Chapter 579: Chapter 578: 552: Taking the Blame and Determination

“Having a nightmare?” Yu Minglang hugged her shoulders and placed his hand on her chest, where a restless heart resided due to the nightmare.

“Hmm, it’s okay, it will be better in a few days.”

“What did you dream about?” He had just watched her ponder the question, and saw her tossing and turning, with a pained expression on her face. He hadn’t had time to wake her up, but she had awoken on her own.

When Xiao Qian first woke up, her expression was as pained as possible, making his heart ache unbearably.

“Nothing, I’ve forgotten it. Let’s go back to sleep.” Xiao Qian’s gaze was evasive; she didn’t want to discuss this topic.

“Xiao Mei…”

“Hmm?”

“Can you still not trust me completely?” It had been so long, and he still couldn’t get Xiao Mei to trust him completely?

“People need space, even the closest people need their own space.”

Xiao Qian’s words made Yu Minglang purse his lips, but he didn’t say anything further.

He thought he knew what to do.

After that night, Yu Minglang still took care of the housework as usual, but Xiao Qian felt that something was off about him.

Perhaps he had become more silent, and the balcony had become his thinking spot. Xiao Qian remembered that when they first started dating, he had said that when they decorate their new house in the future, they would have a thinking room in the house.

At the time, she thought he was joking, but now it seemed like they might need such a place indeed.

In the past few years they had been dating, they had never had a long vacation and so much time together like they do now. It was the first time Xiao Qian saw Yu Minglang’s silent side. When he first started thinking this way, she still wanted to give him enough thinking time and independent space.

This situation continued until the 3rd day; Xiao Qian felt that they couldn’t go on like this anymore.

Yu Minglang’s game of Silence of the Lambs had lasted more than three days, and her nightmares were getting worse each time.

She wanted to have a good talk with Yu Minglang after the meeting.

The weekly meeting is an unavoidable important moment for graduate students. When Xiao Qian arrived, the seats were already full, except for the two empty seats in the middle. The one in the center was reserved for the big boss, Professor Liu, and the one next to the big boss was for Xiao Qian.

If Xiao Qian didn’t come, no one would dare sit in that position because it was the closest to big boss Professor Liu. Usually, the first one to report at the meeting would be here. Professor Liu had an attitude of treating whoever was close to her harshly, always using the people around her as scapegoats.

This was precisely why Boss Qian was perfect; even with the big boss’s strict demands, she could hardly find any faults in her. Anyone else would have collapsed long ago.

There was only one graduate student led by big boss: Xiao Qian. The other few mentors were PhD students, and the rest of the people followed the young bosses.

Xiao Qian glanced at the empty seat of the big boss and asked the melon-faced girl next to her, “Xiao Cha, where is the big boss?”

The girl sitting next to her, Lu Xiaocha, was a graduate student led by the young boss. She was a foodie with a round apple face and big eyes, liked to stuff her cheeks with food until they were puffed out, and carried a small bag filled with various snacks.

“I heard she has something to do, so she won’t be coming. Boss Qian, let’s go to the buffet together at noon. There’s a delicious hot pot buffet just opened at the school gate.” The daily routine of a foodie is all about what to eat and where to eat.

“Not today, I have something to do.” Xiao Qian glanced at Professor Liu’s empty seat, guessing that she had gone to treat someone.

She asked Yu Minglang to pick her up after the group meeting, and by then, she should have a good talk with him.

At this moment, the big boss was indeed treating someone, but this “consultee” was quite special.

“Ming Lang, what brings you here?”

Yu Minglang sat on Auntie Liu’s sofa, looking a bit serious.

“Auntie Liu, do people in your profession keep patients’ information strictly confidential?”

“Yes. are you having any issues? Don’t tease me. Don’t you have regular psychological evaluations?”

Professor Liu received Yu Minglang’s call on her way to the laboratory and had canceled her trip.

“I have a favor to ask of you. I hope our conversation remains completely confidential and that no one knows, including my fiancée.”

Although he had tried his best to gather information, it was still too little in terms of professional knowledge in this area.

Faced with difficulties, Yu Minglang chose not to evade but to confront the future head-on.

“You really have a problem?” Professor Liu also became serious.

Yu Minglang nodded, “I have pre-marriage phobia. Please tell me what to do.”

“You…?” Professor Liu looked left and right, her eyes filled with doubt.

Yu Minglang nodded without hesitation, “It’s me. I am now filled with uncertainty about marriage and always want to escape from it. I have nightmares every night. Please tell me what to do.”

“To be honest with a psychologist, is it really you?” Professor Liu seemed to understand something as she pushed up her glasses.

“It’s me.”

He couldn’t possibly say it was Xiao Qian.

She was now a licensed psychological counselor, how could he say she had a problem? Yu Minglang knew that Professor Liu would be suspicious, but as long as he insisted that he had a problem, she couldn’t do anything about him.

He knew what Auntie Liu was like; she would never go to Xiao Qian to verify the matter. All he needed to know was how to help Xiao Qian overcome her psychological problems. Researching information was too one-sided and clueless, it was better to ask an expert directly.

“Does she know you’re doing this for her?”

“I’m not doing it for her, I’m doing it for myself.”

“Oh?”

“I decided to choose her because I wanted her to be happy, so I’m just fulfilling my promise to her. It has nothing to do with her. There’s no need to tell her. Just tell me what I should do.”

“Premarital fear is a very minor psychological issue. There are three situations that can cause premarriage phobia. The first one is from internal emotional blockage and psychological trauma experience, especially children from divorced parents or rejected by their parents are prone to such problems. Your family is quite happy, right?”

In order to protect his love, Youngest Brother Yu could lie without thinking.

“My parents also quarrel. When I called home the day before yesterday, my mom was still arguing with my dad. My dad said my mom wouldn’t let him drink and was even stingy about his food, claiming that they couldn’t go on living like this.”

Professor Liu almost laughed. In order to protect his girlfriend, he dared to say anything. But she managed to hold her laughter in.

“There is another possibility, pursuing perfection and preferring to do without than accept anything less than perfect. What she is expecting is a perfect life, and she’s worried that marriage will make her perfection disappear.”

“Yes, I am looking forward to perfection – a wife, a child, and a warm bedstead. A daughter would be best, but a son is also good.”

But is that how Xiao Qian thought? Yu Minglang was somewhat uncertain.

Professor Liu really wanted to find a mirror for Yu Minglang; is this really the expression someone with premarriage phobia would have? It’s obviously premarriage anticipation syndrome. He was just missing a few words carved on his face: I really want to get married now, and after getting married, I want a baby!