Ch.13 chapter 13 - Sanyog - A Coincide...

Is it possible to impress her at all â¦

I couldnât impress her at that timeâ¦

Is it possible now at this age â¦ I was thinking â¦

Sir, are you ok ,now â¦ at nightâ¦ I heard some noise â¦ I called you twice â¦ but didnât respond â¦ Sir , here is your coffeeâ¦ Sir you havenât eaten well last night â¦ please , have some biscuits with the coffeeâ¦

I saidâ¦but Sumangal has brought the dinner for me â¦ I ate wellâ¦

Sir â¦ itâs ok but you have to take the pills so please have these biscuits â¦ he said

I ate biscuits with coffee and I felt better â¦

Sir â¦ he again put the pills in my hand â¦

I gulped the pills and started feeling drowsy â¦

I will have some rest â¦ I said â¦

He nodded and left , shutting the doorâ¦

She looks beautiful even today, I exclaimedâ¦ and laughed at myself â¦ after so many years â¦ she hasnât lost her charismaâ¦ and look at me â¦ I have become old and dependent on someone â¦ who was that â¦ who gave me pills just nowâ¦ was he Sumangal or someone elseâ¦ we used to share room in the hostelâ¦ he used to take care of me there â¦

Where I amâ¦

Have I grown up â¦

Have I become oldâ¦

Questions â¦ questions â¦ haunting me â¦

No answers â¦

Which year is this?

Mr. Majanu â¦ no change in these many years â¦ alsoâ¦my conscience whispered

Shut upâ¦ you â¦ I argued

My conscience uttered , âShe looks gorgeous even today though hair has become grey â¦ still that glow on her face is sameâ¦ as if time has stuck â¦ â

God why again â¦ why again that pain â¦ I murmured

Itâs up to you â¦ whether to indulge once again â¦ my conscience replied â¦

But she must have seen me â¦ I statedâ¦.

Itâs your own assumption â¦ my conscience replied â¦

May be â¦ I commented â¦

Not may be â¦ it is for sure â¦ she hasnât noticed you and though she has noticed , she wonât mess with you again â¦ Conscience declared

Thatâs true â¦ I agreed â¦ keeping in mind past experience â¦ rather she would avoid meâ¦ I whispered â¦

Then why again â¦ you are playing with your thoughts â¦ better resolve the issue â¦ finish it â¦ as you have done once â¦ my conscience advised

Do you think , I am doing this purposely â¦ I am that wise now â¦ I am grown up â¦ I think â¦ I articulated

Have you grown up â¦ my conscience teased meâ¦

Donât dare â¦ I am not an emotional fool now â¦ I replied angrily

Are you sure â¦ conscience remarked â¦

Shup up â¦ I shouted

You will shut me up â¦ rather you shut the door of your heart â¦ otherwise once again you will land in trouble â¦ conscience warnedâ¦

Thatâs true , I statedâ¦

So better â¦ focus upon the health â¦ conscience spoke

Sure , but â¦ I intervened

No but â¦ now â¦

Together on that day we went to meet Bhandari mam after our classes â¦

Whole college was watching us â¦ I thought â¦

But , I didnât bother â¦

I wished that journey with her should continue forever and ever â¦

Bhandari mam read our notes and to my surprise â¦ she commented â¦ mine were flawless on the contrary, she gave few suggestions to her â¦

Her face , I canât describe â¦

She was looking at the groundâ¦ I was doubtful her eyes were full of tears â¦ I could sense the tension on her face as well in her demeanourâ¦

When we were returning to the library â¦ she said , âI am sorryâ¦â

I was surprised and said , âWhat , what did you say just now â¦.â

I said , âI am sorry â¦ I doubted about your note making skills â¦ rather I have to improve mine â¦â

âOh! â I remarked â¦ âNothing , extraordinary â¦ I have doneâ¦ sometimes it happens .. donât take tensionâ¦â

I was so impressed by her simple and straight forward nature â¦ not only her face but her heart was also innocent â¦

âWill you help me in improving my note making skills â¦ will you, she repeated â¦ she asserted â¦ please, donât denyâ¦ââ¦ she said

âwhy I would say no â¦ when I have golden chance in my handâ¦â , I whispered â¦

âDid you say somethingâ¦â , she asked ?

âNothing â¦ â , I replied â¦

âWhy not â¦ we will do the note making together from tomorrow onwards â¦â, I saidâ¦

âBut how its possible â¦ our reading rooms are different â¦ â , she remarked hastilyâ¦

âNo â¦ No â¦ I mean to say â¦ I corrected my statement â¦ I will tell you my method of note making â¦ you tell yours â¦ we can discuss â¦ and we will decide our method of note making â¦ so there will be no problemâ¦â , I explainedâ¦

âThatâs greatâ¦â , she said happilyâ¦ the glow on her face returned â¦

I was also happy â¦ she was convinced and she was back from her gloomy moodâ¦

We reached the library â¦ she went upstairs â¦

I entered boys reading room and tried to focus upon reading the novel â¦

In the beginning , her thoughts peeped in my mind intermittently but later I was completely engrossed in reading â¦ may be I was reading for almost one and half hour â¦ my stomach was signalling for the lunch â¦ so I decided to go for lunchâ¦ what about her lunch â¦ I thought â¦

I came outside the library and saw she was going with her friends towards the garden , restricted zone â¦ where I first saw her â¦ may be they used to eat their tiffin there â¦

After the lunch â¦ I wished to return to the library â¦ but some classmates approached me and they requested that I should teach the poem once again to them â¦ which Bhandari mam has explained in the morning â¦ so we went to my room and I explained them the poem they wanted â¦ my mind was giving me the instructions that she might be waiting for you â¦ but the friends were not ready to move from my roomâ¦ and I was like â¦ how can I tell them to go â¦ they remained there till 5.00 pm and then they left â¦ hurriedly I freshened up and started my journey towards the lake , where I was sure â¦ I will meet her â¦

She was there â¦ under that treeâ¦ it had become her daily ritualâ¦

After seeing me â¦ she remarked â¦ I waited for you in the libraryâ¦ then I came here â¦

I said , âSorry â¦ I couldnât come on time â¦ â

Am I late? Where am I â¦ she must be waiting for me there â¦ I have to hurryâ¦

Dr. Archana Pandit

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