared of a lot stuff lately... like anxiety... I don't know, all the uncertainties are getting to me. I came back to the industry because it was easy money, I felt like I was not being a good son to my mom when I cut down on the money I share with her... Acting is easy money, you get paid every project you make."Â He said and paused for a while
"I felt like I was running out of time Gun... It was the anxious thoughts driving me like this but I couldn't help it. I wanted so much but I couldn't have it all"Â He said giving me a small smile after.
"I get your point Off, I know how it feels. It's terrible but you are doing so well and you're not running out of time, you have a lot of it. It's your life, whatever is happening in your life is either teaching you something or about to give you something"Â I said.
"Thank You Gun, you're the only person I can talk to, you're like a safe space for me, that's why I felt really bad when you avoided me"Â He said bringing that back up.
"Sorry, I was sooo shy"Â I said giggling
"I thought you're going back to the cold Gun I had to bare with for months just to pass"Â He said...
flashback to the phase when Gun was being that cold hearted senior to Off
THIRD PERSON'S POV
Gun being friends with Off wasn't really that instant friendship thingy. Gun was still hesitant that it might cause him troubles but he shrugged it off and decided not to be the friendly Gun Atthaphan everybody knows.
It was their designated first filming day, Gun being in control of it asked Off to come on time and decided to be late for a little just to see if Off would actually be on time. He arrived at the park their supposed to meet at around 20 minutes late...
"Hey sorry I was late"Â Gun casually said like he was used to it that way
"It's fine"Â Off said as he stood up from the bench he was seating on
"We're shooting a bunch of montages today right?" Gun asked Off
"Yep, here's the outline and script"Â Off said handing it to him
"Hold it, I'll go set up camera"Â Gun said as he put his earphones on
The day passed with very minimal conversation. Off was scared to talk to Gun because he might annoy him or piss him off so he kept quiet while Gun was being cold to him to let him know that he's in control of everything and that nothing goes wrong with Gun Atthaphan.
Shooting days passed by with them busy with their own lives as well, until one day something came up with Off's schedule that conflicted with their planned shooting days.
over the phone
"Gun, I'm sorry, I wouldn't make it. I have to do some promotion stuff for my clothing line today, I'll make it up to you"Â Off said on the other line
"This is what I told you right? These things will get in the way"Â Gun said hanging up on Off
The whole day Off was trying to contact Gun but he was pissed enough not to answer the calls and continue shooting on his own. He covered for everything that Off has to do that day that's why Gun got home a little late.
Gun sighed as he walked inside the house, he was bracing himself for the additional emotional trauma his dad was about to give him when he finally reached the stairs he saw his dad at the top and started pointing out everything he has done wrong again. That sparked fuel inside him, he was mad at Off for missing that day.
Every time they shoot, Gun seems to be having a mood colder and worst than the past days... This filming day, he was too cold and he was wearing his glasses, though he try to hide it, Off saw how puffy his eyes were...
"If you're not in a good mood we can cancel today"Â Off said
"No."Â Gun replied coldly
"Your eyes are swollen Gun, maybe you need some rest"Â Off insisted being worried with the other.
"Stop it. I'm fine"Â Gun said.
Little did Off know everything was actually going downhill with Gun... but what Gun shows is that he's just in a bad mood and he has to finish the project. It has been almost 2 weeks since Off wasn't going to university but then he decided to continue filming the project for a day or two until things got in the way again.
back to present time
"Geez, those day were the days I wished I could just disappear, sorry, I was really terrible back then"Â Gun said remembering those days with Off
"It's fine tho it was funny how we've been pulling on each other's schedule back then"Â Off said.
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