-December 3rd, 6:09 a.m.-
~Jade's POV~
I wake up, laying on a bare chest. His bare chest. I lift my head and watch him sleep. I smile when I hear him snore a little, and I remember what today is. It's his birthday.
I bite my bottom lip, and I get up off of him very carefully. I realize I'm back in just my underwear and bra so, I grab Tobias's black shirt and throw it on. I tip-toe into the kitchen, throw my hair up into a high ponytail, and get to work. I take out all the ingredients I'd need for pancakes, and fire up the front burner on the oven. When it doesn't light, I peek over to see if he's still asleep, and luckily, he was.
I light the burner with my pinky, and grab a pan. I make about seven pancakes, three for me and four for Four. I peek over at him again, still snoring. 6:31 a.m. It's still pretty early, so, I'm not surprised he hasn't woken up, even after I left the bed.
I cut his pancakes into hearts, and stack them onto each other. I open the fridge and grab all the fruit I could find, and quickly chop them all up. Strawberries, bananas, grapes, raspberries and blueberries. I sprinkle them all on both of our plates, and drown our pancakes in syrup. I grab two forks, and take our plates over to his bedside table.
I set them down and he begins to stir in his sleep. I smile and slip the covers off his body, and I carefully straddle his lap. I lean down and kiss one of his abs, he stirs some more. I trail my kisses up his abdomen, pass his chest, following his collarbone and skipping up to his neck. He was reacting to my touch but, he stayed asleep.
I decide to change that, and I suck and nibble on his neck. I finally wake him up and he sighs happily as he melts into my touch. "Good morning my love." I whisper near his ear, just before switching to the left side of his neck. I leave a love bite on that side, "And happy birthday." I also whisper, and he lifts my face up to his. He kisses me, and I kiss him back, passionately.
I pull away and I sit up, "I made you pancakes." I say softly, and he sits up with me in his lap. I hand him his plate, and he smiles at his heart pancakes. He notices I didn't grab my plate, and he grabs it for me. I take it, and we eat and talk together. He complains on how he could've helped me make these, and I shush him.
"It's your birthday." I tell him, "Exactly, I would've loved to make these, with my beautiful girlfriend, on my birthday." He says, and I take his fork from him. I cut a little piece of his pancakes, poke it onto the fork, and feed it to him. "I know you would've, but today," I say, slipping the fork from his lips, "Today, you're not lifting a finger." I add, and he takes his fork back. "Noo, I love that you wanna treat me good but-" - "Nope no buts, you made my birthday amazing so I'm going to do the same." I say, and he lets his head lay back onto the wall the bed was against. He stares at me with a small smile, "It's just, you're gonna make me feel bad." He says, and I furrow my eyebrows at him.
"How am I gonna make you feel bad?" I question, and he sets his fork down on his plate. "I gave you an ultimatum on your birthday, and now you're giving me heart pancakes and love on mine. I'm honestly starting to feel like a jackass." He tells me and I shake my head, as I'm about to say something he cups my cheek and runs his thumb over my bottom lip. "I'm the reason we fought, for the first time, on your birthday. We'll always remember that day now, you especially. I was mad, and jealous and I shouldn't have yelled at you like I did. I just," He pauses, and he glances down at our food. "I was just really really jealous, after Ben asked to take a walk with you, and then you decided to walk with Ben behind me, and then you went to him for a piggy back ride when you know I would've loved to carry you. I just got really scared and jealous; envious even. So when you said what you said outside of Lauren and Liam's apartment, it hit a nerve. Because I want you all to myself, just like you want the same with me." My beloved says, and I'm touched. But I also realize, my birthday kinda was filled with jealousy.
Me being jealous of Four and Tris's relationship, and him being jealous of my relationship with Benji. "Well, I'm sorry, now that I think about it, I was adding fuel to the fire. I was just really upset with you. You are in this family, and so was she. You're with me and she was with my brother. For her to be in love with you is one thing, but to find out you had a past with her, while you were sparking up a friendship with her again. It was devastating. I thought I was losing you. It was already stressful enough trying to keep the truth from my brother, but to find out you might just choose her? That both me and my brother's nightmares might actually become a reality? I was literally losing my mind so, I leaned on Benji to keep me from popping a blood vessel." I say laughing a little, he does too but, his smile fades soon after, "Not to mention that too," he says, now avoiding my gaze. "What?" I ask confused, "You have a nickname for him." He pouts, giving me sad eyes. I set my plate of pancakes on the bed beside us, and place both my hands on his cheeks, and kiss his pout away. I also pull away, and he pouts some more, "Alright fine, I'll gladly give you one. Just from me." I say and I take a moment to think, as I continue to peck his lips.
I love his name, in fact, when I first found out what his real name was, I fell in love in an instant. Tobias Eaton. Tobias. There's honestly nothing I'd rather call him. "This is actually pretty hard. I'm in love with your name. I love calling you by your name." I tell him, still thinking.
"You do huh?" He asks pausing, "I mean, I do love hearing it from you." He tells me, looking me up and down. I bite my bottom lip, remembering that night. That amazing night. "Here's what I say, how about you always call me by my first name, no matter what. In public, in private. Whenever. Only you can address me by my real name." He proposes pausing, "But uh, don't be too shy on the cute names either." He adds. And I nod with a smile, "Okay handsome. I don't have a problem with that." I say, and he leans in and kisses me, I kiss him back and I'm in heaven once again.
That's another thing I love, the way he kisses me. I can feel that he loves kissing me too, just by the way he moves his lips. He pulls away this time, "Good, so that way I know when you call me Four, I'll know you're mad at me." He says and I roll my eyes, and yet he laughs. "I'm kidding, but uh, I just remembered, I been meaning to ask you something." He says, grabbing my attention. "What is it?" I ask, "You're gonna hate me but, what did happen on that walk with Ben?" He asks, and I facepalm.
"Here we gooo." I say, "Heyyy, don't give me that, just calm my nerves and tell me so we can get back to eating our pancakes." He says, and I remember back to my birthday, when me and Ben sat down together on Amity's playground. He confessed his love for me. The way he's been feeling about me all these years. And now I have to tell Tobias that, and confirm his suspicion, rather then put him at ease. "Well uh, we stayed on the path for awhile, until we passed the playground again. I pulled him to sit down on it, and he put his head in my lap while he cried. I comforted him, and after awhile he uh," I pause, and I try to remember how our conversation went, "He what?" Tobias asks, raising an eyebrow.
"He said he loved me, and at first I thought he meant in the way we've always have, But, he told me it was more than that." I pause, and I see how tense he gets with each given word. "You were right, Ben has feelings for me. He's always had feelings for me." I add, and he gives me the 'I told you so' face. "I told you, it's easy for me to tell when another male takes interest in a female, especially when it's my female." He says, putting amphasis on the word 'my'. The way he verbally claims me makes me a little hot, and just a tad bit bothered. But I ignore the feeling, "What did you say though? After he told you?" He questions, and I steal a fruit from off his plate.
"I didn't say anything, and that's because he didn't let me. Before I could even form a sentence he told me how he already knows I'm in love with you. That's when he asked if I could continue to be what I've always been to him. I promised I'd never stop being his bestfriend." I tell him, and I couldn't help but sound sad as I spoke. I remember back to when he broke our promise for the sake of my happiness. "But uh, you don't have to worry about him anymore though." I say, and he looks at me confused. "Why? What happened?" He asks, and I look down at his plate. "After you and Tris left, and me and Miles went back inside, I mentioned the ultimatum. Ben saw how upset I was about it, and he broke my promise for me. We stopped talking to eachother that very night, so I wouldn't have to fight you anymore." I explain and I look up at him, and he's just staring at me.
"Wow." He says, "He loves you alright. Because if it were the other way around for me and him, I wouldn't be able to do that. I wouldn't be able to handle leaving you alone." He adds, taking another bite of his food. "Which is why, I'm gonna help you get him back. Since I can see my jealousy got in the way of your guys harmless relationship." He also says, and I shake my head. "No, it has to be this way." I say, remembering what my little brother said. It's not just Tobias that seals our relationship in place, it's also Ben, and what he decided to do. And that's exactly what I tell my beloved.
"So, you're saying, if I want to marry you, and be with you for the rest of my life, you have to leave Ben alone?" He asks, and I nod my head. "Well, what happens?" He asks, "What do you mean?" I question back, confused. "If you don't leave him alone. If you guys become bestfriends again. What happens?" He clarifies, and he seemed curious, in an slightly possessive way. I shrug, "I'm not sure actually, Liam never told me that part. He just said that what he decides to do, sets us in stone." I answer with, and he 'hm's' me. "Well, I'll make sure to ask him whenever I get the chance. And by the way," he starts, "If that's the case, no matter what could happen, you're gonna stay away from him. From this moment on, he's a threat in my eyes. Because you're mine, and I'm not gonna lose you. Ever." He demands, and I bite my lip a little.
There he goes again, claiming me, like I always claim him. "Is that understood?" He asks me, and I nod. "Use your words." He demands again, and I see what he's doing, he knows I like it when he gets like this. "No matter what, I'll stay away from Ben. I'm yours, and you're not gonna lose me. Ever." I say obediantly, and he grabs my jaw with one hand, pulling my face closer to his, "Damn straight." He breathes, his lips centimeters away from mine.
My breathing hitches, and he finally kisses me. I kiss him back, nearly melting away completely. I set his plate of pancakes off to the side next to my own, and scoot up onto his lap more, all while still kissing him. I set my hands on his neck, and he trails his underneath my shirt and up my sides. He stops kissing me and kisses my neck, "Tobias." I say, or nearly moan.
He starts lifting up my shirt, and I lift up my arms. "Tobias stoppp, we have to eat breakfast." I say softly, not entirely sure if I really want him to stop. He kisses and kneads my chest, and I whimper under his touch. "I love you but, to hell with breakfast, I'd rather eat you." He whispers in my ear, and I gasp, feeling his fingers slip down under. "Baby w-wait, today is about you, n-not me. I wanna do s-something for you." I mange to say, as he continued to be persistent with his fingers.
"You will be doing something for me. You'll allow me, to do what I want to do, when I want to do it. And right now, what I want to do, is please you." He says in my ear, laying me down away from our plates on the bed. "I wanna hear you moan my name," He says with a pauses, "And I wanna make your body shutter, your back arch, and your toes curl." He starts to confess, and I watch and feel as he trails his kisses down my body. And just before he made it all the way down, I noticed something. Jasper, with his front paws on the bed, eating our pancakes.
* * *
I once again surrendered myself to Tobias, inevitably leading to my pure satisfaction. The way this man makes me feel when he has control over me like that is just . . . nearly unfathomable. It was so good I pulled him back up and on top of me, and started kissing his neck. I want him. All of him.
"I want you." I whisper oh so quietly, and he lifts up to face me. "I know you do, you'll get me in due time." - "I want you. Now. I don't wanna wait anymore." I tell him, and I watch him clench his jaw. Probably in surprise and anticipation. I want to please him, just like how he's been pleasing me. "Alright fine," He says, "Just answer me this one question." He adds.
And I nod for him to go on, "Why do you want me right now? What is the main reason?" He asks, "That's easy, I want you right here, right now, mainly because I love you. But it's also mainly because I wanna please you, just like you've been pleasing me." I answer, and he shakes his head, pecks my lips, and lifts up off me. "I love you too, but, that wasn't the answer I was looking for." He tells me, and takes his shirt, and hands it to me. I pout, "Well, what answer are you looking for?" I ask him, and he shrugs. "I guess you'll just have to figure that out huh? Until then, come make more pancakes with me." He says, holding out his hand.
I stop pouting, put his shirt back on and take his hand. We get into the kitchen, and we take out the ingredients together. We turn on the stove together, we whip up all the ingredients together. We get messy together, and we have fun together. And then we eat, together.
~Eight months later~
-July 30th, Aptitude testing-
~Jade's POV~
I exit the one of many aptitude testing rooms through the back door, but this time, I'm not an initiate. I'm an administrator. I walk out with a clipboard and I see that Tobias, Liam and Miles had exited out their back doors as well. We group up, "Okay, now that testing's over, let's go over how many initiates were inconclusive." I say, "Tobias? How many did you get?" I ask him, and he looks down at his own clipboard. "I got only one, Stephanie Matthews, seventeen, from Erudite and got three out five factions on the test." He says, and I freeze, Matthews? Erudite?
"Wait, Matthews? Like, daughter of Jeanine Matthewso Matthews?" Miles questions, and I wonder how he knew, until I saw he was looking at my forehead, reading my mind. "Yes apparently so, but uh, how did you know that?" Tobias asks, and all my brother does is tap his right temple. "Stay out my mind goddamnit. But anyways, what about you Miles? How many?" I ask, and he looks at his clipboard. "One as well. Grace Harrison, seventeen, from Amity and she got three out of five factions too." He answers. I look to Liam, "I got two, identical twins actually. Elijah and Nehemiah Thompson, also seventeen, both Dauntless-Born, and both got three out of five factions too." He says, and I'm not surprised that a pair of twins are divergent.
I write all this information down on my clipboard, just as my older brother clears his throat, "What about you huh? Did you get any?" Miles asks, and I nod. "Yep, it's someone we all know." I say, remembering how shocked I was to find out this person was divergent. "Who is it?" Tobias asks me, and I take a breath, "Bellamy Blake, sixteen, from Amity and he got three out of five factions." I say and my brothers are shocked, along with Tobias. "I'll have to pay Ben a visit cuz uh, we have our group of divergent trainee's, and I think he oughta know his little brother is apart of it." I say, and Tobias scoffs. "No, you won't, Miles will take care of that." He says, and I remember that I can't talk to Ben. Unfortunately.
We move on to discussing the non-divergent initiates, transfers and Dauntless-Born. We form a list, the first being the bravest and relatively most impressive, and the last being the most fearful and under-achieving during their tests. We know it's not a fear simulation test but, it's better to get to know the initiates now rather then later.
1. Olivia Perkins. 6. Alyssa Parker. 11. Alexia Taylor.
2. Dexter Morgan. 7. Spencer Reid. 12. Jordyn Monse.
3. Hope Mikaelson. 8. Denise Bryant. 13. Cassidy Wright.
4. Sage Martin. 9. Jacob Miller. 14. Travis Lamont.
5. Andrew Jenkins. 10. Anastasia King. 15. Bryson Campbell.
And that's minus the five divergent heads. If we add them into this list, all five of them would take the places of the original first five. So, in order to keep them from being looked into, probably by Max or any other divergent loathing official, we have to spread them out. Yet, remember how they were originally listed.
1. Grace Harrison --> 2.
2. Bellamy Blake --> 5.
3. Nehemiah Thompson --> 8.
4. Elijah Thompson --> 10.
5. Stephanie Matthews --> 12.
We add them to the list, and bump down the places they took.
1. Olivia Perkins. 6. Sage Martin. 11. Jacob Miller. 16. Alexia Taylor.
2. Grace Harrison. 7. Andrew Jenkins. 12. Stephanie Matthews. 17. Anastasia King.
3. Dexter Morgan. 8. Nehemiah Thompson. 13. Jordyn Monse. 18. Alyssa Parker.
4. Hope Mikaelson . 9. Spencer Reid. 14. Cassidy Wright. 19. Denise Bryant.
5. Bellamy Blake. 10. Elijah Thompson. 15. Travis Lamont . 20. Bryson Campbell.
And there you have it, an even twenty. And since I was an administrator, I got to know about five of them, divergent or not. I tested Bellamy, Spencer, Anastasia, Sage and lastly Bryson. Bellamy walked into my testing chambers and went from visibly nervous, to ecstatic in less than two seconds. He tackled me with hugs, saying how happy and surprised he was to find out I'm his administrator.
I hugged him back and I thought my first test would've been a breeze, one faction and done but, I was so wrong. I never would've thought my Ex-bestfriend's little brother could be divergent, I mean, I've known him just as long as I've known Ben. Or uh, just as long as I knew Ben. It's been so long since I've talked to his brother, I'm just glad he was too excited to ask me about him, and how he's doing and such. Because uh, I wouldn't have known how to explain to him that we broke contact.
The reason would require me to tell him what we are, and how we have meta-human abilities. It would be too much for him to take in at once. And if I did explain, he would want me to start talking to him again, and I can't do that. At all. A few months ago, I spoke to Ben for a little, to see how he was doing.
I can't lie, I missed my bestfriend, so yeah I talked to him. Regardless of what Tobias said. And uh, later that night, I realized I messed up when I stepped foot into our apartment. He sat at the kitchen table, drinking. There was a touch screen device on the table, and he showed it to me, quite angrily.
The screen showed surveillance of me, talking to Ben. Long story short, we argued again. Even though I was trying to apologize the whole time. He was really upset with me so, he ended up leaving and slamming the door behind him. I admit, I cried that night.
And I also drank alot that night too. So, all I really remember is crying, and puking into the toilet. Someone was holding my hair though so, I think he could've came back. Not too sure but uh, yeah. I realized, every time I spoke to Ben, or even so much as look at him; me and Tobias begin to drift apart.
And I don't want that so, I told Tobias I was going to talk to him one more time, to tell him I can't check up on him anymore. Cuz the last thing I wanted to do was leave him hanging, leave him thinking we're gonna be friends again. I explained why to Ben and once again, he understood completely. I gave him one last hug, and that was it. I haven't spoken to him in about 4-5 months now.
I still miss him but, I'd miss Tobias way more if I ever lost him. And right now, the only possible way I'd lose him, is if I keep running back to Ben. So, sacrifices, are to be made. And anyways, something in my gut tells me I'll be able to have both boys in my life, problem-free, here pretty soon. Hopefully.
"Earth to Natalie," I hear and I blink fast and shake my head, getting out of my thoughts. "Get out of your head. Liam asked you something." Miles says, and I look over at my other brother. "Sorry, what did you say?" I ask, "I asked, how are we going to train our group of inconclusives separately from our non-inconclusives? It's not like we can have them get up late or early everyday, they'll get exhausted, not to mention, non-Divergent's will get suspicious of either the truth, or favoritism." Liam questions, and I flip a few papers on my clipboard, and show them this first week schedule that I planned out. It's listed Sunday to Saturday, Sunday being an off day, where both instructors and initiates can just relax and have fun. Monday's we'll have normal training during the day, same with Tuesday's, Wednesdays, Thursdays' and Friday's.
Now Saturday's though, they'll be an off day too but, that'll only apply to the non-inconclusives. Saturday's is when we'll gather our group to train, meta-human style. "This schedule is perfect, good job babe." My love says, and I smile. My brother's nod, "I think we're ready." Miles says, and we all agree. "Let's get back to Dauntless and relax," I say, and we all start heading out the back hallway. "While we still can."