Pain has become a familiar sensation yet nothing prepares me for the agony of having a large, thick iron nail hammered through the center of my left palm. I scream, arching my back off the water-logged stone floor in an attempt to twist away but as soon as I move, Paul drops down and presses his knee to the middle of my chest.
âAh-ah,â he says. âWhat did I tell you about struggling?â
âPlease,â I sob, losing myself to the hot, pulsing agony that radiates down my arm. âPlease, I canât tell you what I donât l know!â
Paul scoffs and adjusts his position to grab my other hand. I immediately attempt to curl in on myself to hide my hand from the same agony but Paul is stronger. He wrenches my arm away from my body, shifting his knee from my chest to my wrist. Pinned down, thereâs nothing I can do as he forces my hand flat, presses the tip of the second nail against my palm, and hammers it through.
Searing, burning pain rips through my hand and every instinct left inside me demands I move away from the pain but I canât. Even the slightest movement radiates biting agony through my hands and up my forearms. Thereâs nothing left for me to do but cry.
The tears pour fast and hot down my raw cheeks. Iâm surprised I even have any tears left to shed, considering how long Iâve been here. In the beginning, when Paul stripped me naked and beat me with a cane, I tried not to cry. I wanted to show that I was strong, and he didnât scare me, but he wore me down pretty quickly. Torture is nothing like Iâve seen in the movies. I expected to be left alone in darkness, beaten a few times, and have someone yelling in my face, but itâs not like that at all.
Itâs constant. Paul is always there, taking his time to slice an unknown pattern into my back until nothing exists there but fire and pain. He caresses my cheek then in the same movement, dunks my head into a bucket of ice-cold water, holding me there until Iâve taken in a lungful of liquid. He broke my wrist by stamping on it repeatedly after he threatened to fuck me with a rusty rail spike and I bit him on the neck. The only reason he hasnât, in his words, is that he can still sell whatâs between my legs if I donât tell him what he wants to know.
Iâve been beaten, cut, drowned, locked in a frozen room then smothered under a cloth and scalding hot water, had bones broken and flesh split.
I still canât tell him what he wants to know because I donât know. Iâve never known.
He simply doesnât believe me.
âBrooke,â Paul says, grasping my bruised face and digging his fingers painfully into my swollen jaw. âWhat part of this is not getting through to you? All you need to do is tell me where the drugs are, and all of this will stop.â
Blood floods through my mouth from where my teeth sunk into the back of my tongue the last time he punched me. I try to gather it and spit it in his face but I lack the energy. Instead, the blood drools out of my mouth and mingles with my tears.
âI keep telling you,â I say around his embedded fingers. âI donât know.â
âAnd I know youâre bullshitting me,â Paul replies. He retracts his hand and grabs me by the throat, pulling me up a few inches from the floor. Doing so causes my hands to pull against the nails embedded in them, and I scream as white-hot agony sears through my palms.
âI donât know!â I shout in his face. âI donât know! I donât! How many times do I have to tell you? I donât fucking know!â
Paul snarls in disgust and releases me, the back of my head bouncing against the stone floor. I close my eyes, weeping softly as my entire body throbs.
I wish for death.
I have no idea where anyone else is. The only light in my infinite darkness is that I know Paul doesnât have my daughter. If he did, heâd be using her against me to get his answers. I would make up so much shit and have him running in circles just to keep her safe.
âYouâre making things so much more difficult on yourself,â Paul says, walking away from me. âIâve been kind, donât you think? I could have had every guard in this place fucking you until your hips broke but I chose not to. Because Iâm a nice guy.â
Iâd laugh if I had the energy.
âOf course, thatâs ultimately where youâre going to end up. Because one way or another, I will get the money Iâm owed.â
âDo it,â I gurgle through a mouthful of blood. âCanât tell you what I donât know.â
âYouâre so stubborn over something that is worth nothing to you,â Paul says. âAre you thinking you can sell that shit if you ever get out of here? You wonât make anywhere near seven hundred and fifty thousand.â
Opening my eyes, I look at Paul through a foggy haze. Heâs obsessed with that number. A combination of the drugs stolen and what he claims is damages, rounding the total amount to seven hundred and fifty thousand dollars. If Iâve learned anything from Leon, that amount is pocket change, so why does he care so much?
âIâd m-make more than you,â I say, my voice trembling. âWhy do you care so damn much about that particular number? Surely you make triple that in a single weekend.â
âWeâre not here to talk about what I do,â Paul mutters, walking away from me. It reminds me of Ant when he wants to avoid a subject. Finally, in a single stroke of light, it hits me.
âYouâre not a big fish, are you?â
âWhat?â
âYou. I thought you were a big fish but youâre not. Youâre nothing more than a minnow. Youâre a fucking weasel with no future, chasing something that doesnât exist because seven hundred and fifty thousand is a lot to you. If you were a big deal in charge, that number wouldnât mean anything.â A wheezing laugh escapes my throat as Paul advances back to me.
He drops down onto his knees and grabs one of the nails embedded in my hands. When he twists it, my laughter turns to weakened screams of pain and I attempt to turn away from him. He grabs my jaw and brings his face close.
âYouâre not laughing now, are you bitch?â he spits. âThis is your last chance. Iâve been plenty fucking patient but this is the end. Tell me where you stashed the drugs, or tomorrow Iâll sell you to the highest bidder, and the last thing youâll see before I burn your fucking eyes out is my cock, understand?â
I fight through the haze to look him in the eye.
Iâm powerless.
Weak.
I donât know how long Iâve been here.
Rescue isnât coming. I have no idea what happened to Leon.
I can only take refuge in the fact that Tiffany is somewhere safe, miles away from here.
This is my end.
âYou think Iâll be able to see something that small?â I croak.
With a roar of rage, Paul slams my head down against the floor and a flash of white bursts across my vision. It dazes me so intensely that the pain in my hands almost fades until Paul tears the nails free, and something snaps like a band inside my hand. Numbness spreads through my fingers, and with it comes a cold curl of dread in my gut.
It will be over soon.
My body is limp as Paul leaves and guards take his place. They scrape me off the floor and I close my eyes, willing darkness to take me. In the beginning, theyâd prevent me from sleeping in an attempt to drive me insane with exhaustion, but eventually, the lack of food, water, and constant pain had me passing out regularly. My only solace was in the darkness, and I silently beg for it now as Iâm dragged from the room, my hair tickling my bare shoulders and my hands throbbing in time to my sluggish heartbeat.
The floor blurs and walls fade in and out of focus before Iâm thrown onto a hard, dry floor. A grunt escapes me on impact and I lay there as a door slams behind me. I close my eyes.
Please let me pass out. Please.
âBrâ¦â Something croaks beside me and I flinch, expecting another touch of pain but it doesnât come.
âB-Brookeâ¦â
I know that voice.
My head snaps up with alarming speed. I blink away the fog clouding my vision to look at the man heavily chained to the wall.
âLeon?â
Though heâs seated on the floor, his arms are chained to the wall above his sagging head with blood running like a river down both of his forearms. His chest is covered in a myriad of bruises, cuts, and lacerations, all of which have bled freely over his body. Thereâs a terrifying dark shadow over one side of his ribcage, and one leg protrudes at an odd angle, his knee and ankle swollen and dark. Heâs naked, just like me, and when he lifts his head, I glimpse a head wound along his hairline thatâs so deep I can see white bone.
âOh my godâ¦â My own pain is momentarily forgotten as I climb onto my hands and knees, only to fall flat on my face as the numbness in my left hand makes its presence known. I canât feel the last three fingers on that hand. I glance down and my stomach roils. The fresh wounds in each palm are red and angry, leaving smears of blood on the floor as I attempt to get up once again.
âBrooke,â Leon wheezes like air passing through a paper bag. âIâm so sorry.â
âShhh.â I hush him the best I can as I reach him, and for a moment my focus becomes the manacles around his wrists. Unfortunately, my hands are struggling to obey me and weakness pulses through my limbs with each rising beat of my heart. Torn nails and numb fingers make my attempts to free him utterly useless, and I sag against his broken body.
âIâm sorry,â I gasp. âI canât, I canât get theâ ââ
âYour hands,â Leon croaks. âWhat did he do to you?â
As I slump against him, I realize Iâm resting against his injured chest. Thereâs a voice telling me to move, that Iâm likely causing him pain, but the sudden connection of skin-on-skin contact acts like the first hit of a drug. Heâs warmâsort ofâand familiar. The moment Iâm against him, I have no energy to move anywhere else.
âHeâs m-mad,â I say, swallowing down the next mouthful of blood. âLeon, I thought you were dead. Or thatâ¦â
A sudden fear goes unsaid. I had no idea what happened to Leon. But when I woke up here alone, knowing how he made his money, I feared he had shipped me off to the Irish in a rage. After all, he sold people. Why would I be any different?
âOr what?â Leon murmurs. âItâs s-so good to hear your voice. Pleaseâ¦â
âI thought maybe you sold me,â I whisper, turning my face into his chest. Heat radiates from his injuries in an oddly comforting way.
âNever,â he croaks. âNever you. Iâd neverâ ââ
âBut you do,â I point out. âYou sell people into shit like this, donât you?â Lifting my head, our eyes meet and it hits me that Leonâs face is so swollen that only one eye can look at me. âPaul keeps threatening to fuck me and Iâ ââ
âYou r-really wanna talk about my b-business decisions right now?â Leon wheezes softly, as if trying to laugh but it doesnât come out right.
âNo,â I admit weakly. âBut you wanted to hear my voice.â
âDo you think about the cows and chickens you eat?â he asks as his brows pull together in pain.
âI⦠no.â
âI t-trained myself to look at my familyâs work the same way,â he wheezes. âNot excusing anything just⦠trying to explain⦠now we are the chickens.â
My eyes droop, his words washing over me but barely settling in my mind. I collapse down until my head is in Leonâs lap and I curl myself in. âIâm s-sorry,â I whisper weakly. âI canât save us.â
âIâll save us,â Leon says and itâs the strongest his voice has sounded since I arrived. âIâll save you, Brooke.â
I cling to that promise as darkness takes me and the pain fades away into nothing.
Darkness is bliss. Maybe itâs the closeness to Leon but for the first time in however long weâve been here, I dream of Tiffany and the estate. I watch her run around the garden chasing the ladybug she loves. Sheâs laughing and giggling until she darts behind a bush and I lose sight of her. Suddenly, the garden grows cold and Paul melts out of the bush with a cold smirk on his face.
âShould have told me where the drugs are,â he sneers.
I jolt awake with a weak cry, and pain wracks my body. Iâm no longer next to Leon. Instead, Iâm between two men who are half carrying, half dragging me through a doorway into yet another cold room. They throw me to the ground and I land hard on the stone. My shoulders are too stiff to save me from impact.
âBrooke!â Leonâs voice brings me to full consciousness and I bite hard on my tongue against the pain as I pull myself up and glance around. Leon is to my left, staring at me as he takes a blow from the butt of an assault rifle.
âIâm okay,â I murmur, blinking sluggishly.
âAre you?â comes Paulâs voice, pulling my attention to the center of the room where he stands next to another man. My eyes widen in shock when my gaze meets the eyes of the other man, my stomach twisting with sickness.
âAnt?â I gasp. âWhat are you doing here?â