|47| high on rage

And like the moon,

We must go through phases

Of emptiness to feel

Full again.

~Unkown

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The next morning at work, I am in the most destructive mood I have ever been in,

"Good morning Mr. Huxley," the receptionist says

"Say another word and I'll fire you" I spit out before walking away, into the elevator not waiting to hear a response

"Mr Huxley...a flower order came for Vanessa do you want me to bring it up to her office like every week?" The florist delivery man says just before the elevator closes

It's as if the whole world is against me this morning,

"No...give it to whoever you please, just not her," I say as the doors close

"Alright..." I hear him clear his throat and walk out of the building

I decide to call the florist company I use "hi I would like to cancel every order I had pre-placed..."

"No more flowers?" She asks

"No...don't send any more," I say angrily

"Alright it's canceled," the woman says after a moment of silence

I hang up without saying another word, I get into my office ignoring everyone that's here, and slam my office door,

I see a bouquet of lavender by my window, I stalk over and grab them and chuck them in the trash, I'm too furious to be able to think straight,

Her flowers are pissing me off, her smile hurts now, and her scent is intoxicating in a way that feels like its slowly killing me now, I had to have a professional cleaner go to my place to make sure it didn't smell like her anymore, I can't handle it, it hurts too much to still be able to feel her and smell her in my place knowing she won't be there anymore.

I'm so engrossed in the work that I almost miss my intercom buzz and a voice talking,

'Mr. Huxley, I'm sorry I tried telling her she was on the no-entry list but she stormed over to the elevators before security could stop her'

The receptionist has a nervous edge to her voice as she speaks

"Who is it?" I ask furry lacing my words

'Wren' she says nervously

"God damn it why are you even working here if you can't even do your job?" I ask with pure exasperation

Before she can respond I get a knock on my door

I quickly rise from my chair and stalk toward the door flinging it open, I immediately regret my decision when I see a snake of a woman

"Get the hell out of my building," I say in a rage

She batts her eyelashes and squeezes past me inside, I have to just watch her stride into my office and take a seat in my chair,

"I'm only going to warn you once, get out before I call the cops," I tell her trying to stay calm but irritation is evident in my voice

"Let's relax Aaron...I heard your little ray of sunshine broke up with you and played with your heart" she sighs and puckers her lips in a sad way that I can just tell is fake

"You know...I can always heal your wounds, help the pain you're feeling, and show you something more worthwhile" she smirks riding her skirt up,

Literally what the hell is she doing?

"Are you done embarrassing yourself? Or do you need to take off all your clothes and then walk down to your car naked to see how much of a fool you're making yourself out to be?" I raise a brow

She scoffs "oh please...you're genuinely going to look me in the eye and tell me that I don't have a better body than that sick little girl you call an assistant?"

What's with people today getting even more on my nerves than normal?

"All I see when I look at you is a woman that's desperate for a man that doesn't want her, you're so obsessed with showing off your body to me that you're being delusional about the fact I don't want you...I never did nor will I" I cross my arms over my chest leaning against the wall

"And what I see when I look at you, is a man who got manipulated by a girl who acts sweet and kind like she isn't hiding shit from you, you're so concentrated on her ass that you can't see that you deserve someone who can give you more than she ever could" she huffs in annoyance

A laugh breaks free and I can tell by Wren's expression she wasn't expecting that kind of emotion out of me since I never laugh or smile around pretty much anyone but Vanessa

"What is your obsession with me? Why are you so set on seducing me when you can see I don't want your mind, body, or your heart?" I raise a brow in amusement

Her lips part like she wants to say something but she shrinks into my seat, she clears her throat "I know you want me, Aaron, your heart is just too blinded to see you're wanting the wrong woman"

"you don't get to call me Aaron, and I have a question for you," I say

"Go ahead," she says fluttering her lashes and begins unbuttoning her shirt button by button,

I wouldn't mind Vanessa doing this in my office...But Wren? A woman I will never want? Absolutely not.

"Did I ever want or show interest in you before Vanessa showed up as my assistant? Because let me remind you, you already worked here for a year before she got the job" I asked trying to mask my irritation but failing miserably

"I-" she stutters

"Let me stop you before you waste any more time, now what's going to happen is you're going to leave my damn office and I won't call the cops" I spit out

"Or, you continue your pointless rambling and then the cops show up here and see you making a fool out of yourself, and maybe just maybe you end up in a jail cell for your behavior" I shrug

"Just to remind you this is harassment at this point" I raise a brow continuing to lean against the wall

She takes a deep breath in and stands up, her shirt is practically off and her skirts so risen that I can she has red Lingerie peeking out, I close my eyes in the memory of when Vanessa wore something similar, It angers me how she still lives in my brain and overtakes all my thoughts and memories,

She grabs her purse and fishes a mirror out, she smudges her lipstick and I furrow my brows in confusion, she turns and struts toward me

"If you don't want to have fun I'll just make it look like we did until you wake up and realize what you want" she purrs out

"Get far away from my building before I have you arrested for harassment," I say Lethally quiet

She smirks "I wonder if your little pest will think we did something"

Before I can say anything she walks out and instead of hearing the elevator I hear her knocking on Vanessa's door

'Shit' I mumble under my breath

"How Can I help you?" Vanessa asks

"Oh, let me guess you're here to get a pamphlet of the homeless organization...I can give you some money for clothes if you need" she says and I can hear the smile in her voice clear as day

It makes me miss her terribly

"So Funny...no, I was just going to say sorry if you heard any noise in Aaron's office, we got carried away and forgot you're nearby," Wren says with fake concern

I take a deep breath in and walk out ready to kick Wren out, Vanessa looks over my face and body before looking at Wren with a big smile

"Doesn't he have such a big dick?" she laughs and the laugh hits me in the heart even though it's not meant for me

"I must say...I'm surprised you're still walking right now I guess he didn't want to give you the full experience, it's a shame really" she sighs

Wren's face is priceless, I wait for the elevator and just stand there looking at Vanessa with my heart feeling heavy

"You don't mind that he bent me over his desk? That doesn't bother you that your ex had fun with someone, not even 24 hours after you broke it off?" She furrows her brows

"Wren...can I tell you something?" Vanessa smiles but it doesn't quite reach her eyes

"Go ahead" Wren rolls her eyes

"I dated him for almost a year...I think I'm quite aware of how the man looks after sex don't you think?" She says with amusement

Wren's lips parted in realization "well...well I think it's embarrassing that you played him for a year and lied don't you think?" She huffs and walks off into the open elevators

Vanessa's face falls and she looks at the wall swallowing before slowly connecting her eyes with mine, she looks like she wants to say something but stops herself,

We stand there looking at each other for a few seconds, she clears her throat "just so you know everything in the relationship was real to me...it wasn't a game nor was I playing you" she says quietly

I nod "right you just strung me along for a couple weeks as you realized you didn't want me but still stayed...why was that exactly? Were you lonely...or maybe you just wanted some dick a couple more times before you blindsided me with a break up" I say with pure anger, I wouldn't be surprised if everyone working downstairs were hearing all of this

"Aaron..." she whispers in pure hurt

"It's Mr. Huxley to you...and I don't want to hear your lies," I say walking towards her fast, not giving her even enough time to blink,

She backs up into a wall and looks at me with teary eyes "you looked at me in the face and smiled and made stupid sweet comments knowing you were going to break up with me, did you not?" I ask

She opens her mouth and then closes it "am I wrong Vanessa? Did you not stay with me for weeks knowing you were done with this relationship?" Irritation is laced in my words but doesn't match the bile that's rising in my throat,

She whimpers and it breaks my heart but she has no right to be upset when she broke it off and lied,

I shake my head and scoff "pathetic how you stand here upset at what you did...you foolish girl" venoms laced in each word as I speak low and slow

"You act as if you're not the one who broke it off...you chose that Vanessa, Not me" I shake my head

"you can't get upset over a grave you dug on your own," I say lowly

Her eyes focus on the wall behind me "you're right... I have no right feeling upset when I'm the one who hurt you" she whispers as she nods

"I'm sorry Mr. Huxley" she clears her throat and stands straighter

"Is there any paperwork you need done urgently?" She asks calmly, but the tremor and hurt are still there she might not think I notice but I do,

It breaks my heart knowing I said something that hurts her...but I'm not wrong, she did this herself, she broke up with me not the other way around

"Not at the moment," I say calmly, she nods and I watch her walk back to her office and shut the door

I stand there looking at her door, she decorated the door with a garland of flowers, there are sunflowers, wildflowers, roses, and many more wrapped around her door frame making her office seem like a portal into some magical fairy garden world,

I walk up and pluck a sunflower from the back of the garland so it's not noticeable and walk back into my office, I look at the sunflower and place it in one of my drawers,

I take a few deep breathes before opening my computer and getting myself lost in work, and trying to ignore the aching and breaking feeling of my heart,

Vanessa might not want me, but my heart sure doesn't get the message, I don't think my heart will ever get over her, I love her with my whole being and that won't ever change, and it's obvious with the fact I still love and want her even after she broke my heart.

----notes----

It's getting all sorts of depresso out here...

*cue me already planning their kiss and makeup moment cus I can't handle pain*

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