GUN'S POV
I woke up with a terrible headache. I couldn't remember much last night, I had another breakdown. I don't even know how I got home. I searched for my phone when I realized that I was still wearing my clothes from yesterday, I checked on my phone and found a message.
Off Tumcial
Hey
Rough Night?
Eat when you wake up and drink painkillers for the hang-over.
Being still light headed with my breakdown drinking spree from last night... I ignored the messages and went to the shower. I tried to remember what I have for today and I remembered I need new ideas for my coffee shop. I decided to leave the house once again, I also like to look for some condo that I might be able to afford in the near future so that I could move out but still be near ofcourse.
"Gun you're leaving again?"Â Grandma asked as I was grabbing my water bottle from the fridge.
"Yeah. Work stuff"Â I said
"Can we talk a little? We haven't really talked since you came back"Â She said.
I put down my water bottle and I sat down across her in the dining table.
"I am so proud of you Gun"Â She said as she reached for my hand
"Thank you Grandma"Â I said as I was trying to fight a few tears.
"Can you take this day off? I wanna spend some time with you"Â She said.
How could I say no to the woman who made me feel like I was valid when I was drained out of every motivation I had in life? Also, she took care of me and Pim when our own parents couldn't.
"Sure"Â I said putting my stuff down.
"No. I want to go out with you, remember that ice cream shop I used to bring you and Pim and all your other cousins? They renovated, let's check it out"Â She said
I immediately nodded and took my stuff and got ready to leave. I drove to that ice cream shop that meant so much to us. Grandma often fought all her children just to fetch us from school and over feed us ice cream and when we would get sick, she'd also be the one taking care of us.
The ice cream shop used to have rainbows and all bright colors all over. As I walked in it's like a home but it also feels weird they had it all redone. It was now an ice cream shop that is inspired by the outer space. The rainbows became constellations, the hanging candies and unicorns became planets. I would not deny tho, it is very beautiful. My grandma and I ordered ice creams and she sat on that corner where a moon hangs right above it.
"Ice cream on the moon Gun?"Â She said and I sat down with her.
When our ice creams arrived, it was a few moments of silence until she starts speaking.
"Gun, how are you doing?"Â She asked me seriously
"I-I'm doing well Grandma"Â I said and gave her a small smile
"Oh come on, I can see through your eyes Gun, something is bothering you... Also, getting really drunk? Thank the gods, Off Jumpol is a decent man, he even gave me an autograph!"Â Grandma said which shocked me
"You're a fan of him? He's a friend of mine"Â I said
"Yeah, but don't change the topic, everything okay Gun? Pim told me your parents wanted to have dinner"Â She said
She knows everything that happened with me and my dad and how it ruined me and my mental health...
"Yeah, I'm just scared"Â I said, but the truth is I'm terrified.
"Gun, you need to forgive them, they are still your parents after all, when all else fails, it's all you have, I raised you better than that. Things may have hurted you, but I think going back home here, you have to be at peace, you have to move forward, because it will keep hurting you if you don't."Â She said.
"But I don't know how to face them, I'm scared"Â I said as tears escaped.
It all became a clear picture to me now, like an open wound that has been poured with alcohol. It all scares me and hurts me so much.
"No one is too broken to be fixed, son. The answers are all within you."Â She said as she hugged me.
Instead of doing my work somewhere else. I decided to lock myself up in my room thinking about all of it making work stuff as my distraction.
A few days past without me noticing, I was ignoring everyone's calls except for my staff for my soon to be cafe. I also gave Tay the cold replies. I just spent most of my time thinking and crying about the things over and over again like it has become my personal hell loop. Grandma took a vacation to Pattaya, so I don't really know how to move forward and how to fix me.
I decided to go out tonight. Not drinking but to find peace of mind in my favorite place. I decided to go to my spot, when Leen actually approched me.
"P'Gun, there's someone looking for you, he has been coming back here for days"Â She said
With puffy eyes I looked up to her and decided to follow her.
"What are you doing here?"Â I asked Off as I saw him there, trying to avoid the eye contact since my eyes screams sadness and pain at the moment
"I was worried, I know I'd find you here one of these days, I guess I found you?"Â He said.
"Leen he's with me"Â I said and walked back to my spot.
I sat in silence as he sat beside me, I stared blankly on the view as my tears started falling again, every memory is like played on repeat.
I felt Off wiped my tears away with his handkerchief and I looked at him, he pulled on my arm a little and the next thing I know is that I was a total mess crying at him while he was hugging and comforting me. We sat like that for almost half an hour until I finally got tired.
"Off I'm sorry, I'll replace your hanky"Â Â I said as I pulled away from him
"It's fine. You can talk to me Gun, what's wrong?"Â He asked.
"It's everything... I guess"Â He sat in silence waiting for me until I was ready to talk
"Almost 4 year ago, I decided to leave... before the decision I made, my life was total chaos. I turned ice cold to you remember...."
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Note: sorry for the typographical errors in this story, I do not proofread.