|15| my sunshine

Only you know my

inner Moon

~Alexandra Vasiliu

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She's too sweet, caring, and too good for a cruel man like me

But that's the thing I'm cruel and selfish and couldn't stay away, so here I am dating her, I've never felt more alive till she kissed me, the awareness that the girl I have wanted for 2 years was kissing me...it was too much, my brain was going in overdrive

I knew it was wrong, shes perfect and too kind, I didn't want to ruin her and be the stormy cloud in her life but my eyes couldn't help but search for her in every room, my nose knew when she was nearby when I would smell the sweet notes of strawberry's and vanilla, my ears would know by the two light knocks on the door I became so used to was her, she would put a smile on my face with just being her sweet self

She wasn't aware of the pure happiness she was bringing me in my life, the number of times I would smile after she would leave my office, or when she would compliment me, was insane

And don't get me started with how overwhelmed with feelings I would get when her face would break out into the most beautiful beaming grin

All those little things would turn my miserable day into something better, id wake up every morning with the knowledge that I can look at her but not touch her because I don't want to break her and I'm worried I can

So I ignored her, even when my heart would beat twice as fast when she would smile at me, even when her proximity would light my body and heart on fire,

I stayed away and tried my best to act like I didn't care for her, but there's so much a man can do until his heart takes over his brain, so I was thinking with my heart and not my head when I told her I could take her around New York and be her tour guide, I knew it was a mistake but I did it anyway

And now I crave her sweet lips on mine every second, I want to hear her perfect soft voice more than usual, and I find I make any excuse to see her, like lunch yesterday, and thinking of any reason to bring her to my office

Sure I would make excuses for her to come to my office all the time but this time is different I'm able to feel her soft lips and it's more addictive than any drug could be, I don't want to hurt her precious heart in any way

She's my sunshine.

I felt like the cloud of hatred I had for the world never let me see the sun, it was covering the possibility of happiness,

But then Vanessa came into my office and took my breath away along with the dark cloud

She blew it away and then all I could see was the sun...her perfect beautiful sunshine self

I still remember her interview, it was so difficult to act like I wasn't affected by her smile, I knew I was doing a stupid thing by giving her the job but I put that thought aside for the fact she was perfect for it, and I simply would have to make sure she wouldn't want anything to do with me, so I was cruel and cold to her

But her sunshine self melted all that away at the end because for some reason she still wanted to be around me

She's is the air I breathe, the sun that shines in my life and I feel as though my heart beats for her at times like it was specially crafted with more care than normal just so I could hand it over to Vanessa and make sure it stays with her,

I hope that someday her heart will be safely placed in my hands...but I know without any doubt that my heart has already been placed in her possession...she's just not aware.

|flashback to her interview for the job 2 years ago|

I grab some paperwork and let a big sigh escape as I wait for yet another interview I have to do for my assistant position

I need to find someone who fits the standards I have for this job, I need someone who's able to focus and not slack on work, someone to answer emails, schedule all my meetings, work on paperwork and answer my phone calls when I'm not available.

I need someone trustworthy and I have yet to find that person

I look down at the file in front of me for another candidate for the job, the woman is Vanessa Adler, 22 years of age and has recently graduated from Columbia University in design and business

I go over the rest of the resume and then hear two light knocks on my door

'Come in' i say with not much enthusiasm as open my computer

The minute the door opens I don't make any movements to look up from my computer I just point to the Chair in front of my desk "sit"

"Hi I'm Vanessa Adler" I hear a sweet silky soft voice speak

I look up and my breath is knocked out of me as I look at the beautiful girl in front of me

She has the most stunning piercing deep green eyes, and her straight brown hair cascading down her shoulders looks almost golden as the sun shines through my office

She looks like pure sunshine when she smiles at me

She has a black button-up blouse from what I can see with her sitting down

I immediately shut down any attraction I have for her and get to the interview, I don't need distractions from work.

"Aaron Huxley" I nod with a straight face

"So why do you want this job?" I ask

She has a big grin across her face as she stares at me straight in the eyes, I all of a sudden feel like I can't breathe under her breathtaking stare but try my best to conceal it

"Well I originally was going to go into interior design but it seems too complex and stressful so I thought being an assistant to a man who is known to have the best designs and builds all across New York would be great" she smiles

I nod "you are aware you won't be doing many designs right? You would be answering emails and calls, doing paperwork for designs and projects, and scheduling things for me"

She nods still holding the smile on her face "I'm aware, I always helped my mom with anything she needed with her heart failure, I would say in my opinion I'm pretty good at managing that sort of stuff and assisting someone"

Heart failure? Dear God how is the girl still smiling right now

The last portion of the interview mostly consisted of me trying deeply to not react to her smiles and sweet tendencies of an Angel...it feels like it's slowly killing me having her in my office

"Okay you will receive a call if you get the job" I nod

"Thank you, also that suit color looks nice with your eyes" she laughs lightly with a grin across her face as she stands up and heads for the door

Suddenly dark blue suits are my favorite.

I wait till the door is closed to release the big breath I was holding along with a smile

A smile that I haven't shown in years...a smile I haven't wanted to let break out of my face in a long time,

But this girl that radiates the sun made it impossible to keep it in.

My first smile in nearly a decade was because of a young woman named Vanessa Adler...and I'm sure that name will be engraved in my mind for a long time.

The girl is just the pure sun in a room

And I know I need to stay away

But she seems perfect for the job, so I'll have to keep away any thoughts and feelings related to her.

|end of flashback|

I smile thinking back to the first time I saw my sunshine.

I call her to my office so she can schedule a meeting with a client who called me this morning

I hear the two light knocks that make me smile each time I hear them

"Come in," I say with no bitterness whatsoever because I don't have to pretend to not like her anymore

And there my angel walks in

Her hair is in a tight low bun, she's in a black blouse and black pants, and her lips are tinted red

"Good morning Mr. Huxley" she grins

I smile slightly "Good morning Vanessa"

"I need you to schedule a meeting for me with this client," I say giving her a card with the client's name and information

She nods "is that all?"

It's not all until I feel those soft lips of hers on mine.

"How's it going with the rooftop and henry?" I ask wanting to be in her presence a little while longer

She grins "it's amazing he's great, and adjusting wonderfully, the project is coming along good we got a ton ordered and I think we will be able to start construction by next week," she says voice filled with excitement

"That's good" I laugh at how cute she looks when she talks about something she's passionate about

I then notice a slight crease in her brows while she's thinking of something clearly not good and I don't like it one bit

"Come here" I signal for her to come around the desk

I grab her arms so she's straddling me and cup her cheeks looking over her facial features

"What's wrong sweetheart," I ask running my finger along her knitted brows and her soft pouty lips

"Nothing" she mumbles

She's just the worst liar I've ever come across

"Vanessa..." I say more sternly

She takes a deep breath and grabs my hands and puts her head on my chest while she plays with my fingers to distract herself

"I don't like the people making cruel comments about henry behind his back" she whispers

I am immediately filled with anger

I don't appreciate people in my damn office being unprofessional and not treating each other with respect,

And I also don't appreciate people making Vanessa upset.

"Who?" I say stern

"I-" she starts choking on her words

I lift her chin with my finger and give her a sweet kiss to which she sighs into

I smile internally at her immediate calmness to my touch and kiss, it makes me happy and fills me with a sense of honor that I'm able to calm her,

I give her a final peck on her lips "who sweetheart" I say my fingers brushing over her cheek and jaw

She pouts slightly and mumbles 3 people who work here

I immediately make a mental note to fire them

"I don't like being a snitch though" she whispers while her voice breaks

My heart cracks at how much she cares for others even if there cruel, she's truly an angel

"look at me," I say gently as I caress her cheek, my thumb going in soft circles as I watch her,

She looks at me and my heart shatters seeing her upset

I sigh "don't worry, I'm glad you told me, I don't like the thought of people making you or your friend upset" I embrace her with a hug

She immediately hides her face in the crook of my neck and wraps her arms around my neck playing with the hair on the back of my head

"Am I a bad person? I know you're gonna fire them, OH GOD what if they end up homeless because they can't get another job" she starts overthinking, forgetting my presence as she mumbles to herself in a nervous manner

I can't help but chuckle a little, she's just too damn sweet

"I will make sure to have them transferred somewhere else don't worry," I say stroking her hair

"Promise?" She whispers looking up at my face

"I promise," I tell her sternly

I want to hit myself in the back of the head for having to tell her to go work but I am still her boss before anything else when we're at work,

"Okay go schedule that meeting and get back to henry" I smile

"Okay" she whispers cupping my cheeks and pecking my lips sweet and soft

But that's not enough for me so I deepen it, I savor her touch and the feel of her lips against my own, her warm tongue against my own,

her lips are plump and swollen from my attack on them and her cheeks flushed along with her heavy breathing when I pull away

I smirk "okay now you can go"

She laughs "see you later Mr. Huxley" she kisses my cheek

"See you later Vanessa" I let my smile break loose looking at her fixing her hair from when I threaded my fingers through it just a moment ago

I look over at the bouquet of pink roses by my window from her

She isn't aware but I always pick the flowers that were sent to her every week

I tried paying for them but she prepays for them, So now I just buy one for her so she has two in her office

I love that she buys them for my office but what I don't like is her paying for them

So I secretly pay for them myself and make sure she is not aware

Getting my eyes off the flowers I call in the 3 people I need to fire into my office,

A minute later I hear a couple of loud knocks, 'come in' I say with a bitter tone,

In walks two women and a man who works here at my building,

"Sit," I say bitterly as I point to the chairs

I see the girls swallow harshly and the man taking a deep breath in as they all walk towards the chairs,

"Now is there something you want to tell me?" My voice is leveled and calm but they know I'm anything but, they know that they were unprofessional, and they're about to be punished greatly for it

"What are you talking about sir?" One of the girls smiles slightly and I'm pretty sure she's lifting her breasts?

God some women are weird.

"You know what I'm talking about...now answer my question or else you'll regret it" I spit out

"I did nothing so I'm not sure what you mean" the woman frowns with a slight pout

I massage my temples getting more agitated by the minute

"You're all fired for disrespecting another employee, I didn't hire you to gossip and make someone feel bad...I also don't hire you to be lazy pathetic employees, I will have the security team escort you out and all your things removed immediately" I say with a lethal edge to my words

"You're firing us for saying the truth? I mean come on the first day that man came in here he looked like he didn't know what a shower was" one of the girls scoffs

"You don't get to judge someone without understanding why they wore what they wore, now get out of my damn sight I'm sick of seeing your faces," I say roughly dismissing them

The man finally decides to speak up now "but how are we supposed to find jobs now!"

I sigh in impatience and annoyance, but I promised Vanessa and I'll stick to that promise "you'll be transferred to a different company, and you'll say thank you to Vanessa's kindness for making sure you still had a job at the end of the day" I say leveling them all with a stern look that has them nodding

"Now leave out of my sight and building" I point to the door, as I begin to type on my computer ignoring their presence

--------notes--------

Hope this chapter was alright! It slipped my mind that I didn't make a chapter in Aarons's pov so I had to make one!

Also, I'm sorry it's not as long as the other ones I panicked and knew I had to get something out today so I'm sorry it's not the best, (this story is stressing me out to write lol)

(Also I feel like the song doesn't fit this chapter but I'm to lazy to change it...)

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