|34| body insecurites

The dream is yours for a reason.

~k.tolnoe

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The next week passes in a blur of work, and more work, and just a little more work, Aaron's been pushing everyone more than usual...including me

I'm exhausted, to say the least,

"Did you finish all the paperwork?" Aaron asks stepping into my office,

I hum barely keeping my eyes open, I grab the paperwork I completed and slide it over to Aaron without so much as looking at his beautiful face because it's way too much work to lift it,

"I also scheduled all the meetings that you asked for," I say

I run my hands down my face in pure exhaustion, I feel Aaron walking over to my side and lifting me off the chair than sitting me on his lap so I'm straddling him,

"That was a mistake Mr. Huxley because now I'm taking a nap on your lap" I mumble into his neck as I cuddle closer

"Tired?" He squeezes my neck while letting out a small chuckle

"Yeah you big dummy, you're overworking everyone this week" I sigh focusing on his warmth that just makes sleep hurdle towards me as the second's pass,

"I'm sorry sunshine...I have my reasons" he says kissing the top of my head

"Care to share those reasons?" I mumble

"You'll find out later, it's getting late you wanna go out to eat?" He asks

I barely manage to laugh "Aaron we have been up since 5:30 am and it's 5:00 pm all I want to do is crawl into bed and eat a pizza or something and take a nap"

"Alright then that is what we will do," he says stroking my hair

"Can we just sit here for a second..." I mumble already a blink away from deep sleep,

I feel the vibrations of his laugh run through my body warming me and putting a smile on my face

"Sure sunshine," he says

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I feel us moving, beeping, and doors shutting

I open my eyes to see us in the car, I Look over at Aaron who's getting in the car, and putting his seat belt on

"You're awake" he smiles a little starting the car

"How long did I sleep for?" I yawn

"About an hour and a half," he says pulling out of the parking spot

Since we drove together to work because I'm still not fully used to having my own car, I don't have to worry about my car being left here,

"So you just sat on my chair with me while I was sleeping for an hour and a half?" I ask with a small smile playing on my lips

"Well I answered some emails on my phone but pretty much, you're a cute sleeper by the way" he smiles grabbing my hand

I lean my head on the headrest and look at him,

God, I really love this man.

"You can sleep a little more when we get home, I'll make some pizza while you are asleep," he says looking at the road

"We can make it together, oh, and dance to some music" I grin

He Half smiles "whatever you want"

I admire his chiseled jaw, his perfectly done almost black hair, the stumble that comes in along his jaw from the endless nights of him working

"You're staring Vanessa" his voice breaks me out of my staring spell,

"You're nice to look at" I smile

He shakes his head "you think everyone is nice looking"

"Yeah in their own way...but you are by far the most good-looking man I have ever seen, I could stare at you all day and not get bored" I grin

"You feel my ego too much sunshine" he smiles

Beautiful...his smile is beautiful.

"Well if you want I can tell you some things you need to work on...like saying thank you to everyone, and maybe smiling at others and not only me, being nice to the people who work for you" I shrug

"I think I will stick with only being myself with you...I don't need anyone knowing my smile, or laugh, or the things I like other than you" he says bringing my hand to his mouth to place a kiss on my knuckles

My eyes follow his lips as they graze my knuckles then press a gentle kiss there,

"I wish everyone could see just how much of an amazing man you are, how genuine, kind, and generous you are, how much love you give to things that are important to you, and the amount of passion that goes into a simple project at work" I whisper

"Seems like you're the only one who supposedly sees those things and like I said I don't need anyone liking me other than you," he says pulling into a parking spot when we arrive at his place

He opens the door for me and I grab his hand and step out, I immediately pull him into a hug, he lifts me and I wrap my legs around his waist

"What's this for" he whispers against to forehead as I tighten the hug,

"You're a sad, sad man Aaron" I whisper back

"Why don't you want people to know how amazing you are? Why do you want people to think you are heartless and cruel?" I whisper confused as I watch him

"Most people aren't worth opening up to... it's easier for everyone to take me seriously" he sighs

"But why'd you open up to me then?" I frown

He cages me between the car and himself and against my lips says things that will forever be engraved into my memory

"Because you my sunshine are worth that risk, you're worth every potential heartache I might experience, you're worth everything, you're the one thing in my life I will never regret, I'd rather know I gave my all to you and experience your love for a little time than regret for the rest of my life that I didn't show you the love I had for you" his husky voice runs through my blood and make fireworks explode inside my

I cup his cheeks and rest my forehead on his "you are worth every heartache I might experience, I will forever be thankful I got to love you, for as long as I have you" I say feeling a tear fall

He wipes it with such gentleness that I barely feel his finger on my cheek

"Well you have me as long as you allow me in your life," he says pecking my lips

The peck wasn't enough, it's never enough

Nothing is ever enough when it comes to Aarons's touch, I always want more, crave more, seek more of his touch, his smiles, laughs, and kisses

I connect our lips in a more hungry, and deep way

The sound of cars driving by is a distant hum and the sound of horns honking far away is just that...

Far away.

All I feel are Aarons's lips on mine, the way his hands are gripping my hips to keep me in place, the taste of mints and warmth,

My mind and body go fuzzy, I'm sure if Aaron wasn't keeping me in place at this moment I would fall to the floor,

I feel his hot breath on my mouth as we part slightly for air, "I want you for as long as I live" I whisper against his lips

He nips my bottom lip "then you have me for that long"

"Let's take this somewhere more secluded yeah?" He says against my mouth

I hum and rest my face on his neck

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Hours later were sitting in bed eating pizza and watching criminal minds,

We ended up ordering pizza in because we were too tired to make a homemade version,

"I love food" I moan as I take a bite of pizza

He laughs "I can hear that"

I give him a side eye and scoot closer to his chest, I run my fingers over his defined abs

"How are you able to eat like me yet you have no stomach pooch" I frown

"First off...I love your pooch, secondly, I love to work out" he shrugs

"if only I didn't get tired after one squat" I frown taking another bite of pizza

He grabs my chin "is that someone subtly saying they don't like their body?" He raises a brow at me

"Well..." I start saying

he shakes his head "no...I don't want to feel insecure, I don't want you to eat leaves to achieve a body that's almost impossible to have, women and men's bodies are different, we Carry fat differently and that's okay, I love every curve on your body and I wouldn't change it for something slimmer or fit" he says sternly

"Keep eating your pizza, I love your whole body a lot...I show you almost every night don't I?" He raises a brow

"Well yeah..." I sigh

"And it's not true I feel like everyone has a flat stomach with abs, with perfectly toned legs, and perfect skin, it just seems like you could have any girl and I guess that makes me insecure at times," I say quietly

"You are aware most guys love women with curves and an ass right?" He smiles slightly

I sigh "yeah but I don't think men realize having thick thighs or an ass usually doesn't come with a flat stomach"

"Can you stop Vanessa? I love every inch of your body and I honestly prefer your stomach the way it is then to some slim-toned one, that's just my preference and taste" he says kissing the tip of my nose

"You're my type Vanessa, every inch of your body and personality is my type," he caresses the side of my face

"And I also think you don't realize how many damn men notice you when you enter a room, you're so God damn beautiful, all eyes go to your gorgeous smile that lights up a room, you're like a walking sun brightening up a room, attracting everyone"

"Your beauty is unbelievable and it's crazy to me that you don't realize it, do you not realize the effect you have on me when you're around? Because clearly, you don't" he says grabbing my hand and placing it over his heart which is beating so damn fast

"I've never smiled so much in my life since you've come into my life, nor have I laughed or enjoyed life"

"And the fact you don't love every inch of your body...that breaks my heart sweetheart, I just wish you could see a glimpse of what I see when I look at you...you would be so damn in love with yourself, trust me, Vanessa," he says his voice vulnerable yet stern

I don't notice that I'm crying until Aaron's wiping tears off my face, he pulls me on his lap so I'm straddling him

He readjusts himself on the pillow, and I cling to him

"This was supposed to be a chill night with pizza and cuddles not me crying" I laugh while crying and let my face fall on his shoulder

"I feel like I'm always crying" I sigh with a frustrated frown

"No matter how much you might cry I want you to know I will always be a shoulder you can cry on, and I will always wipe your beautiful tears and kiss that sad little pout off your lips, I will try to help you feel better to the best of my ability, but just know you shouldn't be afraid to show emotions around me," he says stroking my hair

"You mean a lot to me you know that?" I whisper

He threads his fingers through my hair and holds the back of my head closer to him "and you mean everything to me Vanessa" he says

I lift my head off of his shoulder and look at him, he tucks a strand of my hair behind my ear and caresses my cheek

"I love you" I whisper

He smiles "I love you my beautiful sunshine" he leaves a sweet slow kiss on my lips

"Thank you," I say looking at him with adoration

"For what?" He asks

"Everything....for making me feel loved, beautiful, worth it...just everything" I whisper

His lips meet mine, slow and needy and so sweet, healing my silly insecurities

I slide my hands from his cheeks to his neck and I wrap my arms around him,

He flips us around so he's hovering over me, I feel his hand running slowly over the curves of my hips to my waist

"So beautiful" he mummers against my lips

I close my eyes as his lips connect with mine again

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"You know why I have been working with everyone more recently and doing more work than usual?" Aaron asks hours later as were sitting on the couch cuddling

"I would love to know why Mr. Huxley" I laugh

"I'm not going to be working for 9 days, and wanted to ensure no problems were going to arise," he says stroking my hair as I lay on his shoulder

"Well technically were not working for 9 days" he corrects himself before I could say anything

"What do you mean?" I ask looking at him confused

"Well, you know how we both have traveling down as a bucket list item?" He asks grazing his fingers along my collarbone where my tattoo is and then my shoulder,

"Yeah...?" I say slowly in confusion

"Well we're taking 9 days off work to travel..." he says

My head snaps back to him and I'm sure the look of shock overtakes my face

"Your kidding," I say my mouth agape

He shakes his head "definitely not, we're going to spend two days in Alaska, then two days in Scotland, two days in turkey, then lastly two days in the Netherlands" he says all while running his fingers through my hair

I'm sure my jaw is on the floor by now...but before I can protest he speaks

"And before you tell me no or some shit about its too much money, I already paid for everything so if you don't come with me you would technically be wasting money..." he smirks

"Aaron...you already bought me a damn car, are you crazy?" I say standing up but I don't go anywhere because he pulls me on his lap

"Definitely Crazy when it comes to you, and I'm completely okay with it," he says caressing my cheek

I frown "you have to stop spending money on me, Aaron...I'm paying you back, how much was everything?" I ask

He smiles "you can pay me back by coming with me and having fun..." he says tucking a strand of hair behind my ear

"But-" I start but he cuts me off with his hand over my mouth

"But nothing, I want you to come with me, I want you to have fun, and I want to make memories with you outside of New York, I want us to try new things and see what the world has to offer, I want to see your face light up at the things we will see and your beautiful smile overtaking your face," he says with so much love and passion in his voice that I think I might just die now

I grab his hand off my mouth and hold his hand bringing it to my lap "you're honestly serious you want to travel with me?" I say quietly

His warm smile feels like a heated blanket overtaking my body keeping me warm on a cold winters night

"I want to experience as much as possible with you, I want us to have fun and take a break from work that doesn't Consist of me healing from a surgery or having the flu or something..." he says bringing me closer to him

"Please just stop fighting whenever I do stuff and just shut up and kiss me, women," he says sighing which makes me laugh

I connect our lips and smile throughout it, "you're a crazy man Mr. Huxley, and I don't know why you keep spending so much money on me and I wish you would stop but I would be a liar if I said I didn't want to go, thank you" I say against his lips

"I like seeing you happy...and flowers make you happy so I will continue sending you them each week, you needed a car so I got you one, your dream to travel...done, whatever you want I will do my best to give you," he says

"You make me happy," I say quietly gazing at him

A smile touches his lips "can you let me treat you? Let me spend the money that's slowly rotting away not being used and let us make memories and have fun" he says gripping my hips and pulling me full straddle on him

I lean my forehead on his, and I sigh "when do we leave?"

His face beams in a full grin "in a week"

I nod "can we try different sandwiches while we're traveling?" I smile

He rolls his eyes and shakes his head with a grin "you and your damn sandwiches...yes we can"

I wrap my arms around his neck and bring his lips to mine "thank you" I mumble

He hums and connects our lips once again

"I love you my moon" I whisper with a smile

He smiles looking into my eyes "I love you sunshine"

"Always?" I ask

"And forever" he whispers

----notes----

We traveling up in hereeeeeeee!!!!

What's the coolest place you guys have traveled to?

The coolest places I went to were probably London, Paris, and L.A...

And sorry if there are way more errors than usual I'm EXTRA tired today! Hope you understand and can look over it.♡

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