-December 2nd, 9:58 a.m.-
~Mile's POV~
I watch as Four begins chest compressions, just as my dark mist fades from surrounding Tris. She comes to and realizes what's happening, and, for a split second, a smile creeps up onto her face. She looks at me and changes her expression, ". . .Miles I- . . . I'm so sorry. I-I didn't mean,-" - "Save it! I don't wanna fucking hear it." I say, with a shake in my voice. I crawl over to my sister, and I notice water dripping from her mouth. I get an idea and gently pull her chin down, opening her mouth, "Tris," I start, "Either get out, or get the water out of my sister's lungs. Choose." I say, without looking at her.
Four continues his chest compressions, and I expect to hear the door open and close but, Tris quickly squat's down near my sister's head, rolling up her sleeves. She holds her palm inches away from Natalie's face, and she closes her eyes. The water begins to levitate out of my sister's throat and mouth but, she doesn't gasp for air as expected. I begin to tear up, and Four stop's his compressions, and moves to holding her nose and blowing air into her mouth. He stops, and goes back to pressing down onto her chest.
I look up at him, and he's obviously panicking, and he's getting tired. "Switch off," I say, and he stops, and I take over. "Come on Nat," I say, continuing compressions just as Four did. "Wake up," I say, becoming desperate. The thought of my sister fills my mind as I keep going.
I remember the day she lost her necklace back on Amity. I remember watching her laugh as Ben chased her into the forest. Her smile was wide, and the sound of her laugh warmed my heart, even though I could barely hear it that day. Tears fall from my eyes, I can't lose her. I can't go without hearing that laugh again.
I just can't. And just to think I was about to fight her moments ago, just because of Tris, because of a secret my younger brother told me. I gasp, remembering when I left Lauren and his apartment earlier. He told me about Tris and the serum and I jumped up, running out the door. He yelled something just before I was out of earshot, and I realize he yelled it for this exact moment.
I stop, and look up at Four. He was already crying, running his hands through his hair. "Four, shock her heart." I tell him, wiping the wetness from my face. "That's exactly what caused this! I did this!" - "Yeah, well, you can undo it! Now shock her again goddammit!" I yell, and he jumps a little at my voice. He comes back over, and places his hand in the middle of her chest.
He curls his fingers a little, and my sister's chest jolt's up once. I put my fingers to her neck, trying to feel for her heartbeat. Still nothing, "Again," I say, and he nods at me. I keep my fingers there and he makes her jolt again. I get one small, precious rhythmic beat.
"I felt it! Do it again!" I tell him, and he doesn't hold back. He shocks her again, but harder. She jolts one more time and the next thing we hear is a gasp for air. I fall back from being on my knees and sit on the floor, trying to catch my breath along with my sister. I look up, watching Four press his forehead to her's, holding her like his life depended on it.
Seeing them like that reminded me of Tris, and how I'd always do that just to be able to look into her eyes. I look over at her, since she stayed in the room. My heart breaks all over again when I notice she's looking at Four and my sister, with pain all over her face.
~Jade's POV~
I gasp for air, and open my eyes. I'm faced with Tobias, hovering over me with a wet face. He begins cradling me, and presses his forehead to mine. What just happened? Why am I soaking wet?
More importantly, why is my head pounding? I stare into those beloved chocolate brown eyes that I've grown to love, "I thought you were gone. I-I was so scared." Four says to me softly, and I remember the last thing I saw before I fell unconscious. I saw Tris, holding me up with her new water ability, trying to drown me. Trying to end me. And it's becoming apparent that she almost succeeded.
I wipe his still falling tears, "I'm right here, I'm not going anywhere." I say weakly, and he kisses my forehead before pulling me close to him. I wrap my arms around him as best as I could, considering my whole body felt like jelly. Regardless of that though, I try to sit up after he released me. My head pounds with intensity like never before, and I cradle my head and groan in pain as Four catches me. "Here, I got you," He says, and he picks me up bridal style.
I close my eyes and I rest my head against his chest as he walks out of the testing room. He walks me throughout the halls of Dauntless, all the way to our apartment. He kicks the door open, and walks me over to the bed, and sets me down gently. I expect him to lay down next to me but, he doesn't, he gets on his knee's next to the side of the bed I'm on instead. He lay's his head on my chest and wraps an arm around me, putting his ear to my skin.
I slide my fingers into his hair and he eventually sighs, "What're you doing Tobias?" I ask him softly, and he keeps his head there. "I just. . . I needed to hear your heart beat again." He says, lifting his head up and looking at me. "It's beating, don't worry." I tell him and he shakes his head, "It's wasn't a few minutes ago so, how can I not worry? You were dead for minutes and it's my fault." He says, seeming disgusted with himself. "Tris caused all of this. She gets her new little power and the first things she does is use it to drown me. She did this baby, not you." I say, placing my hand on his cheek. "No, she didn't. She didn't drown you Natalie. She took the water out of your lungs and you still didn't wake up. I did this to you." He says and I tilt my head at him, "What? What're you trying to say?" I ask, sitting up a bit.
He retracts his arm from around me and looks at his hand, and suddenly, electricity bursts from it. It was like Liam's energy ability but, it was as white and as bright as lightening itself. I look at him while he focuses, and it was a sight to behold. His veins shined a bright silver color, as did his eyes. "I woke up to the sight of Tris doing that to you and I uh, I just reacted. I electrocuted her, without realizing I was going to hurt you. I stopped your heart, and if it weren't for your brother, it wouldn't be beating right now." He explains, closing his hand, making the current of electricity vanish.
"So it was me, the first thing I did with this new found power, was take your life." He says, letting his gaze fall from mine. He said this with sadness coating the tone of his voice as he entwined his hand with mine, "Hey," I say, "Look at me." I add, and he finally does. "I am still here. I am still breathing, and seeming that you were the first person I saw when I woke up, I'm gonna assume you're the one who brought me back." I say, "So, yeah, you may have stopped my heart but, you're also the one who started it again. So don't you dare beat yourself up over this." I say, and he presses his cheek against my hand even more. "I would've never had to've done that if I didn't injected myself. I was just trying to stop you two from fighting," - "And you did, -in the most reckless and terrifying way possible but, you did. And I'm beyond grateful that you did. Because look where we are now, everyone's alive, and now we know what the serum does to people like us." I tell him, and he looks down at his hand again, and electricity flickers all over his fingers. "So, electricity huh?" I say, and I smile, "I kinda actually like this new power of yours." I say, and he laughs a bit.
"Why? Nearly killed you with it, remember?" He asks, and I shake my head. "I just . . . I think it's pretty hot. How your eyes and veins turn silver." I say, and he smiles before biting his lip. When he did, he made his eyes turn silver on purpose, and I get a chill. He kisses me, and I kiss him back. He pulls away by standing, while shedding off his jacket. He also steps out of his shoes before getting in bed next to me.
I try to sit up again, and I succeed but, it was pretty painful. I feel Four put his hands on the small of my back for support, as I take off my soaking wet jacket, and top. I lay back down, and I kick off my shoes and slowly slip my sticking pants off, along with my socks; leaving me in my undergarments. Four pulls the cover over us, and nestles into my bosom, wrapping his arms around my torso. I run my fingers through his hair, admiring how affectionate he got.
My heart really did stop. Because he's never laid on me, I've always laid on him. I cherish this moment, and play with his hair. He closes his eyes, and I do the same, reminiscing back to the days when what I had for Tobias was a nothing but a crush. Around the end of our years first stage training, at the end of war games, when I got the other team's flag. I smile when I remember when Four told me he thought I was amazing that night.
"Can I ask you something?" I question him, and he lifts his head up a little before nodding, "I was wondering if you could recall the exact moment you fell in love with me?" I ask, and he smiles wide. "I know you keep saying it was the moment we met but, I wanna know the very second you realized you only wanted me. And I'll gladly tell you the same." I say, "Alright then." He pauses, "Do you remember the beginning of second stage testing, the first time I tested you?" He asks, and I nod. I remember all my initiation but that day? I remember vividly, because I can clearly remember when I was literally shaking in my boots at the thought of being alone with him. "You're gonna hate me for this but, do you remember when I asked you how you calmed yourself so quickly?" He questions, and I squint my eyes at him, before nodding again.
I remember how he veered down at the screen, and how he smiled at me when he asked. Did he . . .? Did he see when I thought about him for comfort? I realize he could've and I look up at him. He was smiling, the same way he was smiling that day.
"Don't tell me you saw that." I say, and he nods while laughing. I start laughing too but I eventually cover my face in embarrassment. Now that I think about it, what I thought of was so corny, and he saw all of it. My laugh turns into a low groan after a little, and he stops laughing and moves my hands from my face. "Don't be embarrassed," - "How can I not be? Especially since you acted like you didn't see it." I say, and he shakes his head.
"I only did that to see what you'd say, I wanted to see if you'd tell me." He explains himself, and my face heats up. "Speaking of which," He starts, "Why did you lie?" He asks, obviously curious. By that time in initiation, I was already in love with every little detail that I knew about him so, for me to tell him how I felt, putting my own feelings at risk of being squashed and rejected? Was definitely not something on my to-do list. "Well uh, you already know why, I was afraid you wouldn't feel the same." I remind him, "Well, you were so wrong. It was that exact moment, when I watched you think of me while you were scared. You calmed down thinking of when we hugged for the first time, near the Ferris wheel. I saw how you really felt about me and, I realized, you couldn't possibly be just some initiate to me anymore." He tells me, and I can't stop myself from smiling.
"So, don't be embarrassed, because you thinking of me, made me come to my senses." He adds. So, from that moment on, he felt the same way about me and I had no idea. If I would've known, I would've told him right then and there. "So what about you huh?" He questions me, "When was the exact moment you realized you only wanted me?" He asks, and the exact answer to his question pops in my mind. "Alright, do you remember that night, when you saved my life for the second time?" I ask, and he nods.
"Well, after you got them off of me, and brought me back here. You choose to take care of me, even though you knew you didn't have too. You let me stay with you, so I'd be safe. You let me sleep in your bed, even though you were my instructor and I was your initiate. You started to do the things I'd definitely would've done for you. But it wasn't any of those moments though." I say, and he looks at me curiously, with a smile spread across his face. "It was after I thanked you, for saving me again. When you said what you said." I tell him, "Do you remember?" I ask and he nods. "I said, 'No need to thank me for something I wouldn't think twice about doing.'" He answers, and I smile wide. He remembers. "That's when I knew you meant something to me. When I knew I wanted to be with you, for the rest of my life. Though, before that, I was pretty much already infatuated with every single thing about you." I tell him, and he lifts up off me a little to scoot up and place his lips on mine.
I kiss him back, and to me it felt just like the first time we kissed. He pulls away, and I pout, weakly wrapping my arm around his neck, pulling him back to my lips. We kiss again and he trails his kiss from my chin to my cheek, down to my neck. He stops and tells me to roll over in my ear, I wonder as to why but, I don't ask and I do as I'm told. I roll over onto to my stomach after he lifted up off me, and I lay my head to the side.
He lifts up onto his knee's beside me, and puts his hand onto my shoulders. He starts rubbing and kneading with his fingers, going down my back. I melt at his touch, and my eyes roll back. He can tell I'm sore and in pain, and he's giving me a massage. He rubs my neck, shoulder's, back and even my hips.
I groan and sigh a little as we went, especially once he start to trace his fingers, following up my spine. His finger latched onto the clasp of my bra and I held my breath in anticipation, unfortunately though, knocking erupted from our apartment door. "It's Miles and Liam, we just wanted to see if she's okay." We hear through the door, and I let my face flop into my pillow. I tell Four to get me some clothes in a whisper, and he quickly gets off the bed and hurries to the closet. He comes back and I quickly get dressed while Four tells my brother's he'll be right there, and waits for me to finish before answering the door.
I sit up painfully, just as my boyfriend opens the door for my brothers. They run in and fall to their knees beside the bed and they both hug me, telling me how scared they were. I hiss from the pain, and they release me instantly, Miles apologizes. "It's okay, I'm okay guys." I say, and Liam shakes his head. "You almost died Natalie, so don't even go there. Now hug me again so I can make you feel better." My younger brother says, and I open my arms for him. He embraces me and just like that, any soreness or pain fades from my body.
He releases me and takes my hand, while my other brother takes the covers from off my legs. I throw them over the side of the bed and Liam helps me stand. I begin to walk, expecting for my legs to give out but, they don't. I feel brand new. Yet, my heart was laid dormant awhile ago.
"How do you feel?" Miles asks, and I smile. "You tell me mind reader." I say laughing and he smiles, "You feel great, I'm glad. And Liam, if you must know, she's also thinking about how amazing your healing ability is." He tells him, and Liam hugs me again. "Hey Miles," Four says, getting his attention, "I been meaning to ask you something," He starts, "Yeah? What is it?" My brother questions. "How did you know what to do?" He asks him, and I assume he's talking about when I was unconscious, more or less dead for that matter. I begin to wonder how exactly they brought me back, but I don't ask yet.
"I knew what to do because of Liam. He yelled something before I rushed to the testing room, and I remembered just in time." Miles explains, and even more questions raise for me. "What did he yell?" I ask, "He yelled, 'Shock her!' and at the time, I didn't know what he meant, until I saw what Four could do. So, you're here right now, because of him. Not because of me, or Four. It's because of him." Miles says, and I hug my future tellin' baby brother closer. "And you said I was stronger than you? I'm sorry but, I think Liam here is the strongest." - "Yeah, strongest-mind. Can you take someone's senses? Burn someone to a crisp?" My older brother teases, "No but I could ruin someone's future, and, not to remind everyone of today's unfortunate events but, I could also electrocute someone." Liam says and Miles shakes his head. "You need access to electricity numb-nut, you can't generate it." Miles states, and Liam takes a look over at Four. My beloved lifts his index finger, and makes electricity flare up with a smile on his face. Liam lifts his hand, giving Miles a little shock with it.
"Hey! Ow! Not funny, I could do some damage too y'know. I could mention that you all have embarrassing secrets, which will cause you to think about them." He says, tapping his right temple. I start to think about them but, I catch on and focus on my brother. He's not getting into my head. "Nice try. All we gotta do is not think about them. Duh." I say, and Miles rolls his eyes. "In all honesty though, we're all pretty powerful. We could all take someone's life if we so pleased. And seeing that Dauntless hasn't erupted into chaos with power-wielding divergent's, I'm getting the impression that we're the first and only ones." I remind them.
I look at my little brother, "Am I right Liam?" I ask him, and he looks off to the side for a second, "Yes, you are. Us three, plus Four and Tris are the only ones. For now." He confirms. "For now?" Miles questions, and Liam nods. "Yes for now. We're using the serum on this years transfers, considering we know what it does to divergent's now." He responds, pointing over at Four. The serum brings out a divergent's powers. "If it brings out a divergent's powers, how come you three didn't have to take it?" Four asks, and Liam makes his eyes turn gold.
"The same reason our eyes turn gold instead of silver like yours, it's because we come from a very strong line of Divergent's. Our father's ancestors, our ancestors, were the first." Liam explains closing his eyes now, seeming to be getting the information as he spoke. "The first what?" I ask, a little confused. "The first. . . Divergent's. Ever." He says, and he seemed like he couldn't even believe his own words. I couldn't believe his words. But it had to be true, especially if it was coming from Liam.
"That would also explain why you three got the highest amount of factions on your aptitude test's. You guys are so powerful you didn't need a serum to get your powers." Four acknowledges. "You know what this means though right?" I ask them, "This means we're not just gonna have to train the Dauntless-Born and the transfers, we're also gonna have to gather and train the newbie-power divergent's. Walk them through all of this ability crap, and show them how to keep their powers under wraps." I explain, and I mainly say this to Liam and Four, since Miles isn't an instructor. The two realize I'm right, I see how uneasy they get at the dots I just connected. "You're right. We need to get prepared for that now. Because they are going to need us, and they are going to depend on us for help. We have eight months till they get here." Fours says, getting into his instructor-mode voice. "I thought it was six months." Liam says, and Four explains it was a miscalculation.
So, we do have more time on our hands then we thought. "I wish I could train them with you guys, since Will switched from surveillance to patrol." Miles says sadly, "I could talk to a few people, and make that happen Miles." Four says matter-of-factly, "Only If you want though." He adds. Miles brightens up, "You can just do that?" He asks him, "Yeah I can. Who do you think Will asked to be switched? In fact, consider it done. We'll fill you in on the regular training planning over these eight months." Four says, I admire how nice he is to my brother. I walk over to him and kiss his cheek, wrapping my arms around him. He embraces me with his arm, "Thank you." I say, and he says you're welcome by kissing my head.
I release him and walk over to Miles, and I give him a hug too. I realize he's not wearing his jacket, and remember that I just recently got it from Tris. I must've left it in the testing room. "Oh yeah, I got your jacket back from Tris earlier." I say, lifting my hand, and curling my fingers in the air. "You did? Where is it?" He asks, and the apartment door flies open and his jacket comes whooshing in.
I stop it in front of my brother, "Right here, I accidentally left it in the testing room." I say, "Did you know she tried to hold it hostage, trying to wait until you came and got it? She knew what this jacket meant to you and she still used it for her own personal gain." I say in disgust, "Personal gain?" Miles questions in confusion. And I explain how she was just trying to talk to him, to get him to forgive her for what she's done. She didn't tell me that but, I could see it in the grimace she held on me. "Well, if she doesn't love me, how would she gain anything from being with me again?" He asks looking at his shoes, obviously pained at his own words. "I'm so sorry Miles but, she's the type of person who reacts badly when she doesn't get what she wants. She wanted Tobias and she didn't get him so, she was going to do the only thing she really could do. Which was take revenge, on me." I explain, and he furrows his eyebrows at the ground.
"And so, she was going to try and use me, to piss you off." He connects the dots. I expect for him to become emotional but, he snaps his head in the direction of Four. "Is there anything, anything at all, that you could've said or done to her, for her to misconstrued the fact you don't, and won't ever, love her back?" He asks, seeming desperate for answers. Four steps in front of my brother, and sets his hand on his shoulder. "Miles, there is absolutely nothing I could've said or done to her, for her to think I'd want her the way I want your sister. I never lead her to think such, and I never will. And I know this is hard to hear but, she fell in love with me all on her own. The only possible thing she could've misinterpreted, was the fact I treated her like a little sister when we were back on abnegation." Tobias tells him, and Miles just stares into his eyes for a moment.
"Can you give me your word on that? That you had nothing to do with her decision?" Miles asks sorrowfully, and I see how distraught he is. "I can, I give you my word Miles. I wouldn't do that to the woman I love, nonetheless my future brother-in-law." My beloved says, and I smile when he mentions me and the fact he already considers Miles his brother. Miles smiles at him, and I jump in the middle of the two, throwing an arm around both. I hug them, "I love you both, so much." I say, and I feel Liam come up behind me. "I feel left out. Group hug!" He shouts and we all laugh, and group hug.
We release and Four looks to Miles, "Are we good though? I'm asking cause like, the last thing I want is for you to secretly loathe my entire existence." Four asks and says, and my brother makes a fist, aiming his knuckles towards him, "Trust me, we're good. As long as you keep loving her, we're good." Miles says to him, referring to me. Four and him fist bump, and I'm relieved that my brother isn't blaming Four for this. More importantly, I'm relieved that Four didn't give him a reason to blame him. Today started with a lot of emotion, and seeming that it's only been hours since the start, I'm pretty sure it's going to end the same. Since life can be unpredictable; at the worst times might I add. Yesterday was my birthday, and yet my heart stopped today. I almost died and yet, at this very moment, I've never felt more happy and alive.