chapter 35

I won’t but I need time , Sanyogita replied silently … I looked at Ma and her winning smile … My hopes heightened … but I kept mum unable to speak anything … Baba interrupted … what about dinner … Yes… Ma said … both of you must be hungry , I totally forgot … Ma … I will help you in the kitchen … Sanyogita followed her … Baba patted on my back and said affectionately … Sameep at last now she has agreed … let her take own time … don’t hurry … I will convince your mother … she is worried about you … I laughed and said … you are talking about time … I have waited these many years without knowing whether I will be able to meet her again or not … I will wait … till eternity for her … throughout these years Baba… I have never thought about anyone else as my life partner … patience pays … now I have completely understood this … we met by chance that is co-incidence … that is Sanyog … and there is Sanyog in her name also … I added smiling … Yes Baba murmured … Sameep and Sanyogita are made for each other … I looked surprisingly at him … there were tears in his eyes … He replied … Your mother was sure … you will be together … I was doubtful sometimes … but she never left hope … and now you are together … we are really happy for you … but what about her divorce case and custody of her daughter … We haven’t talked much about it … but as time permits … I know she will open up and I will sort out the matters … Yes … you have lot of acquaintances so it will be easy … Baba said… It’s not so easy as you think Baba … these judicial matters they take time … I said … Don’t worry , now she has given assurance , so we will find out the solution … these relations are made in heaven … He will take care of it … Baba said looking upwards … I smiled and added … but this is not Hindi melodramatic film , you know very well … Characters’ fate, reel life ,  in the film are directed by the director and real life film is directed by Him who is sitting over there … in the sky … Baba uttered … I started laughing … hamm … philosophical … We are not educated Sameep but we are experienced and there is no other good teacher than experience … you know very well … Baba said in a meditative tone … You are right Baba … I will need your help regarding this … I whispered … I am always with you … I will talk with Sanyogita … if you think it is ok … Sure … why not … I added … Baba went in his room to read Ramcharitmanas … I was passing by the kitchen and I heard …Sanyogita speaking … so though it was bad manner … I stood over there and heard their conversation … Sanyogita was telling mother … Ma … Ma … how it would have been better , if we could reverse time and reverse our mistakes … Ma smiled and said … that is the mistake we human beings do … Sanyogita … always repenting about the past and worrying about the future … forgetting this beautiful present … Oh! Ma … really sorry for my statement … Sanyogita said Don’t be sorry dear … Ma said … speak out whatever is in your mind … don’t you know when you share your stress with someone it is reduced and vice-a-versa … Yes… I know … but … I don’t want to trouble you all for my mistakes in life … already my family , my parents have suffered a lot because of me … Sanyogita said almost on the verge of crying … Don’t cry … you poor … you know you have suffered a lot … for no woman it’s easy to leave away from the child … Ma said in a convincing tone… Yes … I miss my baby so much but that rascal has kept her somewhere I don’t know … Sanyogita said angrily … I couldn’t control myself and entered the kitchen … and said …sorry I was listening your conversation … but he can’t do this … we can send him a legal notice … we will find some good lawyer over here and will sort out the issue … That’s better … Ma said … Sanyogita said in a frightening tone … you don’t know him … Sumangal has changed a lot … he has become vindictive … I don’t want you to land in trouble because of me … Ma said … for whom he will do then Sanyogita … he was fallen for you from the first day , he saw you in the garden … Ma … Ma … what is the need of telling this all right now … what’s the matter and what are you talking about … I said … I just needs to assure her … my son loves her from the bottom of her heart and he is not selfish … he has waited for her so long … she should know this … then she will feel confident to take help from you … am I right ? Ma said … It was better … Sanyogita was making rotis … her back was towards me … I just said … Ma … now you have disclosed everything … let her decide whether she considers me something or not … At this juncture … Sanyogita turned , her hands full of wheat flour , she came running and hugged me tight , sobbing … I was shocked … Ma went outside silently and shut the glass door behind her … Dr. Archana Pandit